Die Geschichte von Mervin

City of Sin!

2011-02-01T09:57:00.000-08:00

Since the July 2009 incident, where I was career assasinated and lost my 30k plus scholarship, i have lost my enthusiasm to continue my blogging life. I blogged lesser and lesser.Although it was the past, but i can't completely letting go the scar.

Forget about the past, let me continue with my blog.This time I am gonna share with you my Tour de Europe. Let me start with the City of Sin - Amsterdam. You can experience all sort of illegal stuff here legally!

Basically i love this city, not because of the prostitution or weed, but the people here. People here was basically friendly and nice. Generally people here speak Dutch, but everyone able to speak English fluently. A small city, where you can cover most of the places by foot. For the windmill, you need to go a little bit further away from the city centre.Some website said that bicycle is the best way to travel in this city.

Basically there will be few places you must go!

1) The wind mill - is the symbol of Dutch. Get an air from hectic city life with greenery. Remember to try the homemade ice cream.

2) I amsterdam - for me this is a nice spot to prove that you are in amsterdam.

3) Red light district - along the river you can see a lot of swams and ducks. Night time is the best, when all the prostitutes wearing glow-in-the-dark undies. and unique lighting everywhere.

4) Flower market- will be best time during Spring

5) Madame Tussauds - A worth going wax museum. Meet your Idol there.

6) Flower Park(Keukenhof) - This place only avaliable during Spring. Located far away from city. Very colourful and fantastic park!

7) Museums- There are few popular museum. Van Gough,Rijksmuseum, and Anne Frank House. I personally found that nothing special in those museums plus the entrance fees are quite high. Maybe because i don't know how to enjoy all the displayed drawing and not camera allowed in those museum. If you want something special, then you can go for sex museum or ertic museum.

There are few thing you should do in Amsterdam.

1) Try Holland french fries. Is famous here.

2) Take a cruise along the canal. You can see all the interesting places a long the canal.

3)If you are daring enough, you can try the weed from the weed shop.

4) If you are curious enough, then you should watch the live porn show.
5) Hop into a Chinese Restaurant at the Chinatown, a street next to red light. You will love the food there.

4 months later(how to travel around the city)!

2011-02-01T02:29:00.000-08:00

I wanted to update my blog from time to time but sometime it can't be helped. Sorry that i have abandoned my blog for 4 months and someone can and drop a comment "when are u gonna update mervin chew ???" and i realized that i still have reader who is waiting for my update.

First of all i would like to briefly explain "how to travel around the city" in Europe. There are a lot of website available for you to get information.

I would like to recommend you 2 websites.
1. about.com
2.wikitravel.org

Just type your desired destination and you will get all the information you need. about.com website will tell you the top attraction spot that you can't afford to miss out. Wikitravel will tell you the overview of the city, transportation rate/history/background....

If you need more detail information, you can buy the lonely planet book. This will be a nice book for travelling.

Another thing will be the public transport. Do check the type of public transportation available in the city you intended to go. Most cities, have tram, metro(underground), bus and even bicycle. Most of the cities come with package or promotion. For example in Germany, you can get a single daily ticket about 25 euro but you just need to pay 35 euro if you buy group ticket for 5 people. In Rome, the have Rome pass where you can travel for 3 days and few museums. Some even offer great discount during weekend. If you are student below 26 and you travel during weekend you can get offer price as much as 50%. Do check out for the transportation map.

You can also check the size of the city. Some city is relatively small. Example Brussels and Amsterdam are the small cities. Most of the interesting spots are located at the heart of the city and you can reach it by walking distance.

ok! i will be enough for this section! will update again later.

Backpack Travelling Around Europe! (Getting Into-)

2010-10-05T02:21:00.000-07:00

One of the most convenience thing living in Europe is travelling. European countries have the most reliable transportation system. So, it's such a waste if you don't know how to utilize such facilities. Since travelling is such convenience here, i can't afford to get myself missed out visiting cities around the Europe. To think of that, i have visited quite a number of cities.

For a cheap and affordable trip, you need to plan. "The early bird catches the worm" proverb is always true for early planning and booking.Because early preparation will enable you to get cheapest travelling ticket or desirable accommodation and save your money. But sometime, there will be last minute promotion. When i say sometime, meaning it will depend on your luck. So, early planning will still the best.

Today, i am gonna to share a little of my experience on how to plan. Of course it won't be the best way, but i do hope it will bean aid for those who are planning for a trip.

STEP 1:

First of all you need to:

-Decide the locations that you will be visiting. It can be just a city or more than 1.

-Check the available date you wanted to go for travelling.

-Estimate the duration of you travelling.

-Approximate the amount you are afford money to spend for the whole vacation.

*Tips: Flexibility is important here. Give a range on your date, duration, and your budget. Different dates have different prices for travelling ticket and accommodation.

STEP 2:

After you have set a range for above criteria. Now we proceed to transportation.

There will be 5 type of transportation available:

a) Train is the best way for travelling. The seating is spacious and will stop direction at the main train station(located center of the city). The only problem is the price! normally it will be the most expensive travelling option unless you book at least 3 months in advance or the is an ongoing promotion.

b) Airplane will be the cheapest way of travelling within Europe. The problem is, there will be baggage allowance and a lot of restrictions. Further more, you need to be on the airport at least 1 hour earlier. Most the airports are located far away from the city and you need to pay for about an hour bus ticket to city center.

c) Bus will be another option, but it will be the slowest. You will need to sit long hours of bus to your location. Normally it will come it package, where your accommodation or even your food will be included. Depend on the company that provide you the services and the price you pay.

d) Another option will be renting a car and drive yourself to the desired location. Renting a car is not expensive here provided if you are travelling about 4 person per car. Those who are new in Europe, you are allow to use your licence for the first 6 months in European countries. But, bear in mind, the driver seat will be on the left hand side of the car. So, everything will be exactly opposite compared to Malaysia.

e) The last option will be "car pool". Which mean you will be travelling with some random driver who wanted to go for the same destination. It's available in website where the driver will be posting out their vacancy and available seats. And you will be paying a small amount of money for it. Generally, it's safe but not really reliable. Definitely a big NO for destination which takes more than 4 hours.

Ok. Enough of the transportation option. Now we proceed will transport selection. Normally, we will just choose for the first 2 options (train or airplane). There will be a number of flight companies which offer many destinations with affordable price. Check all flight company for the air ticket and list out the price for comparison. For example Rynair, Air berlin or Easy jet. Do, keep an eye for train tickets too. For example in Germany, they train have ICE(www.deutsheBahn.de) and you will able get cheap tickets if you book few months earlier or you book more than 1 ticket in advance.

List out all the price and location for each travelling options which are in your range of the dates available and find the cheapest from it. Don't just list out 1 option, make more variation and give yourself more choices to choose.If you travelling to more than 1 city, list out all the routes. Do not fix which city will be the 1st destination. Just list out all the options available.

Below are the sample of the draft you can do for your destination and location selection with the price listed on each route.

STEP 3:

After drafting the possible routes, we now proceed to route selection. For example, you can refer to the diagramme above. You can see arrows with different colours indicate the routes. Choose the best option that suit you.

There are few criterion you need to take into consideration for the selection:

-number of days for each city. Normally, we spend 3-4 days for each city. If you are travelling few places, do include the time spend for travelling

-the cheapest way to your desired destination

-the most time saving transportation

-transport that comfort you well

**Tips: in case the train ticket is just a little bit more expensive than air ticket, i would suggest you to go for the train.

STEP 4:

Next, you need to start booking! Book the ticket via online. You just need to fix the date and pay with credit card. Booking through website of the train/flight company is easy and well guided.

When you keying your details when booking, make sure you give all the correct information. Double check all you details. Most important will be the name, passport number and the date chosen. After conformation of payment, there will be no amendment is allowed.

STEP 5:

When you done all you transportation booking, now we'll proceed to accommodation selection. For the hostel booking, i am using hostelworld.com. There are a number of hostel/hotel or guest house available. Select the date and city, you will see a list of accommodation available with full descriptions, comments and rating. Choose the best place for yourself.

Tips: for better selection, please refer to the comments dropped by the previous visitors. The comments will be a great help for you. Do take note the distance for city centre and the facilities provided.

Great! with all 5 steps, you will able to get into your desired city with reasonable price. Hope this post able to give you guys rough idea how travelling within Europe countries. Below will be some useful website for travelling.

http://www.hostelword.com

http://www.ryanair.com/

http://www.statravel.com/

http://www.easyjet.com

http://www.airberlin.com

That all for this post. Next, i will be sharing wit you guys how to travel around the city.

365 Days

2010-10-01T02:46:00.000-07:00

Today is exactly 1 year i have stayed in Germany.365 days ago, i was in the airport for the first time. Going oversea for the first time, departed from my home country. Leaving behind a lot of sweet memories. Everything was in mess, and wasn't ready to leave. At one point i feel like give up to Germany, but i can't afford to give up my dream. Proceed to what i have planned, keeping the promise to myself.

October 1,2009 is the date where i flew away from Malaysia. Experiencing my 1st Autumn. For the first half of the year, i can't able to settle down. I remembered that i was in high enthusiasm during Autumn, having plenty of plans, goals and aims. I planned everything, but when winter came, all my plan failed. I was demotivated, my studies gone haywire. From attending the classes, i started to skip classes. From studying, i turned to laze around, doing nothing. Thing doesn't turn well during my winter semester. Reason? A lot! But all was just an excuse for me to be lazy!

When winter reached to the end, exams were coming. I somehow gone through 8 exams( including language and non-technical) and 1 project. I was lucky to pass all exams except Werkzeugmaschine. The failing of 1 subject really got me! From that onward, I was having phobia on failing. xD

Exam ended, Spring came. I missed the most beautiful scene of the year, the 1st month of Spring, where all the flowers blooms. Greenery scene accompanied by colourful flowers. It was amazing, but that time i was taking my language class. A private course in Dusseldorf which costed me 400 euro per month. I needed to travel all the way to Dusseldorf everyday. I was tiring because it took me about 1 hour to reach and spending another 1 hour to reach home.

When my summer semester started, i stopped the language class. Went for classes. I only have 3 classes a week. But because 2 of the classes were in the same time, so i basically only attend 2 classes weekly. This semester, i spent most of the time in library. Don't be mistaken take i actually studied in the library. Yeah, no doubt that i studied a bit, but i spent half of the time facebooking, playing online games, playing msn and watching movies. Though my productivity was low in the library, but at least better than "fermenting" and do nothing in the room.

Summer ended, exam over! All the examination results were out. I had my vacation. And now Autumn and going to start my thesis in no time. Though i don't know what i have done for the past 1 years or what i have learnt from German's life, but when i looked back on my stick note filled with my aims, goals and dreams. I realized that i actually achieved most of it! I don't know how to express the feeling. Imagine when you set your goals 1 years ago. In between, many thing happened and forgotten your goals. You go wayward! Deviated from the original plan. In the very last minute, you recalled you goal, and you got back.

Time passes really fast, i can't chase back what i missed. Right now i am appreciating what i have now.

*ps: i am back to blogging life. xD

Disappointment?

2010-08-17T12:20:00.000-07:00

Last night i got my examination result for Verfahrentechnik, it was just 2.7 (Germany system, something like cgpa, best will be 1.0) I was rather disappointed with it. After working hard for this subject and i thought i have done well during the exam, but i never thought it will be just 2.7 ( i was hoping for about 1.7 or better). It was really a shock news for me. Just like the whole world fall apart. As if your hard work didn't pay off. To be frank, i never have such feeling before.

I remember when i was in primary school where we must take UPSR. I was merely know what is the UPSR when i took it. I have never been the top students in my batch or even the class. I was basically ranked about 20-30+ among the students. Well, you can consider me as the top among the averege. Back then i was naughty, never do my homework, always get caned by the teachers, and of course never fail to have fight with my fellow friends.LOL! When the UPSR results was out, the list was pasted on the notice board right in front of the school entrance. Everyone ran to it once the announcement was made about the results. And i was in the top list, i scored straight 5 As for it(i was from SK school, so only 5 subjects taken). Of course i was happy and excited because no one will expect me to get such a results(no even me). Out of joy, there was someone in tears. J who was one of the top students broke down and cried. He scored 4 As and a B. That time i was wondering why must you be so sad because of this. It was just another examination out of numerous examinations. I don't understand what is the feeling of disappointed when your hard work didn't pay off. But i realized that Luck always be on my side.

Because of the good results, my dad enrolled me in to RMC (Royal Military College) where the requirement was at least 4 As and above for UPSR. Before i was enrolled into the college i were required to do some minor test for stamina, perseverance, IQ test where i stayed in the military camp for 1 whole week. Later i got the admission into it, and whole new world awaited for me. To think back, it was a total disaster for the 1st year in there. You got punished whatever fault you did, and you also punished for the fault of your friends. i remembered i woke up daily about 5am and sleep about 12am daily. This resulted me sleeping habit during the class ( i am not going to elaborate in detail about my life there). My results was so poor where ranked 30 out of 100 students in my batch. I begin to pick up my studies during the early of form 3, where i need to take my PMR. Luckily i have a group of good teachers never give up on us. They keep pushing us, train us and guide us till to the day of examination. And with their helps and of course again with Luck, i scored 7 As in the examination (again, RMC is consider a SK type school, so just 7 subject were taken).

Right after the PMR, i tell myself, i will make sure my name will be in the 1st sheet of the paper on the notice board ( every time, the overall examination was pasted on the notice board, and normally top 15-20 will be on the 1st sheet, and i was always in the second sheet). So i make an effort to strike since the beginning of form 4. My hard work paid off. I was ranked number 5 in the 1st half of the year and 8th in the final year. Somehow, i didn't manage to keep my perseverance with me and my studies when down during form 5. But i manage to score 9 As in my SPM (not all A1, with few A2). Well, with this results, i was one of the 6 students who scored all As. Well, it seem like our standard was so low where none of use get straight A1 like other ordinary school,but the reality is the life as a military student ain't a easy thing, more over to score a string of As. Of all 6, everyone get a scholarship some went to oversea, and some went to some prestige colleges and left me back to form 6 life. This time i would not say Luck was on my side. Perhaps you can consider me the worst of the top.LOL!

Ok! Form 6, back to my hometown, my old school. Everything seems like have to restart again, i have to get use of the "normal" school lifestyle after 4 years in "extraordinary" life. LOL! Well, form 6 life was ain't easy especially when your class filled with the cream of the cream. Those who scored 11 A1s, 12 A1s..... and you just straight A but not A1. So that was the life. Instead of biology, i have chosen physics class. One thing you should know about me is i am sucks in Physics since form 4. Instead, i hate that subject. BUT, because i don't want to compete with the top of the top for limited places in Uni for the critical course( eg: doctor,dentistry or pharmacy), so i choosen physics class. In the mind that i have wider scope for engineering scope and lesser stress for my studies in form 6. LOL! Well, form 6 life passes with a lot of memorable stuff, where i had my first gf, where i was addicted to DOTA and play at the cyber cafe up till 3am in the morning during my trial exams with CH. CH was my best friend. I was sitting in the 1st row right in the middle of the class and he was next to me and JY just behind me. The funniest thing was, JY and i always fell asleep in the class and got scolded by our teacher CTH.LOL! Though we played a lot, but i never fail to do our revision, everyday and night (except during dota session). Until the last 2 days before my physics examination, i broke down, i was worry i can't make it for the exam. Of course i took a lot of effort to master the subject, but it just don't get into my brain. I remember that night i went to HS house doing revision with HS and CS and in the middle of revision, the fear surrounded me, i went to the back and cried out, never in my life i was so worry about my studies. But somehow that time i was worry to death. That time H came and he accidently found out that i was being a crybabe. And he comforted me. Well, when the result was out, i got 3 As and a B for my physics. Though i have already expected the result, but............

Ok, a another new chapter of my life when i was enrolled into UKM of a degree in Mechanical engineering. As usual, i had a good result for my 1st semester. Since the beginning of my admission into the uni, i was not in the mood to study as hard as i was anymore. I lost my spirit to strive like what i used to be. Moreover the degree i got was the 3rd last choices out of 8 choices i have selected. For the last 6 semester i led my life in "happy go lucky" lifestyle where i don't care much of my results. Thing happened the same as i reached Germany. I have forgotten my resolution and my target to work hard. And........ So for the second semester, i start to dig out my long buried spirit within me and try to strive for the final time. Though the Verfahren result was rather disappointing, but i still haven't give up because i still have 2 more exams to go. Getting back the "spirit" where you lost for years is ain't easy, more over you can't just have the feel, you must do something to show the result. I hope the Luck that has been accompanying me for year be with me again. :)

ps: too long to check for error mistake.

Changes!

