Same like last year, i didn't manage to blow any candle for my birthday. No cake for me, just a simple dinner with some of my housemates in pizza hut on the night before my birthday, and a supper at secret recepi, with one of my coursemate. Nothing special, just like normal dinner, just that i do not need to pocket out any money. LOL! Thank you for the treat.
Somehow, this year, i was kinda content, even though there was no cake for me. Maybe, i already get use to it. In the past, i didn't really celebrate it. Perhaps you can say that i only celebrate it once, during my second year. And that's all. Haha.... Now i remember why i was happy,I actually received more than 70 birthday wishes mostly through facebook and sms, and some from friendster and calls. Well, at least i was still been remembered. it was kinda of surprise when you receive wishes even someone you had lost contact with. Friends from incovar camp, from my formal school,RMC, from my hometown, those who are in Singapore, from my course, from my previous college,KIY, from SD, from Chinese, Indian, Malay, some that close to me, some that far away, people that i know, people that i use to know but forgotten.......blah..blah.....
That was kinda meaningful day for me when i knew that my existence been noticed by people around me. I made wish for my birthday. Perhaps, not even in my thought to wish for something. LOL!that day, i was filled with classes, from morning until night. Whole day class plus the project's report; i don't even have the time to take a break, where on the earth do you think i have the time to enjoy the day, besides that, everyone was busy with their projects and examination.
Well, just turned 23. Seem like time turning so fast. Within a month or maybe lesser, i will start my practical training. Wish the time get a bit slower, so that i can enjoy more.LOL!
Monday, March 16, 2009
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Lesson to be Learn 2(FAMILY AFFAIR)!
As a typical Chinese (baba nyonya) in Malaysia, I was binded with taboos, rules, as well the family tree. Baba Nyonya had been few generations in Malaysia, so do my family. Guess i was the 5th or 6th generation in TI(Teluk Intan),since the Chew's family moved here from Penang. Todays, if you walk around TI and bump into someone who is has the surname Chew, that mean he/she has blood related with me. He/she might be one of my distance relative. Therefore, i was grew in the atmosphere where must behave well because there were many eyes looking at you.
I remembered when i was you, during the Chinese New Year, when we visited our relative house, my dad will told us,
" Please greet when you meet someone and remember to behave yourself in others people house."
"If not, next time I won't bring you all out"
That was the standard phrases he uttered out every time we had a visit.
When i was young, i didn't understand why dad was so strict to me compare to my cousins. I always been scolded when i did a minor mistake. At that time, i thought that he hate me, he don't like me.
As time passed, I have grown, and my perception changed, i finally understood the reason. It's not that he hate me, but he love me. Because he knew that when we were in others people house, there were eyes looking for our faults and there were mouth that start talking, and start judging us.
Since my family is such a big family, where everyone is related to you. Here come the conflict part. As i mention before, i am a pleaser. So, i tend to please people who carry the status relative.
Let us for get the past, let me focus on the recent incident.
On the middle of the February, i received a message through Facebook, it was a message from my cousin in New Zeland.
Cousin:Mervin, I will be in Malaysia on the 5th. Will you be in KL or Teluk Intan then?Can you give me your mobile number again please?
(So i checked the calender as well my time table.And then replied him.)
Me:You mean on the March 5th,on Thursday? I will be in KL. And i am having lecture on the
afternoon. My mobile number is +6017-5721882.So you will be back together with you sister?
Cousin:Yes, I will be in KL on the 5th, my plan lands at 2PM. What time does your lecture finish? Will be giving you a call later on in the week or next week.
(He just answer my 1st question)
Me:Around that time. Which airport are you landing?Give a call for further arrangement.
A week later he called me.
Me: Hello!
Cousin:Hello, Mervin, C**** ** here.
Me:Oh yes, so how's you arrangement?
Cousin: I will be back to Malaysia on the 5th, there arrival should be around 2 something. Are you free that time?
Me: I am having class until 2pm. I will probably pick you up by 3pm.
Cousin: That is OK for me.
(Later he continue) By the way, can you please buy be a bus ticket to somewhere to the border
of Thailand.
Me: Let me check the schedule for you later.Meanwhile check which part of Thailand you want
go?
Cousin: OK. I will contact you later, either through phone call or Facebook.
Few days later, on the Facebook
Cousin:Have you managed to look at the bus schedules to Thailand?Looking at google maps, there seems to be a highway (E1?) which leads to the border of Thailand. Goes from KL, past Teluk Intan to Thailand.Would that be the best route to take?
(I was surprise with that message, he didn't even tell me where want to go yey he is asking me which one is the best route)
Me:you still haven't give me the location you wanna to stop. Which part of Thailand border? Which state? Which city/town? Please do inform me.
Few days later one of his friend in Malaysia called me. His name was Albert. Well, i didn't really get any information from him, as if he don't know anything, and all i got was he wanted me to bus a ticket for C**** ** to Hatyai.
At least i know the location for me the check the schedule.
So, i went to Hentian Kajang(A bus station near my Uni) to search for the words Hatyai. And i finally found it. Unfortunately the ticket counter was closed.
So, i went for the second time, luckily it was open.So i asked the lady at the counter. And she told me that ticket can be bought here, but the bus will depart at Puduraya. For Thursday night, the bus will be 10.30pm and Friday morning will be 9.30 am.
I didn't buy it at that time because i don't know which day will be the best. So i tried to call his friend Albert, but somehow, his clever friend off his hp all there time. I made 8 calls, and all calls failed to reach him.
Few days laterC**** ** called.
Cousin: So how is the arrangement?
Me: I checked the schedule. There will be bus at Thursday, 10.30pm and Friday 9,30am. So which time do you prefer? Thursday night or Friday morning?
Cousin: Then buy the Friday ticket. And my fight will reach airport around 2 something.
Me: Ok. see you then.
Later, i went to Hentian and bought the ticket.
Me: Akak, bagi saya tiket ke Hatyai, 5 haribulan 3.Pagi
Lady: Berapa?
Me:Satu. Pukul berapa kak?
Lady: 9.30 am
Me: Berapa kak?
Lady: RM57
(I open up my wallet and took out a RM50 note and a RM10 note)
Lady: Tak ade duit kecil ke?
Me: (showing her me wallet) Tak de la.
(Then the lady took back the ticket from me and then return back my RM10)
Lady: You pergi beli ape-ape la kat kedai, pastu tukar duit kecil. Nanti datang ambil.
(WTF! what kind of service is that, but no choice, i went to the near by stall and bought a waffer to get a change and went back to the ticket counter to get the ticket)
On the evening, i called my mum.
Me: C**** ** said that he is coming back this 5th of March.
Mum: Mmm, he called you?
Me: No through internet. And i will fetch him at KLIA
Mum: (with high tone) What, you promise to fetch him? Don't you having class on that day?Are you too free?
Me: That time i just finish my class.
Mum: Why you must the one who fectch him? He got so many uncles in KL. He should call them instead you.
Me: That time is working hour, maybe they are not free.
Mum: I thought you said that you got a lot of assignment to do. Why do you just reject his request? Later if you got problem, don't come and complain.
Me: I am just informing you. Not asking you permission. He already ask, how i am suppose to say no?
Mum: Then you settle it your own.
(Conversation ended. I know mum angry not because i helped my cousin, just because he scared that i been used by others. Since the beginning, my parents don't have good impression toward them. Every time they came back sure bring along their problems to us.)
On the 5th of March.
This morning i turn on my computer, check my mail and somehow i opened up my facebook, there was a message from C**** ** then written
"royal brunei has changed my flight, I am now flying malaysian airlines - mh130 - which departs 14:15 nzt."
What is that suppose to mean? Is his flight forwarded or delayed? i don't know. Given me the departure in time, how i am suppose to know when is your arrival and wha tis time in Malaysia.