2010-08-14T11:10:00.000-07:00

I was studying and took a short break. Went to the toilet and rinsed my face with cold water to reduce my tiredness. Then i looked myself in front the mirror and i realized that i look so awful. My face was filled with blackhead especially on my nose, a little bit of pimples, large dark circles under the eyes with horrible eye bag. A little of wrinkles near the edges my eyes. A big forehead with lesser hair. I am having hair loss problem since the day i reached Germany. They told me that this was due to the "hard" water we use daily.

Looking at myself i realized that i didn't care much on my appearance since the day i started my new life in here.

I remembered that i used to wash my face twice a day when i was in Malaysia (morning and evening), but nowadays i just wash it once a day or maybe once every 2 days.
I remember i use to have facial treatment ( with mask) once a month or 2 months once, but i never do that since the day i was in Germany. Even WS who was a typical guy do mask more than me.LOL! i wonder if the world have turn upside down!
I remember each time i went back home, my mum will get me a small glass birdnest every morning(she even woke me up in the middle of sleep to drink it before she went to work), but never for now.
I remember that every time when i was in the study weeks, mum will get me a box of "essence chicken", but not in Germany.
I remember during my revision weeks, i will take care of my meal by taking quality food, but these days fast foods will be my meals.
I remember i used to take supplement foods every morning, but these days, chocolate and junk food replaced them.LOL!
I remember I woke up every morning i used to drink a big glass of plain water, but now coffee and tea will be my new drinks.
I remembered that i use to hate smokers, but now i am one of them.
I remember i used to be shopaholic who shopped a lot, but the last time i went for shopping was nearly 6 months ago. Having limited shirts and pants. Even WS have double of my quantity.LOL!

I wonder if i havechanged that much!

Less than 2 weeks before final 2 exams!

2010-08-12T13:38:00.000-07:00

I has been struggling for the last 2 exams of my degree course( excluding the thesis) for the final time i do my revision for my last exam(i hope i will pass all of it). When the exam ended i will start doing my thesis and then balik kampung. I have been longing to go back! BUT before i am going back to Malaysia, there are few places that i must go beside Europe and of course i need $$$$$! hmm... let put aside this thing 1st.

Today will just focus on my on going like. Lately i forced myself to wake up 7am daily. Well it was not an easy task to do because i need to shift time sleeping time and i ended up fell sick twice.LOL! because i can't sleep at night and woke up too early which causes me to fall sick.

Hmm... if you notice, i am writing this blog with really really bad sentences( i know most of the time my blog suck, but this time is even worse).Because i was in rush when i was typing the post. I was out of randomness!

Whole day in the library from 9am-5.30pm(excluding 20 mins out for lunch), productive is not really high, but at least i keep my revision in track. These days, i was in high tension due to 2 examinations on 24th and 26th. Both required you to memorised every since words on the notes plus both will be in Germany language examination! :( with my low level of german, i need to double up my effort compared to others. With my super duper lazy mervin against desperate wanna to study mervin. I wonder who will win! LOL!

we will see how it turn after the examinations. :)

Determination!

2010-07-15T14:26:00.001-07:00

Determination! Determination! Determination!

I always fail to keep myself with the books when in come to examination! It's always excuses and distractions when i am suppose to concentrate

and study. The word DETERMINATION seem easy to be uttered out, but i far to be reach! hard to keep myself on track! In in the pace what i have planned.

Examination is coming in no time, yet i wasn't ready. Everyday filled myself with worrisome but lack of enthusiasm to perform my task. :(

I have build up my revision plan, but the execution will be another story. Starting this Monday, i've tried to check myself with sticky note. Yeah, i noticed that it do help, but the progression was just 60%.. 40% of the work will be postponed to the next day. In the end, more and more thing piled up together and i got even more stress or feel like giving up.

Every morning, when i woke up, just before i get out of my bed, i will tell myself "today will be a fine day, i will be happy, and i will finish all my task" But it seem like doesn't work. I recalled that i always convinced my friends never ever give up! But i just realized that not giving up is not sufficient to make my day, i still need D-E-T-E-R-M-I-N-A-T-I-O-N!!!

2 habits that i need to cultivate for my whole examination period will be:

No. 1: Clearly identify my missions and proceed to my goals!

No.2: Prioritizing my goals!

We will see how it work! When the exam is over! I will check if those 2 habits are with me or not!

Some how, i feel like praying and ask for favor to the Almighty God in helping me go through this crucial moment. BUT i know, no one can help you, if you can't help yourself.

Just

7 days(23/7) before my German Language examination

18 days(3/8) for my Verfahren examination

39 days(24/8) for my Werkstoff II examination

41 days(26/8) for my Werkzeugmaschine examination

After the examination, i will check this post again, seeing how good i am in keeping my word!

Begin of the War!

2010-07-11T15:28:00.000-07:00

Just came back from home after watching the last match of the World Cup, where Spain won over Netherlands by 1-0 during the additional time(110+ minutes). Everything ended! This was the first time in my life watching football matches since the beginning of the World Cup until the very final match. Maybe because of the atmosphere watching football was so different compared to Malaysia. It's really entertaining watching you favorite team winning the game with the supporters shouting, cheering. Especially on public viewing!

It's in the middle of July now. Will be having my first paper next week, German language, followed by Verfahren(process engineering), Werkstoff II and Werkzeugmaschine (machine tool) on 3rd,24th and 26th of August respectively. Which mean, i am starting a war on myself. Taming my mind. Killing my laziness, eliminating my unmotivated thought. Cultivating myself with the virtues i have learnt for the past 20 years. Is my final semester. I don't wish to pick up another semester. I have enough prolonging my degree courses.

Well, it was the 10th month in Germany. Time flies. Struggling to dettach myself from clinging the past. But right now, i must move forward. not to erase all the past, but to carry it with new goal, new inspiration. Overcoming my weakness by utilizing it in beneficial way. hmm.... i would not like to explain what i meant by the "past", because it already the past. xDDD

Summer in Germany isn't as nice as i thought. The hot and dry weather is really killing me. Sweat everyday, even in the room! making me so sticky and unmotivated to do anything. Perhaps, it was just an excuse for myself being lazy. xDBut, it is for sure i will be having lesser time on blogging (though i didn't update my blog about a month).

Hmm... my wish was granted! My thought, my hope has been answered. Mum and Dad finally bought their ticket to Germany this coming September. I can't wait to see them. It has been nearly a year. Though i am not a home boy, but..... i still love them as i always do. :)

Need to stop here now! World cup ended, my laziness end here. Time to fight for myself. Bye bye lazy Mervin!

Here are couple of pictures for June and July.

Taken during the match Germany vs Ghana(June 23,2010)

A day picnic in Essen, Grugapark, and "botaking" Adrian(June 26,2010)

Swimming and riding boat at Wedau,Duisburg (June 27,2010)

Germany vs Argentina(July 3,2010)!

Germany vs Spain (July 8,2010)!

A Wish of A Child from Lower Middle Class Family

2010-06-16T12:25:00.000-07:00

I was thinking of calling my parents since last few days, but i could get a chance to do so. Today i finally made a call back home. Telling them my wish, having a vacation with mum and dad in Europe. Well, it sound weird for a guy like me who will be quarter of century old by next year uttering such wish. Maybe because of my background. It might an easy task for some of you, but definitely not for me due to 2 reasons. Firstly, is the family financial status and secondly, dad's personality who always refuse us.LOL!

I was born in a lower middle class family, where both of my parents need to work. Since i was young, i was hardly in my home. When i was a child, i stayed with my paternal grandparents. A family full with rules and restrictions. Where i always been punished for my naughtiness.LOL! When i was 10, my beloved grandma passed away, i moved to my maternal side. By 14 years old (when i was form 2), i has been sent to boarding school in KL. During my high school(form 6), i continued my studies in my hometown,BUT... for the sake of convenience and of course freedom, i stayed most of the time at my grandpa's house instead of my house which is just 10 minutes awayxD. After my examination(STPM), i had my 6 months break, and spent the entire holiday working in Genting Highland. Later, i was offered to UKM to pursue my Mechanical Engineering degree starting July 2010 (by the age of 20) and now ended up in Duisburg-Essen University in Germany.

So, the time i have spent with my family was rather limited. I missed a lot of family trips/outing. You might ask, "if you seldom see them, you should not really close (in term of relationship) with them?" Yeap, i am not very close with my parents, especially when i was a kid. I hardly talk to my dad. As time goes on, i grew up, and every time i went back home, i really feel at HOME. So warm, so relaxing, at peace, and nothing to worry about. I was having fun staying home, having dinner together, watching mum and dad teasing each other, seeing my siblings body language (because the seldom talk).

Since last years, every time i went back, my heart pain seeing my parents. Every time, i see them, i realized that dad and dad getting older, there is more wrinkles on their facse, and more white hairs. But one think never changed, dad still work hard as usual. Running here and there, trying to earn more income for the family. For over 20 years he has been working so hard, and i was hoping that he can taking some break to be here with me in Germany.

So today, i called mum to come over here by end of this year with dad. Mum said that she has no problem coming over, but thetroublesome part wil be dad. And i called dad as well. Well, dad is always busy with his work, so you need a persuading skill when you talk to him. I remembered today when i asked him to come over, he said " Cannot, there is a load of work to do" for the 1st few times. Then i continue to persuade him, then he said " Hmm... we will see how is the arrangement first, but i guess i can't make it" He kept repeating the word " cannot" until i say "Please don't say no or can not when you haven't plan it. If you really want to come, we will figure out the way. But never say NO". Finally he stopped saying the word NO, but he kept saying "We will see how." LOL! Though he didn't say the word "YES" but i am assuming that he that he has agreed. Because it is my wish!

Weekend!

2010-06-13T12:32:00.000-07:00

Was out of the city this weekend. Saturday to Rüdesheim and Sunday to Bonn. For the past few days, i was bored of staying in the room. Especially when night reaches. I felt energetic but filled with emptiness. These days i was getting to bed late and woke up late. Thanks to the sun that set about 9.30pm.

For the Satuday trip was awesome. Travelled 3 hours to Rüdesheim, a place that well known for producing wine, Took short tour around the city. Had a german typical lunch in Restaurant. And get some soviniors.The city was rather happened, with a lot of people. The city is covered by hills, where the grapes are planted. The city was also located along the Rhein river, the most popular river of Germany.

By 2pm, we took a tour along the river side from Rüdesheim to Koblenz, 4 hours ship. At the beginning, we were rather excited, taking pictures here and there. Looking at each cities, abandoned castles and forties we passes through. After a few stations, we started to "cool down", no more photographing session. We just sat down, enjoying the sun ray, the greenery, the wind blew through us as well listening to music and chit chatting.

Stopped over at Koblenz for Germany king monument.

The next day(Sunday) went to Bonn, was once the capital of Germany. A small city. Took a some pictures. went to Beethoven birthhouse, paid 4 euro for entry fee, but rather disappointing. And no photo allowed.

On the way home, saw a group for weird people(i guess a family of 6) quarreling to each others. Shouting and scream out loud, until i, the one who fell asleep with earphone on could hear their screams. It was rather funny, when on of them, a fat lady changed her shirt in the train.LOL! People sitting near to me was aslo laughing seeing the "funny " people.LOL!

Summer life!

2010-06-09T10:08:00.000-07:00

Right now i am experiencing the 4th cycle of the season-Summer-. I remembered that i was here during Autumn(Oct, Nov) where i started a new life here. Then to Winter(Dec-Feb) where i was so excited for my 1st snow. Followed by colourful Spring(Feb-May) and now sunny Summer.

Things that i dislike during summer:
- the night is too short(no party atmosphere) xD
- too many bugs(flies)
- the weather was too dry and hot.
- my room get dirty will all the cotton flew into my room
- food get spoilt easily

AND

i was happy with summer because:
- i can wear shorts to uni! :)
- more sun exposure (sun light something increases my enthusiasm)
- nice weather for outing(good for sightseeing)
- more energetic
- can say no to jacket ( not applicable during rainy day)
- the city are more happening with nice weather

Well, nothing perfect. You can't get everything you want. But Summer is really a nice season to me. I feel like travelling around the europe in this weather, but..... $$$$$$$!LOL!

ps: summer teaser! that is why people love sunbathing!

Now I Know Why!

2010-05-26T07:23:00.000-07:00

Flourance, Italy, March 2010

Today was rather cold and rainy. No more sun bathing. And now i understand why these Caucasians always craved for sun light. Because you hardly get sunny weather here. It's always cloudy and cold. So, when the sun is out, everyone go out for sun bathing, enjoying the "precious" sun ray. LOL!

I was in Düssseldorf last Monday for sunbathing.LOL! For this first timen(i will never do that in Malaysia).LOL! Experiencing the hot sun ray, will cold breeze of air, enjoying the green scenery and of course people in summer wear.LOL! Lying on the grass, "peeping here and there, looking for some hot .....hehe(you know what i mean).

Sunbathing in Düsseldorf, May 24th 2010!

Unknowingly, it was the end of my 8th month here in Germany. I have gone through Autumn, Winter, Spring and soon will be SUMMER! I gonna to love it. Hot weather, and of course HOT.... Caucasians with summer wear surely an eye catching.LOL!

Venice, March 2010

Yesterday i finally passed up me project report. Finally, after 5 months long! I was kind of lost since out of sudden, i lost my direction. Project done, exam done, internship report done. Going to have a nice break this week before i get myself busy again(my break definition is sleep, eat, rest). Will be start preparing for another 3 examinations and starting looking for my thesis title next week.

Sigh, thinking back, there are still many places yet to visit. Paris, Belgium, Austria,UK, Scottland, Swiss, Berlin...... I wonder i able to making it.LOL! Well, i was thinking of going to Paris this June, but the problem is i can't find a suitable partner to the City of Romance. What a pity!

Flower garden in Netherlands, May 2010

Opss, i just realized that my post was too far from the main post. Coz i was so lazy to update my blog and compiled up everything in this post. Anyway, nothing special for today. I just printed out some new pictures for my wall. LOL! some candid pictures that memorable to me.

Holland for shopping, but ended up empty handed, March 2010!

ps: i was so lazy to update the posts i missed, so i guess some photos will do.LOL!

Day after examination!

2010-05-22T14:54:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i was worried like hell for my examination. For the first time i need to take an examination verbally. Sort of interview session with the professor. It was rather i bad day for me. After a sleepless night, i went out to catch a street train to the main train station because the exam was in Essen(another city). I was suppose to meet up WS, and taking 12.32 train(intercity train) to Essen. Thanks to the street train for 15 minutes delayed, i missed the train and ended up going there alone. You know,I am always sucks when come to direction part. Beacuse it was my first time going that place and i got LOST! I took more than 30 minutes to get into the examination place. It was a bad omen for me before i start my exam! GOSH!!!

During the exam, i was quite confidence in answering the question, initially, everything was fine. But when it goes further, the questions were too hard to be answer. Anyway, i passed the examination. Happy for that. xD! After the examination, i went back to my room for less than an hour, because i have my German tutorial class. Sigh, i wish i can skip that class.

Back from the class. I realized that my room was really in mess. A mess that i never had before. And i took picture on my ugly side of me. hehe.. and fell asleep about 9pm. I was too exhausted.

Today, i woke up about 7am. Well, i wish i can sleep longer, but the sun light was too bright and woke me up( summer soon, these days, the sun rises about 5 something). And i called home. Talked to mum, dad, and grandma. I was actually wanted to call them last night, but till was too late. so.... about 7.40am, wei sung asked me to accompany him to Flohmarkt ( sort of pasar pagi). Yeap, met him and arian at the train station about 8.32 train. After the walk at "pasar pagi" we went to shopping( i actually don't have the mood to do so). Bought nothing. xD! Instead we went to buy ingredients for to night dinner. Yeap, i am going to cook NASI LEMAK! You know, how we Malaysian always craved for Malaysian food when we were out of Malaysia. hehe...

This is my product! (Al, K,TC,XC,QW helped me a lot in preparing this)

Hmm... it took use about 1 and half hours to prepare the foods for 16 people. Tonight main menu will be Nasi Lemak followed by Pizza! LOL! WS and Ad doing the western food while i was incharging of typical malaysian food. xD! well, thanks to Sinye and Kayin who taught how to cook it. Overall, i am satisfied with my cook. Well, i improved a bit. xD! though some was complaining that my rice a bit salty.hehe... but thumb up for my sambal and curry chicken! yeah!

poser! Malaysian!

Thanks to Ad for such a nice hair cut!

What? I am still free to blog?

2010-05-15T07:26:00.000-07:00

These few days i kept hiding myself in the room, thank to my in-coming examination and a bundle of works on my project where the both due on next Friday. Really making me down. Isolation mode executed and i was so bored staying the room. My revision progression was rather slow, as if not moving at all.LOL! Fell sleepy for the whole day. Wake up, translate my note, and study, then sleep back, wake up again, facebooking and the study back. Then went for break AGAIN. Though i was in the room alone, but it seem like a lot of distraction. Looking on the pictures on my wall, reminded me "216" and special number which i used for the past 6 months.^^ Though it was none of my business ,but......(i kept a lot of secret within myself.xD)

Well, lacking of update on my blog, making me failed to jot down my experiences for the past few months. Many thing happened, but as time passed, all those incidents are fading from my memory. Only those jotted down will help me refresh my memories. Well, of course the taken picture do play the same role. That why, i kept looking the pictures on my wall.LOL!