I realized that all his messages short and incomplete. He expecting everyone know what he was planning. Sigh.... such an age, yet doing such irresponsible thing.
Well, i waited till 2pm, and i still yet to receive any call. I was wondering what i should do. Should i just wait him at the airport? or i should just wait for his call? For your info, i need 1 drive to reach KLIA.
Luckily i didn't wait him at the airport. Because i didn't received calls from him. Later, i called my uncle at TI if he got any news about him, and the answer was negative.
It's already 7.00pm, so i went out with my coursemate for dinner. Once we finished our dinner around 8.45pm, i received a call. It was from C**** **.
Cousin: Mervin, i reached KLIA.
Me: (a bit surprise) Ok, then i am coming now to fetch you. About an hour.
Cousin:( with a bit frustrated tone) What an hour? Don't i told you the time,in the Facebook?
Me: (WTF! Kinda frustrated) You just told me you changed the plane. How i suppose to know?
Cousin: Ok, then wait you there.
( I was so angry with his attitude, as if i owe him. His stupidity with unclear messages expect me to understand what he is trying to say. Yet i still have to control my emotion drive to the KLIA and fetch him.
At the arrival of the airport, fetched him up.
Me:In you mesage you just told me the time you depart,how i suppose to know when you reach?
Cousin: When i was sending you the message, the airport annouced last-call so i didn't manage to finish my message
(with few second pause) The flight from NZ to here is 12 hours and there were 5 hours different between Malaysia and New Zeland.
The way he said, as if do not want to admit his fault. I was wondering, why don't you message it earlier or just give me a call. Sigh... feeling pointless to argue with such people, I didn't continue the conversation.
That night, he stayed at my room, Had his bath, then he went to sleep. I was rushing for my project, so i went out to continue doing my stuff. 1 am, feeling tired, i stopped doing my working, went to my room, once i opened the room, i sensed a smell, a smell which not belong to me. I was not really comfortable with it, but at least, i still can bear with it. Once i was on bed, i heard the snoring sound. Maybe because i was too tired, i able to ignored it and continue sleeping.
6am, i woke up, continue with my project. By 7.20 am, i want C**** ** up. He got up, 10 minutes later.Around 8.00am we leaved to room to KTM.Before that, he leaved me a big luggage bag with some stuff inside, and say " This are for you all" I was wondering who did he meant "you all",but who cares, i don't want any of it.That day, the train was late again, i was suppose to reach by 8.23am, but reached about 8.42am. At the end, we just manage to reach bus station 4 minutes before 9.30am. Due to time time, i asked him to get into the bus first, while i went to the nearest stall to buy him some bread and a bottle of water and passed it to him. Then i went back to uni because i am having class at 12pm. For the whole process, i never get a word of thank you from him. From all the time i wasted and all the money i spent, i get no return, even the bus ticket. In the end, i just used my own pocket money to pay all his expenses. Agrh... this month, i have to be a bit stingly coz i am missing out 1/6 of my monthly pocket money.
Things didn't ended there. By 1pm, his sister sms me, asking me about the luggage. Just like my parents expectation, they sure leave some troublefor you to solve, just like Hokkien phrase " Leave a piece of shit for you to clear"
On the next day,Saturday, C**** ** mum called
Aunt: Mervin, did C**** ** leave a bag at your house?
Me: Yes, why?
Aunt: Then when are you going back to TI?
Me: Mmm, actually i am not going back, but my mum coming over this 12th of March, so i will pass over to her
Aunt: Oh, i see, then when she will be back to TI? Afternoon? or Night?
Me: I don't know. Let me ask my mum 1st.
Aunt: OK. Then you are when is she going back TI.
Well, now i am 100% clear that the "you all" did not mean us. Maybe someone else.
Then, i called my mum.
Me: Mother, you are coming up on the 12th right? Aaron's SPM result will be on the 12th right?
Mum: Yes. Why?
Me: Hehe, the luggage C**** ** leave here. Just now his mum called me. She was asking when are you going back TI
Mum: See, i told you, they sure leave some shit for you to clear.
Me: Ya la. So what time you will be going back TI?
Mum: I not sure. I still not sure what time will you brother's result will be out. Just tell them you don't know.
Me: OK. If they need it urgently, i will ask them to come by themselve and that it.
Again, i call her back.
Aunt Bee: Hello? who's on the line?
Me: Is me, Mervin
Aunt Bee: Yes? Why?
Me: I wanna to talk to AhMgeh( a calling)
Aunt Bee: Just talk out, they can hear you.(What!!! she is turning on the loud speaker)
Me: Ah Mgeh
Aunt: Mervin, how?
Me: My mum said that she is not sure what time she will reach TI(Teluk Intan) on the 12th.
Aunt: On the 12th will be too late. How about you come to 4-Check's house (my 4th uncle) for dinner, i TREAT you
Me: (i straight a way) No. I cannot, i am doing my assignment. I not free to go.
(Deep in my heart, no matter what you treat me, i not intended to go.)
Aunt: How long your place to here?
Me: About an hour plus.
Aunt: If that, then just pass it on the 12th. What to do.
Me: OK. Bye.
Lesson to be Learn:
1) Try not to be a pleaser.
2) Understand a person character before you give a hand.
3) Becareful when you offer help.
4) The only genuine people to offer you help will be only your mum,dad, and siblings.
5) Some friend or relative meant nothing,they just using you as their tool.
Life full of experiences, you will know when you experience it yourself.
If you never experience it, you will never know.
From experiences, i grown, i learned, and i took my path.
I remembered when i was you, during the Chinese New Year, when we visited our relative house, my dad will told us,
" Please greet when you meet someone and remember to behave yourself in others people house."
"If not, next time I won't bring you all out"
That was the standard phrases he uttered out every time we had a visit.
When i was young, i didn't understand why dad was so strict to me compare to my cousins. I always been scolded when i did a minor mistake. At that time, i thought that he hate me, he don't like me.
As time passed, I have grown, and my perception changed, i finally understood the reason. It's not that he hate me, but he love me. Because he knew that when we were in others people house, there were eyes looking for our faults and there were mouth that start talking, and start judging us.
Since my family is such a big family, where everyone is related to you. Here come the conflict part. As i mention before, i am a pleaser. So, i tend to please people who carry the status relative.
Let us for get the past, let me focus on the recent incident.
On the middle of the February, i received a message through Facebook, it was a message from my cousin in New Zeland.
Cousin:Mervin, I will be in Malaysia on the 5th. Will you be in KL or Teluk Intan then?Can you give me your mobile number again please?
(So i checked the calender as well my time table.And then replied him.)
Me:You mean on the March 5th,on Thursday? I will be in KL. And i am having lecture on the
afternoon. My mobile number is +6017-5721882.So you will be back together with you sister?
Cousin:Yes, I will be in KL on the 5th, my plan lands at 2PM. What time does your lecture finish? Will be giving you a call later on in the week or next week.
(He just answer my 1st question)
Me:Around that time. Which airport are you landing?Give a call for further arrangement.
A week later he called me.
Me: Hello!
Cousin:Hello, Mervin, C**** ** here.
Me:Oh yes, so how's you arrangement?
Cousin: I will be back to Malaysia on the 5th, there arrival should be around 2 something. Are you free that time?
Me: I am having class until 2pm. I will probably pick you up by 3pm.
Cousin: That is OK for me.
(Later he continue) By the way, can you please buy be a bus ticket to somewhere to the border
of Thailand.
Me: Let me check the schedule for you later.Meanwhile check which part of Thailand you want
go?
Cousin: OK. I will contact you later, either through phone call or Facebook.
Few days later, on the Facebook
Cousin:Have you managed to look at the bus schedules to Thailand?Looking at google maps, there seems to be a highway (E1?) which leads to the border of Thailand. Goes from KL, past Teluk Intan to Thailand.Would that be the best route to take?