I don't know what i should blog about in this section. too blur d.LOL! so random!

When i am busy....!

2010-05-13T15:04:00.000-07:00

I remembered that my friend said "your frequency of blog reflected how busy you are". Well, i admit it. I was busy since February for the examination which ended in the middle of March, then within a week, i flew to Italy for 1 week sight seeing.

By the 1st week of april i started my german class in dusseldorf. Daily classes from 2pm-6pm, but i took me 2 hours for the daily traveling duration. Classes were from Monday to Friday. Woke up early in the morning, work on my on going project in uni, and homework from german class. By 12.30pm leaved the room and headed to Düsseldorf for class and will be reaching home about 7.15pm. cook, dinner and rest. By the time i settled down everything, it was about 10 something at night. Start to feel sleepy and tired, so.... sleep! that was my life for the last month.

This month, i am filled with my project stuff and my incoming examination. which both fall on 21st of May. Rushing to the project reports and translating the examination script from german to english. Which took me a lot of time.

Out of these busy days, i realized that i missed out something. I didn't manage to enjoy the spring season. The missed the scene where the flowers bloomed. The colorful flowers, the greenery scene after winter. I was so cool! Though i realized that since last month, i keep telling myself "i will take some days off and enjoy it". But i was too late. Since last 2 weeks, the weather turned to be rainy, cloudy and cold. I can't imagine that i am experiencing 5-7 degree Celcius during winter. Sigh!

Nevertheless, i manage to squeeze sometime for short break, where i took 1 day trip to Netherlands for the spring season, the flowers and the wind mill.^^ short and memorable.

Well, i guess i will be continue busy until end of this year. Lately i missed a lot of stuff back then i Malaysia. Missed my mum, my dad. feel like hugging them and give them kisses.LOL! miss the family stuff. Though since small, i hardly stay in my home, but somehow i feel like going home.LOL! i missed my life in KL especially few months before i came to germany. It was on the peak! No deny many thing happened.

Well, i am so blur now. And not sure what i am writing now. as if my content deviated from the title.LOL! maybe....i guess today blog was just a summary on what i have been doing for past 2 months!

i will try to update it from time to time! ^^
ps: i was too busy to edit the pictures. So.... it should be look bad!xD

Spring!

2010-04-14T14:53:00.000-07:00

Maybe you of you guys still don't know, it is Spring now in Germany. The flowers start blooming, the green earth has come back.

While walking out of the street, you can see trees with various type of colors. The grass start growing. Everything seem like so lively. More pleasant! The day getting longer, sun rises about 5.30am and sets about 8.30pm. Always feel like the night is too short!LOL!

Since last week, i started my German class in Dusseldorf. I was taking the intermediate class. Everything was so in mess, where i need to travel for more than an hour to the class(including the time for waiting the train and train interchange) The class was not easy for me. Feel like i have the lowers German language command in the whole class(though it only consist of 9 students)

Load of home works, with unfinished project, internship report, and next month oral test. Too many to do, to little time to spend. Maybe, i wasted to much time last semester. Wondering what i have done for the past 6 months. Better don't ask me. Coz i don't feeling like thinking. Life is all about moving forward. Now, i know that i must resume all my pending work. Can't afford to continue lazying.LOL!

Guess, at the moment, i had no time to blog out my italy trip. Just have a look on my pic in facebook. almost all picture uploaded except picture in venice.

Need to sleep now. till then......

When the Exam Ended and Autumn Reached

2010-03-21T11:48:00.000-07:00

Since my last examination (11th of March) over, i kinda of hibernating for weeks even till today. After the examination, i felt lazy and moody. The feeling is even worst than during the examination period. Just that i no need to face my notes and books.

My days passed unproductively. Woke up in the late morning, online, watch movies/dramas and then took afternoon nap, chatting via msn and play computer games. That's how i passed through my days.

Though examination is over, but basically i still have a lot of thing to do. My project, internship report, german class preparation, bla..bla... It keep piling up more and more and i just don't have the mood to work on it.

I was so down until the day I went to Italy. It was superb. Though 1 week trip(6 days and 6 nights) was freaking exhausting for me but i am satisfied with the overall trip.

I was suppose to post up this section 2 weeks ago, but............ and should be posting about my Italy Trip today, but.....LOL! i really lazy these days.

Ok! I should stop this now. Will be updating my Italy trip tomorrow and I promise i wouldn't left out my blog for such a long period again.

Oh Sun!

2010-02-16T07:12:00.000-08:00

These days the sun set later compared to usual time. Normally, the sky turned dark by 1600 or 1630 hour and hardly see any sun. But, now the sun still shines brightly though it is already 5pm.

Though these few days we are still experiencing the temperature of below 0 degree, but it is the sign end of winter. The forecast shows that the temperatures will rise to 3-5 degree in 2 days and will be continue rising bit by bit.

After long period of depression without sun,and finally we have the chance to sun bath a while.^^ I mean having walk around the city. Well, maybe not in Malaysia, but Germany is a nice place to have short walk around the city experiencing the cold breeze until the sun after stayed long hours in the room.

Well, CNY over! Is my time to continue studying and prepare for my examination. With this inspiring weather, i hope it will spirit up myself to strive!

Meaning of Celebration!

2010-02-14T12:03:00.000-08:00

Today is the first day of Chinese New Year and well Valentine Day, but it was filled with emptiness.

I am wondering what the meaning celebrating Chinese New Year without family members and what the meaning of Valentine Day when you are alone. Though this 2 celebrations come together but it seem like meaningless to me.

Last night everyone gathered in my room for the celebration. Having steamboat for New Year eve. They played until 3 something. Everyone seem enjoying and happy. I do joined along, but somehow i felt that i missed out something. Can't really enjoy it. :(

Today, woke up about 12pm plus. Had lunch and cleaned up the room. By 3pm, went to an Indonesian house since i promised him to teach him the CAD until 7pm. Went to XM place for dinner as planned. Well, it was just a short dinner. Nothing special. Small chat and everyone dismissed my 8.30pm. And that end of my 1st day of CNY and Valentine Day!

What a day!!!!

This kinda of day really making me down!

Don't feel like blogging now!

Anyway!

GONG XI GONG XI!
and
HAPPY VALENTINE!

When The Semester Near to The End, and Examination Approaches!

2010-01-31T10:55:00.000-08:00

Since starting of this month, everyone start to isolate themselves and start studying. That was the time i hate most.

In this period, you will hardly see anyone:

1)online in MSN
2)playing Facebook
3)updating blog
4)chit chatting
5)outing
6)partying

They will say "NO" to everyone you asked! Refusing everything!

And of course me myself is all stress. Stress of exam, stress for being ignored, stress for everything! LOL!

Time running particularly fast. In 9 days, i will be having my 2nd Paper and 3rd paper a day after.

Well, no time for me to blog until these 2 papers is done.

I am now pushing myself to run as fast as i can! Cheer for me!

Proud or Ashamed?

2010-01-24T01:07:00.000-08:00

Hmm... i actually didn't update my blog for weeks. Why? well, i don't want to explain in detail. As what IS post on his blog before, " the time spend on the internet/blog proportional to your degree of boredom"
That is not the key point of this blog.xDD

Lately, i have more and more German friends. And the question they surely ask is "where are you from?" at i will just said "Malaysia". From time to time they will ask about the Malaysia's culture, life......

Well, as Malaysian (i take myself as pure Malaysian, though some might disagree) i tried to promote my home country. Letting them know the beauty of "my homeland" (some don't think so). The beached, the cities,.....these and that.... blablabla.....

BUT, i guess what i did is useless.

The perspective of the world toward Malaysia is so bad when it come to HUMAN RIGHT! Cases like human trafficking, child abuse, discrimination, and corruption were known for years! Lately, the case Mongolian girl, the ISA case of Hindraf, Anwar's case.........
AND now, the "name of GOD" issue. I would not like to make any comment of these cases in this blog. Because many people think that voicing out your voice is wrong. And you might ended up in somewhere else!

Last week, again! another strike by our dearly ex-leader, Dr. M who said that "the Holocaust failed as a final solution" by Malaysia Insider. More,read here

I was shock with his statement! Where he think that extermination a race is one of the solution! Malaysia is already in bad situation due the the case of religious building attack, and yet he create another tension!

If more and more of this issue pertaining HUMAN RIGHT happened in Malaysia, i guess, we should just forget about promoting Malaysia to the world! Because when people think of Malaysia, what will people think?

Just stop pointing finger! keep blaming each other when problem occurs! Why don't keep people start solving the problem who remained there unsolved!

*ps: this is not any political view or so whatever related! I am just a Malaysian who feel so sad and helpless to see what happened in my country!

Random!

2010-01-17T07:16:00.000-08:00

Here the last week House Party. Feel like blogging, but don't feel like typing.^^

Just let the pictures tell the stories.

A1 explaining the game rule, A looking!

blablabla... no time to go into detail!

Path of Life!

2010-01-15T02:10:00.000-08:00

Recently i read Chua's blog " vor dem Raffelberg". Well, most of the post were in Chinese and of course i ain't know what he is writing about. But, i do know that he is penning down his bits of memories in Germany, where Raffelberg is the place he is staying right now.

We came from the same Uni, taking the same flight with the same goal to Germany. Time flew and thing changed. Everyone move to their own path with different mind set and lifestyle. Thus, i guess what Chua's blog about reflecting just a small portion on the living style. Living in the world of my own, i guess i lead my world very different from other Malaysian. Not special or unique or whatever pleasant word to be utter. It is just different!

In the beginning, we tend to group together. Hanging out together, had dinner together, traveled together, shopped together. Everything together!

But now, i had my own meal, own friends, own life.... Everything on my own! Just a certain occasion, we will hang out together.

I remembered, i use to be a pathetic jerk who ain't want to go out alone. Scare of getting lost!
Always feel depressed........ and those are the past!

Deep inside me, i had something where people don't like, where the world displeased of it and i so called it as my "weakness". I guess everyone wanted to be different, but when you are too different, you will think another way round!

Knowing the "weakness" and accepting it are 2 different thing. And from accepting to benefiting it. I know, it was ain't easy to gone through these phases. But, i did it! And it really make a difference to me. I guess CO's words did enlighten me! And that made today Mervin!

I am having a new life with new goal!
What goes around, and come around!
I am enjoying me life!^^( though still struggling for incoming examination)

ps:I not going to say about "weakness" LOL!

Vanilla Twilight (Owl City)

2010-01-14T11:49:00.000-08:00

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you, dear
Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist deep in thought because when
I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
(Tonight, tonight, tonight...)

I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh if my voice could reach
back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear:
"Oh darling I wish you were here"

Random!

2010-01-12T04:09:00.001-08:00

click the picture for maximum scale!

Last night i went to DM and printed out a bundle of pictures from 2006-2009, memories during my Uni life, and a compilation of childhood pic and stick it on my white plain wall of my room.

Each picture has it own story!

I missed out few pictures especially those in Amsterdam and some pictures where i think is nice for framing!

I wanted to print more pictures, but at the moment, that's all. Too expensive for me! ^^

Story!?

2010-01-08T02:27:00.000-08:00

"I had the story, bit by bit, from various people, and, as generally happens in such cases, each time it was a different story." Edith Wharton

Just within a week, many thing happened. Guess what Edith quote was right, every moment, and time i experienced different thing. Everything was just the up and down of the life. Well let summarized it.

1) The pot of unknown plant i bought, finally bloomed . With nature fragrant of the flower, if helps me cover up those unwanted smell in my room!

2) I gone mad and insane when my room internet connection was out of service for the whole night.

3) C just found out something about me. We have something in common.

4) Chatted and saw pics of J. Glad that everything if fine. Flashing back the Sunway Pyramid incident!

5) Unintentionally stepped into C private matter. But manage to move out of it!

6) Trying hard to study, though most of the time fail.

7) Always had a great chat with A. Crapping around released my stress.

8) Forgotten today i had 3 appointments at the same time.
-dinner with JH
-met up with A
-gym with M
and i can just pick 1!

the flower blossomed pics with my back view of my room as background!

as you can see, each and every event is not related to each other. I was thinking how to post out my whole week stuff and..... ^^

Back Off!

2010-01-03T15:37:00.000-08:00

today, when i was checking my own blog, i found out someone searched my blog through google by searching "mervin chew s*** k*****"
i was really pissed off. Because today was sunday, and there is a jerk trying to dig up some stupid thing from the past.

Well, i don't denial, i am a bit harsh this time. I still holding the grudge where i was " career assassinated" due to company politic, where i has been the black sheep for someone to get promotion. I was sentence to death without any judgment but a feedback. I almost have to repeat my 5 months training, where i had gone 4 months of it. I almost lost my only chance to be in Germany as the training was one of the requirement. And i lost RM30000 scholarship because of this matter. All thank to the GM.

I was suppose to go all out against it, but due to YSD's AM closed conversation and she helped me a lot in relocating me back to another company. I really thanks her for her help.

Today, and again, someone trying to dig back the past. Looking for problems! I really hate it. I hate the moment when i was requested to sweep the floor of the workshop, throwing chemical disposal, get cuts and bruises all over my body, doing those stuff which is not related with my mechanical engineering degree. Being toyed by someone who do not work but pointing out finger.

Though, i already tried hard NOT to be involve in any political stuff in the company. But it seem like, being neutral, you will also be in trouble. And as you in trouble, no one will help you.

Sigh! I don't like to blog about this out. But, i really can't stand silence when someone trying to harm me again and again.

I was told to be more mature, think in the wider view, and blog in a more positive way. And, here go. I did it. But... how about J who cause me fired, the management who put all the blame on me. Can't you all think a little more mature! be more open to criticism! For me criticism is a way to improve a company. Terminating someone who criticise the wrong doing, won't solve any problem. The problem will remain there.

I am really tired of all these think. It really affect me a lot. Mentally, emotionally.
So, those who search for "mervin chew s*** k*****" via google.

PLEASE BACK OFF! I AM DONE WITH THAT. I WANT MY LIFE BACK!

New Year 2010

2010-01-01T13:40:00.000-08:00

Another 1 year has passed. Which mean i had been in Germany for 3 months and exam will be coming soon. Sigh... whenever i think about the examination, it got into my nerve.

Hmm.... after numerous of persuasion, i did join my friends for the New Year countdown in Cologne. Cologne definitely a nice place for new year celebration. The superb view of river with colorful ships moving along with the train bridge and classical buildings. As the firework was fired, the sky snowed. It was a perfect combination. While enjoying the beautiful scene with firework, you can see the white snows fall from the sky. Wow!

Firework! On the way to Cologne!

The Cathedral's View

from AL's fb

Initially i planned to stay back in my room and enjoy the Chivas i had just bought 2 days ago, but... guess i will only try it when A and B come.

I has been * months since the last time i had Chivas. Back then, S and me were clubbing freak. Love clubbing, enjoy night night. And we only order Chivas Regal every time we club. I still remembered what she told me " Don't simply 'chao sui',you are only allow to 'chao sui' me." That time was really funny.

Just took some pics of the chivas i took and again the bracelet on the table still my main attraction!

Unspoken!

Happy New Year everyone!

Thing That Never Change!

2009-12-29T15:01:00.000-08:00

As promised, i went to watch movie "AVATAR" with my fellow friends. The movie was superb. I guess it will be awesome if i watch it in 3D.

This was the second time i watched movie in Germany. Previously was 2012. Both were great. But, when i watched these movies, i turned moody. Flashing back the happy moment i had when i watched "Final Destination" and "Orphan". Well, although those movies were nice, but the most memorable moments were the moments when i watched its with someone i fell to.

That was the moment i cherish! Remembering the warm hand i am holding, with the smile on the face and eyes contacts we had . It was the sweetest moment. Though it was just momentary, i appreciate each of every moment.

Time passed, it has been 3 months plus. Many thing changed, people changed, environment changed, everything changed. But something remain the same.......

I guess, i had another emo blog again! I hate emo blog. Make me loose my cool. Letting people see how weak i am. But no help, this is the nature of red hat!

Moving on, but cherish the moment of happiness.

I remembered when H had conflict with J couple of years ago and H said "You won't understand until you really fell with someone"
Now i really understand it!

My latest picture!

2009-12-27T13:12:00.000-08:00

Guess photoholic like me can't resist to camwhore!
hehe...
Just taken on 2130, Dec 27, 2009 (Germany time)
in my room

Changes!

2009-12-26T17:35:00.000-08:00

Time moving fast! Just a few days, and it will be year end and we will be stepping into 2010. Another year of aging.
Time passed, and thing changed!