(I was surprise with that message, he didn't even tell me where want to go yey he is asking me which one is the best route)
Me:you still haven't give me the location you wanna to stop. Which part of Thailand border? Which state? Which city/town? Please do inform me.
Few days later one of his friend in Malaysia called me. His name was Albert. Well, i didn't really get any information from him, as if he don't know anything, and all i got was he wanted me to bus a ticket for C**** ** to Hatyai.
At least i know the location for me the check the schedule.
So, i went to Hentian Kajang(A bus station near my Uni) to search for the words Hatyai. And i finally found it. Unfortunately the ticket counter was closed.
So, i went for the second time, luckily it was open.So i asked the lady at the counter. And she told me that ticket can be bought here, but the bus will depart at Puduraya. For Thursday night, the bus will be 10.30pm and Friday morning will be 9.30 am.
I didn't buy it at that time because i don't know which day will be the best. So i tried to call his friend Albert, but somehow, his clever friend off his hp all there time. I made 8 calls, and all calls failed to reach him.
Few days laterC**** ** called.
Cousin: So how is the arrangement?
Me: I checked the schedule. There will be bus at Thursday, 10.30pm and Friday 9,30am. So which time do you prefer? Thursday night or Friday morning?
Cousin: Then buy the Friday ticket. And my fight will reach airport around 2 something.
Me: Ok. see you then.
Later, i went to Hentian and bought the ticket.
Me: Akak, bagi saya tiket ke Hatyai, 5 haribulan 3.Pagi
Lady: Berapa?
Me:Satu. Pukul berapa kak?
Lady: 9.30 am
Me: Berapa kak?
Lady: RM57
(I open up my wallet and took out a RM50 note and a RM10 note)
Lady: Tak ade duit kecil ke?
Me: (showing her me wallet) Tak de la.
(Then the lady took back the ticket from me and then return back my RM10)
Lady: You pergi beli ape-ape la kat kedai, pastu tukar duit kecil. Nanti datang ambil.
(WTF! what kind of service is that, but no choice, i went to the near by stall and bought a waffer to get a change and went back to the ticket counter to get the ticket)
On the evening, i called my mum.
Me: C**** ** said that he is coming back this 5th of March.
Mum: Mmm, he called you?
Me: No through internet. And i will fetch him at KLIA
Mum: (with high tone) What, you promise to fetch him? Don't you having class on that day?Are you too free?
Me: That time i just finish my class.
Mum: Why you must the one who fectch him? He got so many uncles in KL. He should call them instead you.
Me: That time is working hour, maybe they are not free.
Mum: I thought you said that you got a lot of assignment to do. Why do you just reject his request? Later if you got problem, don't come and complain.
Me: I am just informing you. Not asking you permission. He already ask, how i am suppose to say no?
Mum: Then you settle it your own.
(Conversation ended. I know mum angry not because i helped my cousin, just because he scared that i been used by others. Since the beginning, my parents don't have good impression toward them. Every time they came back sure bring along their problems to us.)
On the 5th of March.
This morning i turn on my computer, check my mail and somehow i opened up my facebook, there was a message from C**** ** then written
"royal brunei has changed my flight, I am now flying malaysian airlines - mh130 - which departs 14:15 nzt."
What is that suppose to mean? Is his flight forwarded or delayed? i don't know. Given me the departure in time, how i am suppose to know when is your arrival and wha tis time in Malaysia.
I realized that all his messages short and incomplete. He expecting everyone know what he was planning. Sigh.... such an age, yet doing such irresponsible thing.
Well, i waited till 2pm, and i still yet to receive any call. I was wondering what i should do. Should i just wait him at the airport? or i should just wait for his call? For your info, i need 1 drive to reach KLIA.
Luckily i didn't wait him at the airport. Because i didn't received calls from him. Later, i called my uncle at TI if he got any news about him, and the answer was negative.