I remember last week was snowing and now all the snow gone! Christmas passed and waiting for new year. Well, i suppose that Christmas and New Year will be a celebration for everyone. Or worst come to worst, you will stay back in home with family members.

During the Christmas eve, i was complaining to myself that i felt a bit lonely. Coz i can't celebrate it. But, thing changed when i found out that my housemate was still in and wanted to go home. Someone who stay so near to his family stayed back in hostel during Christmas eve. Alone!
At that moment, i felt that i staying alone is not a big deal.

But, what M said was right. No matter how, i am still the red hat thinker as defined by Edward de Bono. My emotion changed according to time. I lost my inspiration. Started to feel down.
Well, though Mervin is an emotional being, but he has the capability hiding it. After all, Mervin still a secretive being just like J.hehe!

Moving on! Examination is coming soon! Fun time over!

What make me sad when i realized that Chinese New Year will be during my examination period. Plus, my birthday will be the day before my birthday. Sigh.... Though some of the time i celebrated it alone, but i don't feel like studying on the day where i got a year older! hehe...

Xcite (part 2)

2009-12-26T06:19:00.000-08:00

i personally love this picture where take while we were waiting for train at Dortmund!

Day 3 (Dec 20)

we were suppose heading to Cologne, but due to heavy snow, and delayed of S and K friend, we postponed out plan and have fun in Duisburg and Dusseldorf!

Workshop of the day, making snowman and explore both cities!

Firstly in Duisburg!

producing medium size snow in Duisburg! LOL!

isn't that cute!

Then Dusseldorf!

Still snowing!

MISSION 4 AND 5 COMPLETED!

Day 4 & 5 (Dec 21 and 22)

2 days trip to Winterberg for skiing!
Wow! Skiing was fun! xcite and xperience!

MISSION 6 ACCOMPLISHED!

Day 6 (Dec 23)

Supposedly going to Bonn and Cologne but due to appointment with lecturer, i missed out the trip to Bonn and had short trip to Cologne!

MISSION 7 FAILED!

well, nothing perfect! In the end, we had a lot of excitement and fun together. Though it was exhausting we had experienced something you can't have in Malaysia!

See ya! till the next Xcite!

Xciment under winter!

2009-12-20T12:40:00.000-08:00

contributed by Daniel Ngan!

look familiar right? but unfortunately my photoshop skill too bad!

I remembered that B and few of my Germany friends asked me " what is your plan for this Christmas and New Year holiday?"
And i answer " I don't know!"

Well, up till today, i still don't know what i can do for those days. I was heart broken, worried, upset and tired for last few days. I almost lost my direction, but as i promised K and S who are coming to Germany with their friends. i have to be their tour guide, put aside my sorrow moment and enjoy the days of xciment!. Initially, i thought everything will be up side down since i not really know about the places in Germany. BUT..... i remember a song lyrics "we can always make a start".......... and........

Our first handmade poster!

Guess, my idea of creating a Germany version of Xcite isn't bad either! It make me happier!

Day 1 (Dec 18, 2009)
Guess what! our first mission was making a snowman under -4 degree Celsius. Took 15 minutes walk from my hostel to the park at 12.30am under snow!

It started with the journey of coldness!

and.... tada! mission successful.

the process of making a snowman is ain't easy! you need to Xperience it under Xtreme temperature. As the result, you well get the Xciment of your self-made Snowman!

MISSION 1 ACCOMPLISHED!

Day 2 (Dec 19, 2009) part 1

The mission of the day for this morning was to prepare a cake for brunch! well, this time only me doing the work as S and K still sleeping like pig!

K just finish brushing teeth and post on unbaked cake! hehe...

And..... here then cake! though, it is a little bit out of shape.

My work of art!

see! S only woke up after the cake was baked( 1 hours duration)!

MISSION 2 ACCOMPLISHED!

Next will be the trip to Dortmund for the biggest Christmas tree in Germany! Traveled 37 minutes from Duisburg main train station to Dortmund main train station. Journey to the tree under -11 degree Celsius!

Posting with the biggest Christmas tree!

MISSION 3 ACCOMPLISHED!

I was rather full of stress and unhappiness these few days. But INCOVAR inspired me to move on and enjoy the very moment of life!

ps:More pictures and xperience of xciment coming soon! Stay tune!

Impermanence!

2009-12-16T04:25:00.000-08:00

Time changes everything! Impermanence!

From the 1st day i stepped my leg on Germany until today many thing changed.
From autumn with 17 degree Celsius to winter with -4 degree Celsius. And now with a little snow.

Back then i was a pathetic jerk who keep looking back. Living the the world of past. Thinking how wonderful the 'world' back in the home country. Keep complaining! Refuse to move on.

But as time passed. I grew up. I know that I must move on. Keep looking forward. Take those sweet as memories and bitter as lessons to learn.

It has been 2 and half months. But my progression is rather slow. Everything is behind the schedule. I need to start running now. Else, i will miss out even more.

As the same time, i start to open myself to this new life, new world. Opening myself to people i not even meet before. Let myself know more about the life here. Get to know people here. I was once told that, "It's hard to have German friends." Well, until now the fact is still true to me. But, it does not imply to each and every German here.

Last night i had an outing with A and B. Someone i just know. Somehow thing turn to be smooth and we had a great chat and conversation. Though those 2 are a bit far away from my place, but at least i make my first move by meeting them. Really looking forward for another outing. I don't really mind going to karaoke here in Germany though i can't sing. LOL! Coz A is just like me, can't sing either. We just sang out loud without caring that we were out of tune. Surprisingly B sang so well.

The Persistence of Memory by Dali

Guess this was the drawing A and B talking about. When they are trying to interpret the message behind this drawing! I got no idea about this picture when they were talking about that. They told me that i was a picture with melting clock and the cemetery. And i even made a joke that the picture is telling us that "when the time come, everyone have to die" LOL!

Hmm.... guess this picture has some relation about my title!

My First Winter!

2009-12-06T11:01:00.000-08:00

I was suppose to blog out a lot of stuff, but somehow i failed to do so.

It's winter now. I remembered that, when i was in my childhood time, i craved for snow, for winter. I guess you all have that thought also. In my mind, winter should be a nice thing, when the whole place full of snows.

But, i guess i was wrong, term and condition applied.

I was my first time in oversea, and it will the first winter for me. Back in Malaysia, you either experiencing hot sunny day or raining day. No such thing as winter,spring,summer and autumn. These thing only exist in my geography book or in the movie.

Well, no snow yet. But the temperature here is about 4-7 degree Celsius. I remembered someone told me you will feel depressed during winter. I guess, they were right, it's really depressing. Especially when you hardly see the sun, it's either cloudy or raining. Moreover, you see no sun before 10am and get dark by 4pm. With the cold temperature, you won't feel like going out. That's why people have mood swing during winter. No me, myself alone, but also people around me.

Worst thing is when you sick. Gone case! you will eventually feel homesick. Crave for care and love!

Depression! Make me moody, lazy and less productive. No mood to study or either do anything. Just feel like sleeping and sleeping. Just like animal hibernating! LOL!

Opss! Break time over, i need to get back study after many unproductive day due to sickness.

Running away!

2009-11-27T16:02:00.000-08:00

Why where these days people only looking for relationship! Can't we just be friend?
I don't know, why people can out of random and tell you something weird!
Sweat! Sometime i feel awful when people say "dear, or miss you, kiss.....bla....bla....."
You ain't know me and i don't know why they will fell on me! Sigh....

Worst still when then kept nagging on you even if you tried to avoid them.
First on msn, the i block them!
Then to facebook chat box, again i block!
Then to fb mail box, again i delete it.
Worst part is they even sms you!
Gosh.... these people really freak me out!

Can i make it clear....
I am happy with now as single.
No complicated relationship please!
Just a simple friend will do.

Please,please only friend!

I not even do such thing on the 1 i love.
I just let it be, since she ignored me....

56 days in Germany

2009-11-26T07:16:00.000-08:00

Time passed really fast. 56 days just a glimpse of eye. And here now i studying in Germany. Many thing happened, here and there.

Here 10 things i would like to share with you guys. It based on my observation, and my own opinion.

1) Germans are punctual. If the Office hour is 8am-5am, than, you must not come earlier or later. You will not be entertain other than the specified time.

2) Germans greet. It come in standard phrase:
when meeting: "Halo/Guten Tag!"
when leaving: "Danke/ Ciao/Tschuss/schone Tag!"

3) Generation gap. There is a huge gap between X generation and Y generation. The way of
thinking, the openness and......

4) Public transportation is punctual. (most of the time, though sometime it was late)

5) It's hard to find a German friend (provided you speak good German)

6) German sausage and pork are nice. Bratwurst is the most popular.

7) Only Main city with a lot of tourist attraction, have bilingual signboard or announcement. I mean German and English.

8) Dusseldorf, second most important city in Germany. There is a Japanese street there.

9) Human right(mostly) are more respected. There are various style and type or people. You name it, and you can find it here.

10) There are more meat(pork,beef, chicken) that seafood. The fishes are imported, not fresh and expensive.

Inspiration!

2009-11-04T02:14:00.000-08:00

I don't know since when i started blogging and who inspired me to do so. But that was few years back story. Perhaps four years ago when i start blogging through my friendster and then shifted to blospot until now.

For these 4 years, most or my highlight moments were updated through the blog. And those to gone through it will know bitz of my life (partially) LOL!

Initially, i thought that my blog just been read by my circle of friends. As time passed, i realized that there were so many people was actually following it. Last few days, i saw my visitor was from Turkey, Malaysia, Germany, UK, US, Brazil, and Singapore, Australia. I wonder who were them. LOL!

Another most surprise thing was, my blog did inspired other to start blogging. Though some of the give up halfway. LOL! But most of them had an impressive blog. LOL! Guess i am happy to see more and more blogger among my pals.

the only problem was, some of these blogs are in Chinese. And i can't read it. LOL!

I remembered some of my friends from electrical and mechanical told me that they actually followed my blog especially during my internship. LOL! And somehow, i did stop blogging for 2-3months and they said" Mervin, why you didn't update your blog for ages? I am you fan" LOL!

Conflict!

2009-11-02T13:09:00.000-08:00

I heard that when there is an interaction, there is the conflict! We communicate, we talk, we voice out our thought regardless of verbally or non verbally. The there is different opinion or miscommunication, the conflict rises.

Well, living together with various type of people from different background, different lifestyle isn't a easy thing. Moreover, when there is a gap in term of mindset.

Ok, guess i should stop beating around the bush and straight to the point. Lately, there were more and more conflicts rise between us. Including me myself. Being the frustrated one and the one who been frustrated. A disagreed with B, B dissatisfied with C, C frustrated with E and F, D angry with A, and...... Some of them voiced up and some of kept quite and kept it in themselves.

Everyone kept pointing out their fingers here and there, including me myself. Everyone keen to think they are right. And yet we forget to reflect ourselves. Quick conclusion and sarcasm was the main reason of conflict!

I don't say that i am very good. I admit myself is one of them. Yet, sometime people just think they are always right. Trying to correct others.

Compromising isn't a good think to practice. How long can a people endure the own dissatisfaction? I am sorry to say, as a Buddhist, i failed to practice Buddhism. Guess i have wasted all the effort of fellow incovarians,the committees, and the speakers who tried to enlighten me about delusion.

Relationship between human kind is something too complex for me. Especially when we were expecting something from someone and turn out to be vice-versa.

Just take my relationships as an example. I was so into a person who barely care much about me. While there was someone who so keen to be with me. Plus there were so many confessions toward me and yet, i rejected them. I know the feeling of being ignored by someone who wanted so much. I know it, it just that i am helpless. And when such complication appeared, so do the conflict. (*this is the past. please don't ask)

But, survey from Reader Digest shows that the second most pleasurable thing is companion/friends beside sex. Hmm.... We prefer hanging out with friend rather than being alone. But hanging out with friends created conflict!

The Ugly Truth!

2009-10-29T03:45:00.000-07:00

When we looking so something which is so nice, so beautiful, so wonderful and perfect! When we watch a movie. If it was nice we praise it. But just a slight mistake during the filming process might ruined the whole movie. We just want a perfect nice movie without any fumble.

Have you ever think about the process of it? Have ever think how a movie was produced. Have you ever think the hardship each of everyone who involve in the movie?

Guess many of us forget about it until the very moment when we experience it ourselves. I remembered when was doing my internship. Everyone think that i am a quite, innocent guy who just know how to study and stayed in his room and study. But, when they found out that i am out going, having fun, enjoying night life; their perception changed. They think that you are masking yourself. They feel cheated. For all hard work that i did for the past few months was down the drain.

They have forgotten how punctual you are.
They have forgotten how well you handle the given task.
They have forgotten how well you present yourself.
They have forgotten how well you communicate with fellow colleagues.
And they also forgotten how much you have contributed to the company.

In their mind, they think they have been cheated.
They mixed the working life and after work personal life.
They intruded my personal life.
They tarnished my reputation.

Just because of their perception.
They think, they believe that you had tarnish the company reputation.
Judged me guilty for the fault i have not made.
Sentenced guilty without chance to clarify.

Though it has been the past.... and no point looking backward.
But i take it as lesson.
A lesson for a life time.

As they think negative of me just because of slight miscommunication, so do i. Felt frustrated, angry and annoyed with the company. But, when i cooled down, when my mind was composed, and when i met the HR person, i finally understand that nothing perfect. That the corporate world that i am going to face in future.
This is the time i learn. This is the time for me to grow up.

Again.... the audiences only see what on the stage. Not the backstage!

Looking backward!

2009-10-27T04:46:00.000-07:00

I has been almost a month, or more precisely 26 days since the day i stepped my foot on Germany, leaving my homeland for the first time. Thing happened, this changed for time to time....
As been preached, i must move on with my life.

Well, making at start isn't a easy step to take moreover when you are alone. Walking through the path that everyone takes which is not the path i wanted to take. But, i had make my choice and i will go through it. As Dr Randy said " The brick wall in front of us is not there for no reason. It shows us how desperate we want something" His words somehow make me understand thing that i used to blame....

Guess i am agree with the word from the film "The Ugly Truth" sometime, the truth is something awful that we rather stay ourselves in illusion. Illusion!

Lately, i tend look back my past... the happy moments i had before.... i know it was past... but it kept appearing on and off in my mind. Well, thing don't last especially the moment you precious most...

I missed my live, my friends, my family and things i left behind.... things that i just found out. I missed the live that i have just build up recently....

My fellow college friends(2006)

Paint Ball in Penang with incovarians (2007)

Penang's Hill(2007)!

Pre Christmas with my German's teachers(2008)

my housemate,farewell before i fly...(2009)

The latter day during Fac Night(2009)!

Jalan Kuchai Lama with 'backstage' friends (2009)

My 'backstage' friends (2009)!

Happy moment in PD for our farewell (2009)

Steamboat with hometown friends 2009!

My dearest coursemates in airport!

Bunch of my very very important 'backstage' friends!

And.... finally, my beloved family!

ps:I was surprise that my comeback(blog) did get a lot of attraction from you guys. Thanks for supporting my blog. With you guys, i will continue blogging as i use to be......

Trip to Koeln

2009-10-23T14:01:00.000-07:00

As planned, we went to Koeln city with 2.42pm train. I took around an hours to reach the destination. I was quite a distance from Duisburg.

But, this long distance boring journey turned excitement went i came out from the Haupbahnhof(train station).

Wow! You can see the huge nice Cathedral in front you. I was almost speechless when i first saw the 750 years old huge building just right in front of you. I don't know how i gonna to express my feeling. Guess pictures will explain everything. You can't see such building in Malaysia.

Ok. Let me start for the outside of the building....at the entrance....

First pic taken in front of Haupbahnhof!

a small part of the building!

posing in front of the world heritage building!

some statues crafted on the Cathedral.

Bek and Wee!

the angel killing the baby demon!

imagine how many statues crafted on the building.

hehe! i love this pic!

from left: Wee, Jeffri,me,Jing,Bek

Enoug of posing here outside of the cathedral, we went into the historical building. I was just like i was in the Da Vinci Code or Angle and Demon movies. I feel like i was back to the time in the era of Roman Empire. LOL! and here the picture inside the building.

this was the first sight once i entered the cathedral. Feel familiar? Deja vu!

Well drawn picture!

amazing right?

me again!
posing behind a wall scripture!

statue of deceased......

another area for prayers!

hehe!

wow! i love this pic!

me again with unknown scripture! LOL!

underground of the cathedral!

guess what musical instrument was that?

the motherly love!

feeling of death!

guess who's legs?

do you like it?

can you see what hanging on top there?

on't ask me what was that, coz i don't even know what is it. LOL!
another angle of the cathedral!

Kid lighting up the candle!

We were suppose to get up of the cathedral which cost just 2 euro per person (for student), but i was close by 5pm and that time was already 4.50pm, so..... we just took few pictures outside of the cathedral.

some strangers performed in the middle of the city. LOL!

One of the performer. hehe...

ruins!

The description of the ruins with Jeffri reflection.

In the tunnel!

Really amazing right?

Moment of truth!

A smile of content!

I remember Jeffri said before we went into the cathedral, " Very beautiful right? In side the cathedral even more amazing, you even can feel the holiness it. As if you are engulf by it." At the time i didn't believe it until the moment i stepped into the building and i agreed with him. LOL!

I visit this place again in another time.... soon.....

ps: will be blog about Duisburg and Essen soon.....

My latest room layout!

2009-10-19T13:03:00.000-07:00

Here is my room latest layout with night scene. LOL!

From the entrance of my room!

My study table and my bed!

View from the left side of my room with 2 new lamp table and a new mini bolster!

What do you think about this lamp?

Another picture with my shelf. Need a carpet for the floor. Winter is coming soon!

Angle taken from the bed!

Messy room with jeans everywhere. LOL!

A chair near the door for wearing socks and shoe. Shows my laziness!

Need few items to fully furnished my simple little room. Guess i need to make another new check list for that.

The comeback after few unsucessful attempt

2009-10-19T07:56:00.000-07:00

Hmm... i guess it has been very very long time i didn't update my blog since an awful incident happened on me where i was 'fired' due to my blog. A few attempts have been made to revive my blog, but due to my business and lost of the interest on blogging.

A lot of incidents happened between that duration from the moment i has been fired and then went to new company to complete my internships. Later i finished my internship program and went for 3 weeks technical language course, the very last day in Malaysia and now settling down my life in Germany.

No doubt that i had a great time, experiences,and friends during the internship period. Though there were complication happened in between that duration, but i did cherish every moment i had during the latter day. I had built a new life which belong to me, i had met friends who were in common with me, so to someone which so important to me. Unfortunately, happy moment never last.

Now, back to zero. Back to the original point. I have to restart everything again. This time, it was different that the usual situation in Malaysia. In Germany, language is the barrier for me to reach out the others. I remembered that when i was in Malaysia, i could easily mix with anyone regardless of gender, status, race, preference...... Just one reason, I can communicate. But....

Okey, enough of complaining. this blog i am gonna to show you guys my room where i tried to make it better and better. And still in progress.

My study table with the inclined windows because i stayed in the roof floor.

My windows side. Bought 2 pot of flowers to make my room more colorful.

My bed with super thick comforter. Preparing for winter. LOL!

My shelf full with my stuff!

The sofa was taken from Xiao Mai's apartment. It was not really clean, so i bought a big cloth and cover it up and.... Tada! nice sofa.

*ps: this picture taken last week. Latest picture of my room layout with be shown once i have taken the picture.
Later i will show you guys my lamp tables, lamps, cupboard and ect.
Guess that all for this blog. Will continue updating my blog soon.

Last 20 Days Intern( Revival)

2009-08-03T08:59:00.000-07:00

Sorry for abandoning my blog for so long. Just to tell you guys that i am back. Somehow my old posts are still not available yet. Be patient!

After some complication happened on my internship(will elaborate on it later), i finally resume to work as trainee engineer. I was told to report myself at the Engineering Department today at Damansara Height. Well, i actually took 3-4 hours last night to get the location and the direction to the company. Instead of Industrial, now i work in Plantation. Well first day i new company, a lot of thing occur.

Firstly, i had an experience for the first time parking into blood sucking parking lot. Can you imagine, RM24 just for a day parking. Gosh!!!

Secondly, i have encounter a totally different working environment. With mostly of them engineers and doing engineering work.

Thirdly, I have met all friendly and helpful superiors and engineers. Everyone was very keen to help me. Though they look serious, but they really helped me. I feel more at peace, at least i don't face someone who smile at you and stabbed you from behind. Everyone tried to aid me, trying to make my 1 remaining 1 month training as beneficial as possible. I really appreciate them.

Fourthly, i was assigned to work at site. 2 weeks in Kuala Kangsar(starting tomorrow) and 2 week will be at my home sweet home, Teluk Intan. Though i have to shift out of sudden, but i can feel that i am going to learn a lot of thing.

I just finish packing my stuff. Need to get some rest. Tomorrow will be a new day for me.

Go Green!

2009-07-24T02:49:00.000-07:00

In supporting Go Green and saving the mother nature, i personally did something to preserve our Earth. Though what i did was just a small insignificant thing, but i hope all those simple actions may inspire other do their part.

1. Instead of plastic bag, i used reusable bag when i shop for my glossaries. This reusable bag enable us to use it again and again for months. This is to minimize the usage of plastic bag. Where to get it? Anywhere! You just need to spend a little bit more to save the Earth. For instance, you can get it at Jusco just for RM1.

2. Nowadays, there are more and more usage of disposable chopstick. From small hawker stall to those restaurant like Sushi King..... So, i personally bought a pair of portable chopstick. Come with a small casing which enable us to bring anywhere we go. I got mine for a Japanese shop, Daison. Just RM5.

3. For drafting or some sketching, please use to recycle paper. Some paper were just printed with one side. Please utilize another side of the paper. And do use both side of the paper when printing. For lecture notes and others references which were given in softcopy. Only print it if necessary and do compact the note's slides before printing. This enable you to save your money spent for paper and the ink.

4. Tissue paper. Most of us so reliable on it. What i did was using the traditional handkerchief instead of tissue paper. Handkerchief has been used for so many years and environmental friendly compared to disposable tissue.
5. If you buy take away food. Please use your own container. By doing so, we will able to reduce the usage of polystyrene box.

These are 5 small things that i am doing right now to save our mother nature. Hope the message of Go Green with able to reach you guys.

In support of saving the stray animals. I would like to promote you a book entitled "Pawprints on my heart" by Dr Chan Kah Yein who delicate in saving the abandoned animal. Any donation and adoption can be made through her. I would like to adopt one, but since i am leaving soon. So, i can't. But, i believe you guys can. Make the world a better place. The world need more LOVE!

Announcement!

2009-07-23T09:36:00.000-07:00

My previous is currently disable due to some complication. I have changed the address. If you need to view it, please do contact me.
The previous blog will be resumed after some minor modification!

Internship's Diary- Day 59&60

2009-07-16T01:18:00.000-07:00

I was suddenly sick last Thursday night, so i took MC for Friday. Out of sudden, my muscle on the left between my abdomen and thigh was in pain since Thursday morning and got out of control went it reached late evening. I could barely move. Any single movement will cause me in deep pain. Even when i car passed through those bump road, i could feel the pain. Can't even laugh. Damn! Doctor said that i might me overwork and sprained my muscle. Well, no doubt i just shifted to workshop with those heavy work, but i had my daily exercise in gym. Sigh....So i didn't count that day in.

July 13 (Monday)

I was suppose to go out with D. Due to a bundle of works in the workshop, I had to stay in the workshop installing those control valve onto the tractors. All those installation must be done by 3pm for delivery. After all, i only manage to get everything done by 4pm. Luckily one of the lorry drive MC, so some of those delivery postponed. And after 4pm, i was free until 5.30pm.

Went to gym, rpm class....blah....blah... like usually.

July 14 (Thurday)

Went out with Sh to Port Dickson and Banting. To PD for normal 2nd service on the tractor L2800 after 400 hours usage. Was in PD till 3pm. Sh took sometime to distribute his wedding invitation cards to his friends and family members coz he was originate from PD.

Then went to Banting to dismantle the tractor engine from the tractor. The engine need to be overhaul. Any job related to engine overhaul isn't easy coz the process installing and disengaging engine is energy consumption and proper precision is required. Imagine an engine required 4 man powers to carry it up to the Ford Ranger. I was a bit frustrated as we were actually late. Reached Puchong office by 6.30pm instead of 5.30pm. Sigh.... 1 hour overtime without pay.

Was actually so wanted to take photo for my visa application, but somehow i found out that my shoe bag missing. Searched here and there and even went to gym and looked for it, but failed. I lost my precious nike bag, nike shoe and nike socks. Damn!!!!! I just bought that bag. I lost above RM250 just in a day. Sigh.....

Internship's Diary- Day 55- 58

2009-07-09T16:29:00.000-07:00

July 6 (Monday)

I was still in the Part Department, doing my unfinished task. By 12 noon, i actually manage to finish the given task. I told Ym about that and passed all my completed data to him. As she promised, Ym met the manager, Is so transfer me back to Service Department. He agreed and i will be continue back to my initial work place starting tomorrow. The workshop.

Since i completed all the task before lunch, so i was kinda free on after lunch. Just some minor work here and there. Free from 2pm-5.30pm. Haha...

July 8 (Tuesday)

Yeah. I was in the workshop. On the morning, D brought me Shah Alam to repair the air compressor. Basically nothing special. By noon we headed to Klang. Another factory. What we did was just dismantle the bare head and took in back. Overall, there were not much stuff we did, time actually wasted for travelling due to long distance and traffic jam. Manage to get a short break before heading back to office. Went to eat mee rebus. But the time was almost 5pm. So i just took it a bit.

Today i had an appointment with my friend. We wanted to go Yuen for dinner, but it was closed. So we went to some nearby steamboat restaurant. After wor, i straight away went to gym to get shower and change. This was there first time i went to gym just for the sake of using the rest room. LOL! Coz going back home and out again will cost me more than 1 hours stucked in jam. So...

That night gathering was something special to me.(don't ask why)LOL! Total 6 of us, 2 girls and 4 guys from different background. Very outgoing, funny and hyper-active. I actually only know 1 of them, the remaining were his friend. Overall, i do enjoy a lot. They were friendy and nice, though i was a bit quite that night.
HUH! Mervin quite? LOL! Maybe i still shy. Coz i won't talk much to strangers.

July 9 (Wednesday)

In the morning, went to Cyberjaya with D to check the problem of a generator in a bus. Rounded that area for few times and finally we able to trace the bus. As we were not familiar with that place, we found ourself lost for few times. LOL!

Job done, and we took a break on the highway rest house during our lunch time. Suddenly D asked me,

D: will you buy handphone with some stranger who selling it at the road side?
Me: of course not! All those are illegal stuff.

Suddenly an Indon guy in 40s came ask to buy an hp, Nokia N95, 8Gig. Wow...that was tempting men. Initially we rejected time. But then....

Me: That 1 is Nokia N-series right?
D: Yeah. N95
Me: wow...if the original N95 will be around RM1500-RM1800
D: Really?
Me: Yeah! Plus if we can get it in RM300, then i will be super cheap.
But i don't know is original or pirated.
D: that guy said that the hp was stolen hp. Should be original.
Me: if original then buy it. (I changed my stand.LOL!)

From discouraging him to encouraging him.LOL! i am suck a asshole. I contacted my friend to assist me to check to hp. Overall, it looked exactly the original type will multi-function. We were so convinced and bought the hp with RM350.

Once we reached office, Din asked our colleague to check for us. Initially everything was ok until he check the camera. It was a fake nokia phone. The camera quality is low. but the hp was so real that so hard know that it was China product. But he did not regret coz the hp was so cheap even though it's china stuff.

July 10 (Thursday)

Another relaxing day. Recently i found out that working in the service department indeed easy though we work with sweat, use a lot of energy, and get dirty. But we take our time to finish the job without rushing or facing those boss faces. Afternoon went back to Klang to installed back the repaired bare-head. Done.

After work, went for a short gym. Today i have promised W to go pasar malam. Well, thing went hay-wired. Starting from W car broke down, then stuck in jam and finally, upon our arrival to pasar malam, i got muscle sprained. I was so pain that i can even stand with little vibration. A small vibration will cause me in deep pain. Damn! I was actually have that pain since this morning, but i thought it will goes of later. But after my gym session, it was getting worse. It was so pain that i could hardly now myself. Even bending my leg. LOL!

W immediately took me to clinic once we finish our dinner( some not nice laksa). I walked with each step of painness. The pain that i never experience before. Sigh... In the clinic, that stupid doc ask me,

Doc: Is your testicals still there?Both of them

Me: Of' course got. Why ask such question?

Doc: Coz something if your muscle sprained, it will pull your testical up.

Me: Ic, yea. I can feel a bit of pull that area.

But his question was too weird to answer. How can testicle went missing. Perhaps to small dick guys or fat guys, but definitely not me. LOL

Yeah. I got an MC for tomorrow. Though i don't really want to take mc but.... coz taking mc on friday, people might think that i took it on purpose. Plus a was on leave next week. Sigh...

Internship's Diary- Day 51-54

2009-07-02T07:33:00.000-07:00

Wow.... i actually abandoned my blog for so long. 4 days diary were missing. This running so fast. This week actually was my 12th week for internship. Which mean i left 8 weeks for intern and 12 weeks in Malaysia. There were so many things i wanna to do with such short time. I don't know, maybe i am growing old. Time seem like precious to me. Each second count! As the result, i need to prioritized thing which i more important and those that less important( which lead to lesser blog these days. lol)

I remembered once Inn Shan's blog said that those who are bored and alone tend to blog more. And it's very true. Coz i was kinda bored when you saw me blogging almost everyday. But as time goes on, i was getting busier and more things to do. Which mean i no longer bored. Though this intern i didn't learn much related to my field, nevertheless i learnt a lot. Particularily in time management and priority selection.

Let me summarized my 4 days work. Basically, i am still stucked in Part's Department. These few days i was busy doing my stock update for all 10 branchs in Malaysia. Working like hell. I must finish it by this Friday. There were so many data for me to extract and tranfer it to a proper table in Excel. Really tiring man. Thousands of data. This really an eye-constrain work. Making my dark circle and eye bag getting worse. Sigh....I was rushing up to finish it as soon as possible. Tried to work on every minutes i had. Only 1 word can describe it, BUSY
Hopefully i can finish it by tomorrow. If not i gonna die.....

Back Home!

2009-06-27T07:23:00.000-07:00

Woke up about 4.30am. Shit, i was kinda late coz i suppose to wake up at 4am sharp. Straight away brushed my teeth,packed my stuff and loaded it up on to my car. And i started my journey by 5am sharp.

Today was the first time i drove back TI from Puchong. I not really sure about which road i should take. Normally i went back from Bangi to TI. Plus i am kinda weak in remembering the direction so i kinda scare if i got lost. But luckily i manage to get myself to my sweet home by 7am. Wow! Just 2 hours, guess i overspeed all the way back. LOL!

Had dim sum breakfast with my parents.Yeah, we even bump into my grandma. Though i don't really like the dim sum, but i am content coz it have been months 2 months since the last time i had breakfast with them. Dad kinda busy with his work so i had to book him a day earlier so that he can adjust his time for breakfast.

11am, fetched mum to my sis school. Today was her "report card day" LOL! So i followed her to her class. My sis was not here today. She went to Kedah for her Tang Soo Doo performance. Her teacher was explaining my mum about how my sis perform in the class and....bla...bla...Then funny thing is both teacher and my mum were complaining my sis laziness, but suprisingly she was in top 20s in her batch. LOL! My mum always complain that my sis always face the TV once she came back from school and busy with her Tang Soo Doo stuff. She hardly see my sis study. LOL! But she perform well. Well done. Though not top 10, but at least she got something.
By the way, that teacher asked my mum whether i am my sis brother. My mum said yes. And the she ask, " Your son in form what?" DAMN!!!!!! do i look like any secondary student. What the...... Then she said i look YOUNG. Yeah, YOUNG! Just say i look childish la....sigh...

Afternoon wanna online but low connectivity. Make me disappointed....

To be continue......

Internship's Diary- Day 49 & 50

2009-06-25T07:20:00.000-07:00

Jun 24 (Wednesday)

Nothing much to do coz i actually completely the task given by Bad(the keying parts stuff). Assisted Bad to redo his stock check report. His file was corrupted, so..... pity him. Redo the whole thing from 8.30am- 12.30pm.

Lunch went to Baser. Another free lunch. One of the Dealer gave Ay some money to treat us. LOL! The best thing in this company is you will always get free lunch. LOL!

Went around IOI looking for some facial product. Find nothing convincing and ended up did get anything. Attended Body Combat. Though it's the same release, but somehow i work out more compare to last week. Maybe becoz the class was fully handle by Peggy. Among so many instructor, i think she is the best.

Jun 25 (Thursday)

Wow! Nothing to do today. All the bosses and sale executives went for meeting. For the whole day sitting in the office and online. Though i was able to online, but a lots of websites were blocked. I can't check my mail or even got into my facebook. Just can read news and reading some stuff in Wikipedia. Really NOTHING TO DO!

Went to gym. It seem like to don't have mood today. So i bought McD and went back.

As i was queeing to buy McD, suddenly i black man stood in front of me. And i ask " Excuse me sir, i am queeing here." The black replied " Yeah....." I can't hear what he said.I was so angry coz he was still standing on front of me. And ignoring me. I don't care and kept queeing until my turn and i saw "counter close". Damn! There were so many people yet they only open an counter. A the black man told " I think the quee is that side, showing the only opened counter. They black man actually paid and waiting for his food. At that moment i felt so embarrased. I actually hold grudge on someone who actually did nothing to me. Thank to the stupid Mc D of the confusing counter.

It actually reminded me of the story where an old lady and a young man in the airport. Where she was so angry as she thought the young man ate her biscuit, but the fact that she was eating the young man's biscuit.......

Lesson of the day
1) Don't jump into conclusion easily.
2) Don't get angry easily.

OP-PP Carnival 2009

2009-06-23T06:43:00.000-07:00

Last Sunday was the OP-PP(old putera-present putera) game carnival. Sort of gathering between the ex-student and present student in a day with all sort of games. It have been ages since i left RMC(royal military college), around 6 years. Damn! it's really long.

I was actually not intended to go, but since i will not be in Malaysia soon, so i decided to join the crowd and meet up all my old friends. Some of them, i even forgotten their name. LOL! Getting old. Short minded.

But seeing those junior, make me flash back those day when i was in RMC. Some sweet, some bitter, some memorable, and even some bad memories that undeletable.

Seeing friends from my batch, make me feel that i am getting old. Though some didn't change much, but majority change, not to better but getting worst. They are getting fatter, less hair, balder, messy, uglier and dirtier. I wonder one day, i will be like them. Sigh...

After all this college really change my life a lot. Whether to be a better man or worse i don't dare to say. LOL! But what left were the memories and experiences.

ps: sorry if you guy saw a lot of words mistake on my blog coz i really don't have the time to check it.

Internship's Diary- Day 47 & 48

2009-06-23T06:14:00.000-07:00

I was kinda busy last weekend. What i did? Some top secret mission. LOL!

Let me pen down my daily diary in this post before i proceed to my weekend story.

Jun 22nd (Monday)

Went to the office with a happy mood coz i was suppose to change back to the service department. BUT.... all those happy thought disappeared within 30 minutes when the manager told me to remain at part department. Damn! I was totally upset by his word. I felt like as if i am a ball been kick here and there. After all, i am just a trainee. So insignificant..... I can't do anything beside obeying his instruction. Sigh....What to do, remain at part department and continue keying the parts number.

On the evening( around 4pm), Sr(Indian guy) was sitting beside me, making calls. While he was talking on the phone, suddenly i heard the sound, "BRUPP" came from Sr. Damn, it was so loud that the whole office can hear that sound. It was so funny. He immediately turn off the phone and had some drink. I felt so funny and laugh out loud. LOL! He really make my day with his dumb action.

Went for rpm class. Ain't know why, so many please wanna to join the class, as the result, those who failed to register themselves were not allow to join the class even though they came in early due to limited number of bicycle. Pity them.

Jun 23rd (Tuesday)

Continue keying the part numbers. Bad to me that these books were the last remained. If i finished it, that mean i completed my task. Bcoz i told him yesterday that i could finished it in 2 days, thus i rush to finish it in time. And i was surprise that i actually finished by 5pm. Half an hour before off. Which mean i did nothing for that remaining time. LOL!

Went to gym and back by 7.30pm. Don't know why today i don't really have the mood to exercise. So i went back earlier and manage to reach by 8pm. Wow! That's a record. For the first time i reach home not later than 8pm. LOL!

Internship's Diary -Day 44-46

2009-06-19T23:46:00.000-07:00

Day 44 (Wednesday)

I divided the part's books(total 12 left) to 3 parts. One to be completed today, and remaining 2 for next Thursday and Friday. Basically 4 books per day. Not a normal book k, can you imagine that each book contained hundreds or even thousand of part's numbers. Where you need at least 1 hour plus or even 2 hours to complete it. Sigh... straining my eyes. If i gonna to work like that for my job, guess i will resign within a week. LOL!

Went for Body Combat class. Got new release. Basically less tiring, but more focus on the technique. It's a good way to polish the kicking, punching skills.

Day 45 ( Thursday)

Was so boring keying those stupid numbers. I was so blur. Suddenly, Ay asked me to go out with him to meet some insurance guy for his client. So, went out with him, had lunch at Kenny Roger in IOI Mall. Somehow, not really nice, maybe because i craved too long, and by the time it served in front of me,..... the desire was lessen. Maybe that's human nature. Never learn to appreciate.

Went back kinda early from gym, thought able to reach home by 8.15pm, but stuck in jam till 8.40pm. Watched the Death Match movie (borrowed from Fitness First). The movie was superb. Really nice. Full of action. Just the ending was a bit lousy. Overall, i love it.

Day 46 (Friday)

Yeah, today another day with free lunch. Haha... Bad treat us again. Yeah.... I was kinda serious today. Rushing to complete the task. Coz i was a bit slower compared to my actual plan as i went out with Ay yesterday. Coz, he wasn't in my plan, just out of boredom. LOL! And finally i manage to finished all the parts number by 5.29pm. Wow... that was close. But at least i successfully carried out my plan. Good.

Recently i got more content a day by a day. Don't know why. It seem like i am happy and more cherish. Maybe, i finally know what i want. Or maybe the incovar camp let me brought back some valuable lesson, gift that enlighten me a bit. Or perhaps, i found a friend who i can really able to voice out my heart.
Gratitude! Thanks for everything i have now. I hope those joy of happiness will never leave me a part.I really appreciate what i have now. I have just forgotten all those painfulness i got in me.Freed from suffering. Yahoo...

Internship's Diary- Day 42 & 43

2009-06-16T06:18:00.000-07:00

Jun 15 (Monday)

Since the day i was moved to Part Department, my working live was totally down. So boring. Start facing the laptop from 8.30am until 5.30pm. So, i don't know what to blog about.

Just talked about my fitness class. Had the RPM(cycling) class. Well, i was kinda worn out. Maybe too many day didn't exercise already or i got too much fat d. I surprisingly sweat a lot during that class.

Borrowed a CD from the fitness centre ( it's FOC), the returner. Didn't manage to watch coz busy on msn, reading manga and 'handling' call. LOL!

Failed to blog.

Jun 16 (Tuesday)

Called my scholarship company.They were suppose to bank in my internship allowance but they banked in the money for my study allowance. And the amount was not correct coz i suppose to get more as my application to Germany successful.The executive in-charge told me that she mistaken it. And need to discuss with the manager. So i need to wait till next week for further notice coz the manager is in oversea this week. How much? Hehe.... enough to get a macbook lo. haha...

Went to gym. Kinda tired. Went back early. Thought can reach home by 8pm, but....sigh.... stuck in jam. Only manage to reach by 8.30pm. Had my KFC dinner. Chat a while and blog a bit.....sleeping time.

ps: pending for my blog about incovar camp

Internship's Diary- Day 40 & 41 (31st Incovar Camp)

2009-06-14T07:23:00.000-07:00

Thursday, June 11

Feeling sleepy today, especially at the morning coz have to wake up early this morning to pack my stuff plus last night went back late due to facilitator briefing by Chee Onn until 11.45pm. Reached home around 12.10am. Another unproductive day for me. Facing the laptop for the whole day. Feeling like the time running so slow. Really don't like staying at Parts Department. Sigh...
Arrived at SJBA around 6.10pm. Been tricked to join the participants for dinner. Not an ordinary dinner. With you hand tied with others participants. Haigh... dummy Mervin got cheated again. Conducted the 1st night sharing session. Everything turn awful. I failed to conduct it properly. Coz i didn't really get ready about it. I don't even know what they have been through the whole day. Plus i am not good when it come to voicing out myself. I was stress and disappointed on myself.

Friday, June 12

Doing the same thing for the 5th day. Happy! Again been treated for lunch. This will, except Thursday, i got free lunch for the whole week. LOL! I was kinda happy to coz, the problem due to the sharing session solved. I found the solution! Thanks to the quote from Aristotle, i know what i should do.And during that session, i did conducted it well.(i suppose so).

It's kinda late now. Guess i am gonna continue it later.

Tada! Is kinda long din post my pic.LOL!

Internship's Diary- Day 38 & 39

2009-06-10T09:14:00.001-07:00

Tuesday, Jun 9

Whole day keying the parts number onto the computer. A full unproductive day. Free lunch with pizza hut. Went back home early. Chatted with D for nearly 1 hours plus. No mood to blog.....

Wednesday, Jun 10

Outstation. Went to Sekinchan and Sg Besar to meet customers and dealer. Went into the paddy field area to collect debt more than 30k from customer. Regretted because didn't bring my camera. It's harvasting time. All the paddy field are in golden green colour. Was the 3rd time in strecht having free lunch. Customer treat. LOL!

Went to Subang fetch Jastin to Fitness First.We went for the body combat class. The class was kinda mild compared to the normal class.

10pm reached SJBA. Help up a bit. Then had meeting with Chee Onn until 11.35pm. Rushed back home.

ps: i am kinda busy lately with camps since last weekend. Tomorrow will be another camp at subang. Detail will post out later.

Internship's Diary- Day 37

2009-06-08T06:37:00.000-07:00

Today i was suddenly transferred to Part Department for 2 weeks. Bad mood for the whole morning due to sudden changes. Face turned black for the whole day. Colleagues tried to make me happy. LOL! Required to key in the document into laptop. Some boring!

Afternoon, mood turned better. Coz after long thought, working in the office isn't bad either though boring. Less sweat, reduce pimples. LOL! 5pm finished my work. Rest till 5.30pm.

......

no mood to write.....

Internship's Diary- Day 34-36

2009-06-04T06:18:00.000-07:00

I was suppose to blog this last night, but due to the internet connection down, I was unable to online for the whole night. Sigh…. I spent more than 2 hours trying to get connected.

June 2

We had new mechanic came in. Well, I was told to teach the newcomer how to install control valve on the tractor. The problem is, I never been taught to install the new type control valve. It’s kinda different than the usual one. Even me my not really know how to install the valve, and yet they ask me to teach him. Just like Malay proverb “Just like father crab teaching his son how to walk straight.” LOL!

For the cycling class, for the first time we had 2 instructors conducting us. Both of them are funny. Making her funny face expression, make jokes.LOL! Both Pat and CK really make me enjoy the whole 1 hour session.

Again, stuck in jam when i was on the way went home. For dinner, I thought of eating KFC. So I went to the KFC just in front of the housing area. What got me mad was I need to queue again. Just for the sake of eating KFC I wasted half an hour. I always I bad luck when I come on the queuing. The lane I queue always slow moving. sigh….

By the time I reached home, I was already 10pm. It was so late. Making me lost my mood to eat. And I just manage to finish half of the meal.

June 3

Went to Kajang with D to fix air compressor model D8. The valve was overheated and burnt. Finished job and lazed around before went back. Where and how long we lazed is kept in secret. LOL! If not, we might be scolded. LOL!

Evening, I had to replace some wire for the air compressor and the middle of the workshop without any fan. I was sweating like hell and complained to D. I was very happy coz I asked me to do other thing under the fan while he continues replacing the wire. Thanks D!

Went to gym, realizing that my physical progression was slow. After one and a half month, I admit that I did improved. But it still insufficient. My six packs still not obvious enough. My chest muscles far from fully build. Guess I need to train harder.

I went back earlier than usual. But the electricity was down. Damn! It was so hot. Again, I was sweating. Sigh… Last night I had a sleepless night becoz of the shortage of electricity causing sweat and been stung by mosquitoes. Again, déjà vu! Sigh….

June 4

Not much thing to do. Or maybe you can say nothing to do. So the senior mechanic, R teach us how ways to overhaul engine. Engine used was 3 cylinders. Firstly, we need to open up the whole engine. From there we can see how the internal engine looks like and the parts of engine system.

By 4.30pm, we stopped down I relax. This was the first time we were free so early. LOL! Talked around, bullshit here and there till 5.30pm. LOL!

Went to gym. Attended Body Combat class. Bought Mc D for dinner. Upset coz the unable to online.

June 5

Been summoned into office to do the debtor stuff. Again being loan shark, demanding for unclear debt. LOL! Boring, but at least I can spent some time to pen down my blog.

Emo Blog!

2009-06-02T07:29:00.000-07:00

Lately, i got many feedback, comments, and complaints saying that i post out a lot of emo blog. Scolding people here and there, expressing my sadness, anger...all negative feeling. Well, who care. This is my blog. I can blog whatever i want. I ain't need any permission to post any emo blog. If you feel like wanna to read my blog, go ahead. But if you can't stand my emo blog, then back off.(i am mean.LOL!). Coz there will be more and more of these blogs.

Well, initially Chee Onn told me that i was the RED HAT THINKER! I was doubt about that, but after all, he was right. I am the red hat.LOL! Basically it mean people who think base on his/her emotion (sound like girl right?LOL!) For more information, please check about Edward de Bono, the inventor of the hat.

After flashing back, indeed i am emo person. Just that i hardly express out my feeling, my thought.Back that i was a guy who just know how to please and hurt his own feeling. But, today Mervin has changed. Though he still pleasing others, but with limit. Once it passed the limit, he will fight for himself.

What Frau Maria said was right.We shouldn't keep our feeling inside us. Compilation of all these bad feeling will just increase our stress. Solution! Fuss out!

I must care of myself first. If i don't protect myself, who will protect me? Play safe is still the best answer. People who comments are not in my shoe. They won't understand me. So, i must be selfish. (though i still a soft-hearted Mervin, easily get cheated.)

Internship's Diary- Day 33 (Cold War)

2009-05-29T08:22:00.000-07:00

What the tut!

Today, again i have look clean people shit. Damn!!! Again, B left his unfinished job for me do. I was so frustrated when i need to do his leftover. I was getting angrier when i found that there were parts missing and some parts were wrongly assemble. Argh!!!

He was out station on the morning and back on the afternoon. When Sh asked him to clean the area where the tractor was assembled, that stupid B said " Not me the one who finished that tractor, i only half of it." F**k! After helping that idiot finished his work, now that idiot blaming me for not cleaning that place. F**k!

I was too fed up to talk with him. I guess he did notice i was angry on him. Whenever he asked me something, i will either answer without looking at him, or just ignore him. Sh did asked me to teach him ways to install the control valve on tractor model L28XX. He basically not dare not ask me, just look how i do that. And i just show him the way without saying a word. Guess i will never talking to him till he finish him training. LOL! I did that before. I am such i small gas person. Who care! Can't stand with me? Then back off!

Today, the line funk dance conducted by new instructor, Doris. A pretty, sexy, with well shaped body. Guess she in 20s. Well when you good body shape, and you dance.... Superb! Really seducing. But unfortunately the way she taught us sucks. I still prefer Benerd teaching us. Hopefully he will be back to class next week.

ps: tomorrow will not go dance class.

Internship's Diary- Day 32 & 33

2009-05-28T07:52:00.000-07:00

May 27

Spending whole day assembling the tractor M82XX. Basically i assembled 2 units of the tractor. Then disassemble the ROPS( a part of tractor) for model L28XX as per customer request. Wanna to treat the mechanics for lunch to thanks their help, but ended up the giving me the money back(with extra) coz they said that i am still studying, so.....

I was annoyed by B attitude who pretend stupid. He saw all the mechanics paying back me the money when i went to the counter to pay the bill. And that jerk said " Supposedly we wanna to treat them, but instead now, they treat us back"
He was not even paying a single cent for that lunch. I was the one who paying. Seeing the others mechanics paying, he just look and do nothing. Plus the extra money not even enough to pay his meal. I still need to pocket out some amount to pay the bill. What that asshole did was just smile and look. Damn! I not even say that i am going to treat him. He assume that i am treating him. Again damn!!!! Plus i am the one who do the driving. F**k!!!

Went for body combat class. Then headed to Jusco to buy mosquitoes repellent. Last night i had difficulty to sleep due to the mosquitoes. Supposedly wanted to buy dinner, but ended up buying tong sui without food( forgotten). LOL!

Yeah, that day was my aunt's birthday. I not even knew it until she told me when i show her the tong sui i bought for her. Pity her! No celebration! My uncle went back at 12.30am.

May 28

I am getting more frustrated with that stupid B. Becoz of him, i get scold. F**k! Yesterday each of use assemble the tractor separately and i was actually kinda late went back coz busy cleaning up the workshop after assembling the tractor and that jerk just went back sharp 5.30pm. As the consequences, i got scold becoz of the mess in the workshop thank to B! He didn't tidy his place, the tools he used were all over the place, rubbish every where. Becoz he is new, he not been scold. F**K!!!!!!!!

When we do the cleaning, that selfish idiot just clean the area around the tractor he assemble only, while i almost done cleaning half of the workshop. Damn him! When i asked him to keep the tools. Guess what he said! " I am not the one who use that tools". Damn! Can you just keep it!

I was so busy cleaning the workshop and he just walked around. Then i asked him," have you done cleaning?" he replied me yes with all the rubbish, plastic bags in front him. He can actually walked through the rubbish as if its were transparent. Reason was that rubbish did not
belong to him. Damn!!!!

I was so frustrated and not even want to talk to him. Give him a hand? Dream on! I will never he him again! I even need to clean up his shit today becoz he dump his half way work and went outstation. sigh....

Internship Diary - Day 30 & 31

2009-05-26T07:02:00.000-07:00

May 25th

Resumed work in workshop. This time with B(a trainee from Uniten). I taught him way to install the tractor L2800. Basically i didn't do much today. Just showing Ben how to install the tractor. LOL! As if i am an expert. Again, another unproductive day. Haha!

Went to cycling class for the first time. The instructor, CK was friendly. And she did remember my name even at the end of the class. At the end of the class, i have short conversation with her regarding the instruction she gave. I was kinda blur for the first time. Just as we ended the 3 minutes conversation, I saw a bunch of 3 aunties looking at us with a silly smile. Then CK talked to them. Their eyes tell me " CK, you kau chai r?" LOL!

Then went to Jusco and few optical shops. Felt uneasy when being stared my stranger at least 3 times. When i went back, i asked my aunt whether i look weird or strange. LOL! She said normal and she added that maybe i because looked like mix (Chinese-Malay). Please la! though i am from Baba Nyonya family, but i am a 100% pure Chinese. No doubt i got big eyes and sharp nose.LOL! Thank to the mechanics work, now i am getting tanner and tanner. Damn!

May 26th

Today work was assemblying tractor M82XX. Then helped D(mechanic) to change the wiring system for air compressor. Had lunch with B at Kong Sai Restaurant. Today we ordered chicken, a soup, and a vege. Coconut for our drinks. Eating with Ben reminded me my course mate. Those who eat very fast, or perhaps swallowing the food. I realized that when i just finished my 1st piece of chicken(in slices), Ben already having his 3rd. He is like rushing as if running out of time. It's my habit to take time to taste and chew my food properly before swallowing it. For me, having a meal, not merely get you stomach filled, but you also need to use your tongue to taste your food. Basically, Ben finished 2/3 of the food. LOL! While i was drinking my coconut, i need to scratch out the coconut meat from the shell. Today coconut was kinda old. Luckily u upper layer still got the jelly type meat compared to the white and hard type. I normally din scratch the meat until it touches the shell coz scratching too deep might ended up eating the coconut meat with the shell part. Surprisingly B actually scratch everything in the coconut. He even showed me that empty shell. I was laughing.LOL! In my mind " This guy really don't know how to enjoy food. Guess he will be happy if he can eat.LOL!"

After gym session, i went for another walk in IOI Mall, hoping to get a spec today. I went to all 6 optical shops in the mall, yet i still fail to get my desired spec. Again, i have been stared. Argh!!!!

Imagine someone stare at you from your hair till you toes!

Question without Answer!

2009-05-23T19:32:00.000-07:00

When we in the middle of conversation, how do you avoid question that you don't want to answer?

Yesterday morning, i went for line dance funk class, just before the class, an aunty in her 30s looked at me and......

Ant: Hey, you cut your hair(in Mandarin)
Me: Yeah, but do i know you? Ant: Previously your hair longer right?
Me: Yeah, slightly long.
End!!!!

The class began and she stopped the conversation.But obviously, she mistaken me ask someone else coz that was the 1st time i joined the Saturday class. LOL! And she pretend cool as if nothing happen.

On the evening, i went out with Jia Wen in Mid Valley, though i don't like that place. LOL! Went for some shopping and watch movie. "Angel and Demon". For me, that movie was superb. Really love it. Not about msytic but reality.

We had 3pm lunch(lol) at Kenny Roger. Well, definately we talk a lot. And...

JW: Lately i saw you blog and msn. It seem like you got complication love relationship.
Me: Really? That was the past.
JW: Why? You have been rejected?
Me: I didn't even court anyone how i gonna be rejected.
JW: Then?
Me: I just in crush on someone. But i didn't do anything.
JW: Who's that girl? S*****?
Me: No.
JW: Then me lor.Haha...
Me: (Damn) Dream on la you. Fat hau r?
JW: Then who is that girl? Me: Why must girl? can't it be man? (LOL)
JW: Haha... I don't believe if you say you are queer. If another 10 years, maybe i believe.
Me: Ceh!
JW: Then you go find Wei Sung la.
Me: Huh? You sohai la. Seeing him will make me vomit. LOL!

PS:At the end, she still fail to dig out who is the one i in crush with. LOL!

Internship's Diary- Day 29

2009-05-22T19:26:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i was kinda bad mood on the day, but fortunately i got myself back last night.

What make me moody yesterday?

1) I has been 2 weeks, but i still yet to regain my voice.
2) I was suppose to see doctor, but somehow, i was assigned to work outstation, Estate in Kuala Kangsar. So.....
3) I worked under the hot sun straight from 10.30am until 4pm.
4) I was frustrated with the stupid machine while disassembling the tractor L28XX. A lot of complication occur. Some of the parts stucked. Couldn't be open even though i tried it by force. Damn!!!
5) I was damn hungry,just half-boiled egg for breakfast at 7.45am and have to bear with my hungriness more that 8 hours. I was so weak plus doing those energy consumption work. Sigh...
6) Got myself more tanned. Can see the differences between 2 sides of my hand. LOL!
7)Super tired and sleepy.

What made me happy yesterday?
1) I joined the Line Dance Funk. I really love that class. I was a dance with latest heart beating songs with funky choreography. Though i was lost in some( probably most) of the tracks, but it was really interesting. Asked a boy about the class. Though, he looked nerd, look blur,short, around 18, BUT he told me that he had joined the class for 3 YEARS. No wonder, he can dance without the instructor guidance. Really shocked me. LOL! Somehow, the dance really cheer me up.
2) Out of sudden, i craved for cheese cake. The class ended at 10.15pm. By the time i finished showering and get out of the gym, it was already 10.35pm. Most of the shops was closed. I rushed to Secret Recepi with the hope that, it still open. By the time i reached the entrance of it, i saw the staffs were cleaning and the door was closed. Without caring the sign 'close' I entered the restaurant and with my pity, innocent face, i asked the lady at the cashier counter, " Am i still able to get some cakes?". She reply me, " Yeah, but only for take away." I was so happy and randomly choosen 2 cheese cakes. A chocolate and cappuccino. It has been months since the last time i ate it last time. Due to my diet period for 1 and half month, i barely take any supper. But, it's time to reward myself as my upgrading place successfully carried out(90% completion)
LOL!

Internship's Diary- 27 & 28

2009-05-21T07:12:00.000-07:00

Somehow, i lost my mood to blog about my internship life. Instead of daily blog, i decided to blog it once every 2 days. Lazy! Maybe my internship life getting more and more boring. Lifeless!

Yesterday, i was assigned to modified the air compressor wires and switch. A total of 10 units. Damn! I did it like hell. But fortunately nothing much to do beside the compressor. Easy job, but because the workshop lack of tools, i wasted a lot of non-related tool to open the compressor. Sigh...

Today, another free day. Almost all of the mechanics were out for examination. Basically, my job of the day was checking the generator with 30kVA. Checking the generator was easy, but precaution step must be taken. Any mistake might cost your life coz it deal with high voltage generator. Luckily, nothing happen to me. LOL!

Americans choice, the church singer!

American Idol result was out and the winner was Kriss Allen. Million of Americans choosen folksy Kriss instead of punky Adam. Well, if i am a American, i will also choose Kriss. Having, simple, casual character actually attract the voter. While stylo Adam, will bad boy look fail to with the contest. Question, WHY?

Simple answer, the world still prefer good, innocent church boy than funky, wild boy. But i pity on Lambert coz his apperance, life pull him down. A talented singer failed to get enough vote coz of his life style. Maybe becoz he look wild, or maybe he is a punk, or maybe becoz he is gay.
I don't know.... But at least i know, to survive, to stand out, you must look good in the eye of public.

After all, majority of the world still rejecting punk!

I did realise something from folksy Kriss. Make thing simple. Just like the song "Let it Be" for Beatles. I realised that i was trying too hard to improve myself without noticing that i was actually losing myself. Well, i will try to reduce my obsession while build a brand new Mervin. LOL!

Internship's Diary- Day 25 & 26

2009-05-19T06:53:00.000-07:00

I was so moody to blog yesterday. I don't know why. Perhaps unreachable love..... I am not gonna to blog about my weekend in hometown.

Yeah, i installed bigger size tractor, M82XX. Gosh, Just the tyre size, is already twice or maybe 3 times my size. LOL! For a trained mechanics, it took 3 hours to fully assemble the tractor,but for me..... lol! Only 1 for 5 hours. I am not a mechanic k. I am an engineer k. Due to my bad mood, i went for shopping. Stupid of me, went to Pandini Concept Store and..... spent nearly RM300 for just a white short, a singlet and a t-shirt. Damn expensive, plus i not really like it. Some more say it on sale, but the price......Sigh! No mood.

Today, i basically learned a lot of stuff. Firstly about the air compressor, the the tractor and finally the engine. After 2 weeks plus in workshop, my relation with the mechanics getting better and better. They are easier to communicate than expected. Previously i scared that i ain't communicate with them, but it seem like they are friendlier than what they seen. Again, don't judge the book by its cover. They seem like have a simpler mind set, don't think much, just do and talk whatever they feel is right.

In gym, i saw a not so leng chai looked elegant with his attire and hairstyle. I wish i got that skill. I have been looking so many ways to improve my outlook, yet in seem like i always fail to do so... Sigh.... I really suck when it come to this topic. Sometime, it make me look like uncle, sometime like lala, sometime like nerd, sometime weird. It never get me look better.

Sigh... not in mood again.... i am suffering now!!!

Internship's Diary- Day 25

2009-05-16T00:05:00.000-07:00

(May 15)

Today, all of the mechanics were outstation, leaving me alone in the workshop. All i did was just installing the single spool control valve on the tractor L2800. Overall, i rest more than work. Nothing much to do. Just barely a tractor.

It's Friday today, i am going back hometown today. 5.30pm sharp punched my card, and headed to Bangi. Need to pack my stuff and empty my room. Tonight, Kai Ian's friend will shift in to my room. So, by hope or by group, i need to clear all my stuff. Packed my stuff, had a shower, set my hair, sent my car to wash and then........ I went to see someone i in crush on. Just for 20 minutes. Without any confession or any special event. Just some empty talk (nonsense). I don't know what i am doing, just know that, i that i am in crush! Travelled all the way to Bangi, waited 1 and half an hour just to meet someone who barely know you. Haha... Mervin is turning to be a chicken!Chicken who only dare to look far from behind. Sigh.... Loser!

Becoz of that, i reached home by 12.45pm. Went back home. Still fresh, so manage to watch Red Cliff 2 DVD that i missed last time. By 3.30am, went to sleep.
END!!!!

Internship's Diary- Day 24

2009-05-14T06:54:00.000-07:00

Whole day installing the control valve. I found out that i got more and more cuts and bruises on my body, my hands and legs. Working in the workshop ain't easy especially nerd boy like me who never use driller, spanar or hammer before( i only use it for fun when i was small). Left hand, got a cut on the knuckle, right hand got cuts on the last finger and my arm. Bruises on both of my legs. Plus, i am getting darker and darker, gonna be like the indon worker d. LOL!

No mood today,coz i was kinda tired and exhausted due to the heavy work. JJ was back, G also back, but they hardly talk to me. Everyone seem like kinda serious, so do i. Just doing my work for the whole day until 5.30pm, then bye. Haha...

Moody for the whole day. Don't even have the desire to exercise. Just did some jogging and sonnar. Then have dinner in Old town. Ate prawn mee, but still no appetite. Kinda bored, so i sms Li Yi(Ah Phua). She got something to gave me. She said something i leaned it to her, she wanna to return me. So we decided to meet up just opposite of IOI Mall. She gonna drop by to pass me the stuff. While i was typing this blog, she called me informing me that she is on her way. So i went out to get the thing. And......

what a lovely wrapper!

I really love it. It's a present. A scarf. I was so touched!!! It's a first farewell present for me.Thanks Phua Lai Yee! I love it.

Tada! A scarf!

plus a card!

Internship's Diary- Day 23

2009-05-13T06:49:00.000-07:00

Today job was assembling the control valve for tractor L44XX and L2XXX. At last, i learnt something related to engineering, Fluid Power system. I asked the Senior Mechanic to explain me how the fluid power system work and flow. Generally, i was kinda different from what i learnt before, but the least i know what is going on and how the fluid flow and how the trailer move. LOL! Thanks to my laziness, that never study till the very last minute.

What make me frustrated was every time when people saw me working in the workshop, the will ask,

Anonymous: Hey you new here?
Me : Yes.
Anonymous: Just start working here?
Me : No. I am having my training here, about a month ago.
Anonymous: Oh, SO YOU FROM WHICH POLYTECHNIC/ MECHANIC SCHOOL?
Damn la! I am NOT A MECHANIC!!!! I am A FUTURE ENGINEERING!!!! Very sensitive case k! I am a degree holder k!
People always confuse me as mechanic. Damn! Do i look like that? I am not looking down on them, it's just different.

Guess that, the more i exercise, i faster i recover. But the problem is, i still don't have the appetite to eat. The amount i eat getting lesser and lesser. I am gonna to loosing too much weight due to my sickness. Please, please stop that. I want to eat more. LOL!

I was wait for someone in msn, somehow it's already 4th day, but we still fail to bump into each other. Sigh.... I need some answer to make some judgment and decision.

Song!

2009-05-12T07:43:00.000-07:00

I found out this song from the MTV today. It's a Japanese singer,Utada Hiraku singing english song Come Back To Me. I really love this song plus her powerful voice. It's just nice to me coz i hard find any Asian singer sing good english song.

The rain falls on my windows
And the coldness runs through my soul
And the rain falls, oh the rain falls
I don't want to be alone
I wish that I could photoshop
All our bad memories
Cuz the flashbacks, oh the flashbacks
Won't leave me alone

If you come back to me
I'll be all that you need
Baby come back to me
Let me make up for what happened in the past

Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
Boy you're one in a million
Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
You're one in a million (One in a million)

Lower East Side of Manhattan
She goes shopping for new clothes
And she buys this and she buys that
Just leave her alone
I wish that he would listen to her side of the story
It isn't that bad, it isn't that bad
And she's wiser for it now

I admit I cheated
Don't know why I did it
But I do regret it
Nothing I can do or say can change the past

Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
Boy you're one in a million
Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
You're one in a million (One in a million)

Everything I ever did
Heaven knows I'm sorry babe
I was too young to see
You were always there for me
And my curiosity got the better of me
Baby take it easy on me

Anything from A to Z
Call me what you wanna babe
I open my heart to thee
You are my priority
Can't you see you've punished me
More than enough already
Baby take it easy on me

Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
Boy you're one in a million
Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
You're one in a million (One in a million)

Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
Boy you're one in a million
Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
You're one in a million (One in a million)

Internship's Diary- Day 22

2009-05-12T06:43:00.000-07:00

This morning still kinda sick, starting from sore throat, followed by flu, then sneezing, fever and lastly cough. All came in package. LOL! After a day rest, i was getting better. Though i still having flu and some cough, but physically ok. Energetic and enthusiasm. For the morning, i was assigned to assemble the L2XXX tractor, just some minor installation. Doing it alone, took my own sweet time.Haha... My colleague told me to do slowly since i am still sick. Sick boy tai sai. LOL!

Not my car, just an example!

Today, my colleague told me that yesterday there were 2 bad news, since i was mc yesterday. One of my colleague lost her father due to cancer, another one lost a child due to high fever. What i shocking news, both also passed away yesterday morning. It seem like a bad month, i got sick, colleagues lost their family members and today, just when i wanted to work, i found out that my left side behind was tire punctured. Gosh! I was almost late to work. I was looking for tyre shop, but it was just 7.55am. Shit, what to do, changed it myself. Thanks to my dad, i am actually capable in a lot of stuff, but just don't want to get my hand dirty. This was the second time i encounter this problem, first one was during CNY, have to change it myself. Like usual, sweat and got dirty. After all, i am just another jerk who know how to spend without generating any income. LOL!

Get the latest hit from here!

Gym session, today i broke my own record. I actually jogged for 40 minutes for 6.2km, which gave me an average of 9.3km/h. Normally i just jog on the machine just for 15-20 minutes. The more i jog, the more energetic i am. Coz today the MTV channel was functioning and i was able to enjoy the songs. Most of the time that channel was out of service. I was suprise on myself, i was sick, yet i still able to jog for 40minutes. It's seem like i am recovering. Guess my gym session really help. In the past, i took a week or more to fully recover. Hopefully tomorrow i will fully heal.

Everlasting or Neverlasting Love!?

2009-05-11T00:39:00.000-07:00

I am still sick today. Luckily i got the MC. Feeling kinda weak and uninspired. Lazed around here and there doing nothing. Don't have the appetite to eat, but becoz of the medicines i must eat. Sigh...

Ha....choo!!

Yesterday was Mother's Day celebration and i just gave my mum a simple text wishing her happy mother day. That was the only i gave her, I am kinda unfilial right. Bad boy! And she replied me " Thank you, I love you too". Though, it was just a simple text, i can feel her appreciation, her love toward me.

I Love You!

Couple of weeks ago, i met Amy, an old friend of mine. She is married with 2 kids and 26 now. We had a short chat, this and that and somehow we touched ago her relationship. I was surprise with her answer.

Amy: You know what, after 5 years marriage, my love toward my husband is fading.
Me: Why? You don't love him anymore?
Amy: No. I still love him, but seem like not as much when we just got married.
Me: Why then?
Amy: It's about the children.
Me: Children? Why?
Amy: When i have kid, i start loving my kid more than my hubby.
Me: Is it you put all your time only on your children?
Amy: Yeah, i gave all my time, my energy to them.
Me: How about your husband?
Amy: We had less and less conversation.
Me: Don't you scare if someday there might some confrontation between you and him?
Amy: I never thought about that before.
Me: Then, what will you do,if someday, i realized that you don't love him anymore?
Amy: Well, since we already have our children, no matter what, i still will be together becoz of our children.
Me: So you mean that from love turned to responsibility.
Amy: Yes.

We had a long conversation, even some personal stuff. After all, love never last.

After so many years living in this world, i realized that love is a form of suffering, yet i will still tried to own it. Love brings you joys and tears. But it's better than living in the sorrow of loneliness.

I wonder why the love that the parents gave to their children able to last forever, but a couple love will somehow has the ending, Mum love toward me never fade since the day i was born, yet until today, i still can feel her love, it's like getting stronger. I have seen many great, happy couples together, but i never heard that they had a great ending. Again, love a complex thing.

Perhaps Love!

Internship's Diary- Day 21

2009-05-10T17:29:00.000-07:00

I was feeling a bit of sore throat since the night we went for possession, but it getting worst. Once i got up the bed, i felt that my throat was very day and itchy. And the phlegm was yellowish green. Damn!!! I got infected by flu virus! I know gonna start getting sick. I really hate it. Every time when i was sick, i took me days to recover, or even a week plus. The truth is i am relatively weak compared to others. I easily got sick since i was small. Compared to my family member, i got sick more frequent than the others. Call me peng lou (sick guy).

Coz it was just a minor flu(at the beginning), i didn't seek for clinic and continue working. I know, it was Sunday, still...... When the company release out the memo, you can't do anything, unless you don't want to work there anymore. I can't if i stop, that mean that i am gonna to extend another year for graduation. LOL!

After work, i went to pharmacy to get some medication. Bought some non-drowsy flu medicine, sore throat medicine and a pack of mask. I scared that my flu will infect my cousin. It cost me RM23 just for that. Later, when i went back home, i aunt suggested me to see the doctor in a clinic called Mediviron. The doctor told me that, i don'thave fever, but it was just a beginning. I requested for MC for the next day, coz i know that i will start getting sick later.

I hope that i can heal soon. I really hate this kind of feeling. Blur, drowsy, itchy throat..... all the unpleasent feeling. Sigh.....

Internship's Diary - Day 20 (Wesak Day)

2009-05-09T09:23:00.000-07:00

Happy Wesak!

Today is Wesak day, a day that celebrate the birth, death and enlightenment of Buddha. I was a public holiday, yet every staff in SK were compulsory to work due to the stock check. This stock check was just another suffering day, working in the holiday mood. And we need to cramp in the stock to calculate the amount of stock. Can you imagine 20 people stucked in a tiny store with any aircond. It was so hot and stuffy. I don't really have the mood on it. I purposely finish my lunch earlier and continue to do the stock check so that i can finish it earlier and can get back faster. And my group was actually finished the job by 2.30pm. I thought i can get back, but we were not allowed to do so, This worsen when i actually asked assist the other for check up. Again, we were given another 3 racks to check. Sigh....

I tried not to speak any impolite word to respect the Wesak Day. But i never thought that i would be so hard for me. LOL! Coz i used to that bad habit. Went to Brickfield and reached around 7.10pm. Daniel told me that the possession start at 7pm. I rushed to Mahavihara Temple, but the possession had begun. I called Daniel to meet him. Guess what, he was more than 1 km in front me. I had to run all the way to catch them with just a pair slipper. I didn't expect for possession, i just thought of going around the temple and do some simple puja then get home, but.....
As the consequences, i got cuts on both of my legs and toes. Sigh.... so cham!!! Overall the possession was very interesting, we were at the front of it. There we once, when we slowed down our walk, and the minister (Koh Su Khoon) was just 1 meter behind us, and we walk as if he is transparent, until his bodyguard block us away from him. Damn, the body guard was so rude. I wanna to blog more about this 10km possession, but now is already 1am. And need to work tomorrow So...... good night!

Internship's Diary- Day 19

2009-05-08T14:27:00.000-07:00

Last night i told Kah Wei to wake me up 6.30am so that i can get ready earlier, I told him that if i don't go to work, i will be kick off from the company and need to extend another 1 year.

I was super tired and sleepy!

And.....He did really woke me up at 6.30am sharp. Guess he didn't sleep that night. I wonder what he is doing then. I was still weak that time, and he pulled me up, informing me that it's time to wake up, by 7am, the road to Puchong will start to jam, so i must go out before that time. Took a bath, packed my stuff and just 10 minutes before 7, i drove back to Puchong. I was still a bit of headache and damn sleepy. Bcoz i drove back before 7, i manage to escape from the traffic jam and got into the office by 7.20am. Still early, get some nap till 8am.

Today we had the stock check where all the staffs in SK were grouped into 2 persons per group. i was lucky, i am the only group with 3 people. Basically we just need to count the amount of a certain stocks for phase 1. While phase 2, we need to verify other group count. And we manage to finish it just before 12pm and we were free.

I didn't do anything on the afternoon to evening session.LOL! Coz there were nothing to do, all there technicians were there, just like me doing nothing, and they told me to rest. I straight away went to place where we do our meeting at get some nap. That was a strategic spot for resting.LOL! I was also sleeping during lunch. I was getting here and there some nap to compasate my sleeping debt for last night.

Just 5.30pm sharp, i straight away went back home. Again, i didn't went to gym today. I was too tired for and gym training. Just got back home, get a pack of instant noodle for dinner, blog a bit, then sleep. I actually wanna to wait for a friend of mine to online, unfortunately, i was too tired to do that.

Anyway, thanks again to Kah Wei and Li Yi!

Internship's Diary- Day 18

2009-05-08T03:26:00.000-07:00

Last night i failed to blog becoz.......... Let start everything from the start till the end.

View taken from the place did the generator installation for the use for telecommunication tower.

Yesterday i was assigned to Tangkak, Johor for the installation of alternator with a technician, D. This was the first time i went to Johor ( so you can expect that i not even been in Singapore). I was exited when i had been informed that i will be going for outstation tomorrow, but it turned ought when we started our job. First of all, the alternator was damn heavy, i guess around 60-70kg. Secondly, i must work under the sun. Can you imagine that i was working under the sun without any shed from 11am -1.30pm. It's freaking hot. Luckily i just had a bit sun burn on my cheek. When i was working under the sun, i looked on the sky and said," Sun, get away. Be cloudy or rainy" Within 20 minutes, it really turned cloud and windy. As if the nature can listen to my thought. This remind me of a song Prayer by Madonna. I love that song.

Since we finished out job earlier that expected time, we went to Muar, Din's hometown for a while. He wanna to bring me to his fruits farm. Currently, there are only mangoes, the mangoesteen and durian still yet to ripe.

Somewhere in Muar, birth place of Negarukuku song.LOL!

Mangoes we picked. You can smell the fragrant of the mangoes even your are 200m from the farm.

I didn't went to Fitness First yesterday coz Li Yi and her housemates asked me out for dinner at Syabu-Syabu, a Japanese buffet dinner. It's kinda cheap, Just RM26+, a lot's of varieties. PLUS Li Yi treated me. Got free dinner.LOL!

My favorite, red squid! Just left one!

The naughty Mervin actually asked Li Yi are she going for clubbing tonight during our dinner. LOL! My seduction kinda successful coz the Japanese Restaurant actually playing those clubbing songs like Lady Gaga,Shawn Kingston.... Making her got the mood to club.(bad Mervin). Plus we actually left another bottle of Chivas there last Saturday. And finally we decided to go! Finish dinner by 10.30pm, straight away went home to bath and pack my stuff.By 11.20pm, i reach Li Yi's house. She still not ready, still in make up. We were at Poppy by 12.35am. That night, the popi was only half of the section, another half was closed. Lesser people, but cooler. Each of Li Yi's coursemates brought their respective friends, including Li Yi herself. LOL! So, it's kinda a lot people today. I can't believe that i was again in Poppy less that a week. Gosh!!!!Which mean i actually clubbed 2 times i just a week. Plus this was the 3rd time i has been to Poppy. Thursday was ladies night, so......

For me, this was the best night i ever had for clubbing. Previously i was with friends which not the clubbing type or those going with their gf and bf, so....less fun. This time, more girls. I was particularly high thanks to those guys who got me into 1 shot drink for 5 rounds. Damn, i barely stand straight. LOL! That night, a chick, a future nutritionist was so open and hot, so...... Li Yi told me, " Mervin don't chao sui" LOL! I wonder, am i over chao sui? Or maybe thanks to the alcohol effect. That night, we changed our role, Li Yi is the one who taking care me.LOL! She did the driving(back Bangi), brought me plastic in case i vomit, bought me ice tea... though she was kinda clumsy( why? ask her.LOL!), but i really appreciate her concern toward me. Thank you!

From left Sheryl , me and Li Yi. Damn, my shirt was wet (chivas+ mixer+sweat)LOL!

There was one incident, where the girl,Sheryl who studying nutrition saw me smoking and said,
Sl: Don't smoke la, smoking bad for health.
Me: Then, is it Chivas good for health?
Sl: Sure ( and she laugh)
Me: I only smoke when i club. I am a good boy k!
Sl: Me too. A good girl.
That was a silly conversation. LOL!

Bet Li Yi will kill me for this photo.LOL! For the blog, click here. Li Yi/Sylvianna/Ah Phua was my partner for 1st year college prom night and my best clubbing partner.LOL! Gonna to miss her soon!

We didn't go for mamak session coz Li Yi said later i have work, so we should go back soon. She drove me back. Took me up to her house. She and Kah Wei took care me. Prepared me a mattress, a plastic bag and even boil hot water for me, and carried me up from the bed to drink water. I was so tired hardly get up from the mattress. I was staying at Bangi, straight away sleep coz i need to get up by 6.20am coz there might be a mass traffic jam on the way from Bangi to Puchong.

To be continue..... next diary!

Internship's Diary- Day 17

2009-05-06T07:52:00.000-07:00

I almost fell asleep just now which waiting for my turn to online. I am currently using my uncle's laptop to online due to some complication. Lazy to explain again.

Back then when i was in Uni, i normally sleep more than 10 hours perday, but now just 6 hours perday!LOL!

This was the second day in workshop. Again, i was playing the lego like game. LOL! Assembling the tractor L2XXX. Today, i assemble the whole tractor by my own. Yeah, i am capable in it! I actually assembled a tractor for the second day of my workshop's session. That's a record i guess for a trainee like me. LOL! Come on la, i am a future engineer k. Not mechanics. Of course i am better. I am someone with a degree. Sure my absorbing rate higher. Just i got a little bit of problem with the weight of the tractor. Some parts really heavy, especially the the differential part, it is nearly 30-40kg. I almost hurt my back.LOL! There a lot more different tractors, soon i am gonna to try each of them. Working in workshop just like you in the transformer movie, where you can see many type of tractors, from the size of kancil car until the size of 3 tonne lorry. LOL! The L2XXX model is just like the size of kembara, slightly smaller.

My childhood cartoon turned into a famous action movie.

Working in workshop was damn tiring, it consumed a lot of energy. What you need is energy and energy. It was even more exhausted that going for gym or body combat. I can feel the strain and pain from my muscles. Normally, i am still energetic after gym session, but these 2 days were making me so lazy to move around.LOL! Good news for myself. I am actually 62.5kg now compared to 66kg last 3 weeks. That's mean that my weight reduction's plan paid off. I was atually gained 7kg since from April(i was 59.2kg) to October(66-67kg) last year. When i go out, my friends sure tell me, " Mervin, you fat d la. With tummy and chubby face" I heard that more that 50 times and i decided to reduce my weight which supposely to be carried out during December, but...... so i postponed it during my internship. Well, after i diet with a lot of vege, meat, and egg + lesser quantity of rice, i sucessfully reduced 3.5kg in 3 weeks. Yes! I did it. I was suffering without supper, and junk foods(my favourite.LOL!). Now is the maintaining part, i must keep maintaining this weight. So far, there is not much improvement on my physical side, but at least, those fat is reducing, next step, i will continue will physical build up and start eating like usual with certain limitation.If not, there is no point for me to attend the gym session.LOL!

Some of my pants are actually getting looser, but some still the same.

Internship's Diary- Day 16

2009-05-05T07:12:00.000-07:00

Today was the first day i start my training in the workshop, the task of the day,assembling tractor L2XX. For me, that was technician works, but that the trainee job. Must get in to experience what the technician's job. Over all, the job consumed a lot of energy and you must get yourself dirty. I even get a small cut on my finger, but i didn't tell anyone or any treatment coz this was the first time working in workshop, i don't want people see me incapable in the workshop. Call me ego, call me stupid. This is Mervin.LOL!

Money! Money! Money!

Actually working in the workshop is just like a tai chi ye (rich boy) farming in the farm. LOL! After all, i am consider a small tai chi ye.LOL! Coz i never work before, except once in genting. My dad is the owner of a glass and aluminium shop, and my brother is working with him. I am such a loser who just know how to spend money without generating any income. Such a pai ka chai. So imagine how i hold the spnar.LOL! A guy who only hold pen and pencil and his eyes on the computer and books, but now he has to hold spanar and facing the tractors. LOL! Working in the workshop isn't that bad (at the moment) just like a town boy getting exited with the village life. Haha... Don't under estimate me k, though i am lazy, doesn't mean i don't know. I look innocent, doesn't mean i am good boy. I look weak and soft, doesn't mean i am incapable and useless. Coz, in my life, i have a very skillful man beside me. He taught me a lot. From cooking skill, using hardware to life philosophy. That man is my FATHER! I know a lot of things. say it, cooking? wiring? general knowledge? history? news? housing design? ........ That's why i know a little bit of this and that. So, this workshop won't be a problem to me.LOL! Isi kacang la! My colleugues in the office keep asking me," how? ok? still can tahan?" Coz the said that, "you are a degree holder, that job to heavy for you." Then funny thing was everyone keep focusing the scar on my right hand. Sigh.... i really dunno how to explain (ask Li Yi la, wanna to know, see my previous blog, Night Life). They though that i got the scar from the workshop.LOL! I am not that weak k!

First day in workshop really exhausted and i just had an house of gym session due to tiresome. In the gym, i overheard a gym trainer telling his student about genetic and the rate of physical improvement. He said that if your ancestor was a war warrior such as Guan Yu, then you got the tendency to get your body in shape fast, but if your ancestor was the literature type, book worm, then i need some time to build up you body. I was wondering how true his theory.LOL! But who care, I still think that determination is the key of sucess.

Chinese most respected warrior!

Internship's Diary- Day 15

2009-05-04T06:53:00.000-07:00

If you notice, my internship count is base of the day i go for my training, excluding weekend and public holiday.

I was suppose to start my workshop session today, unfortunately my safely boot reached after lunch. So my workshop session will start by tomorrow. Basically i did nothing much today. I didn't bring my laptop to work because i thought of the training in the workshop. Well, i did intentionally not bringing my laptop coz i don't really like to use my personal laptop for office work. Plus, the office computer might contain a lot of viruses, if documents plus viruses are transfered to my laptop..... gone case!!!

Today i saw a model like leng chai went to my working place. But the sad part was, he actually in the office to spray some pest control. LOL! What more interesting was he actually had a very soft sound, sort of baby sound. I bet when i tell this to Jia Wen about the first part, she will....LOL! But if i tell her about his occupation and voice......LOL! You know, i know, that's enough! After all, nothing perfect. If you got something, on the other hand, you miss out something. Though no doubt that there are people who life in fairy tale life. But who know the reality behind it.

How true is fairy tale? Or just a story that cheat the kids?

I really i am getting more vain. I am getting exaggerated of myself. Trying to improve and improve. Physically, mentally, studies, career. Everything that related to me, i want to get it perfect. I know it's hard, but my determination, my desire encourage me to continue it. I am in my 20s now, another 2 years, i will be a quarter century old. LOL! Time's running, i must optimize the usage, doing thing that only can be done at this moment. I don't want to regret for thing that i missed up which i know i can't afford to miss it. That's why i am still single now, coz my requirement have been leveled up. LOL!

How good is good? How perfect is perfect?