It's already 7.00pm, so i went out with my coursemate for dinner. Once we finished our dinner around 8.45pm, i received a call. It was from C**** **.
Cousin: Mervin, i reached KLIA.
Me: (a bit surprise) Ok, then i am coming now to fetch you. About an hour.
Cousin:( with a bit frustrated tone) What an hour? Don't i told you the time,in the Facebook?
Me: (WTF! Kinda frustrated) You just told me you changed the plane. How i suppose to know?
Cousin: Ok, then wait you there.
( I was so angry with his attitude, as if i owe him. His stupidity with unclear messages expect me to understand what he is trying to say. Yet i still have to control my emotion drive to the KLIA and fetch him.
At the arrival of the airport, fetched him up.
Me:In you mesage you just told me the time you depart,how i suppose to know when you reach?
Cousin: When i was sending you the message, the airport annouced last-call so i didn't manage to finish my message
(with few second pause) The flight from NZ to here is 12 hours and there were 5 hours different between Malaysia and New Zeland.
The way he said, as if do not want to admit his fault. I was wondering, why don't you message it earlier or just give me a call. Sigh... feeling pointless to argue with such people, I didn't continue the conversation.
That night, he stayed at my room, Had his bath, then he went to sleep. I was rushing for my project, so i went out to continue doing my stuff. 1 am, feeling tired, i stopped doing my working, went to my room, once i opened the room, i sensed a smell, a smell which not belong to me. I was not really comfortable with it, but at least, i still can bear with it. Once i was on bed, i heard the snoring sound. Maybe because i was too tired, i able to ignored it and continue sleeping.
6am, i woke up, continue with my project. By 7.20 am, i want C**** ** up. He got up, 10 minutes later.Around 8.00am we leaved to room to KTM.Before that, he leaved me a big luggage bag with some stuff inside, and say " This are for you all" I was wondering who did he meant "you all",but who cares, i don't want any of it.That day, the train was late again, i was suppose to reach by 8.23am, but reached about 8.42am. At the end, we just manage to reach bus station 4 minutes before 9.30am. Due to time time, i asked him to get into the bus first, while i went to the nearest stall to buy him some bread and a bottle of water and passed it to him. Then i went back to uni because i am having class at 12pm. For the whole process, i never get a word of thank you from him. From all the time i wasted and all the money i spent, i get no return, even the bus ticket. In the end, i just used my own pocket money to pay all his expenses. Agrh... this month, i have to be a bit stingly coz i am missing out 1/6 of my monthly pocket money.
Things didn't ended there. By 1pm, his sister sms me, asking me about the luggage. Just like my parents expectation, they sure leave some troublefor you to solve, just like Hokkien phrase " Leave a piece of shit for you to clear"
On the next day,Saturday, C**** ** mum called
Aunt: Mervin, did C**** ** leave a bag at your house?
Me: Yes, why?
Aunt: Then when are you going back to TI?
Me: Mmm, actually i am not going back, but my mum coming over this 12th of March, so i will pass over to her
Aunt: Oh, i see, then when she will be back to TI? Afternoon? or Night?
Me: I don't know. Let me ask my mum 1st.
Aunt: OK. Then you are when is she going back TI.
Well, now i am 100% clear that the "you all" did not mean us. Maybe someone else.
Then, i called my mum.
Me: Mother, you are coming up on the 12th right? Aaron's SPM result will be on the 12th right?
Mum: Yes. Why?
Me: Hehe, the luggage C**** ** leave here. Just now his mum called me. She was asking when are you going back TI
Mum: See, i told you, they sure leave some shit for you to clear.
Me: Ya la. So what time you will be going back TI?
Mum: I not sure. I still not sure what time will you brother's result will be out. Just tell them you don't know.
Me: OK. If they need it urgently, i will ask them to come by themselve and that it.
Again, i call her back.
Aunt Bee: Hello? who's on the line?
Me: Is me, Mervin
Aunt Bee: Yes? Why?
Me: I wanna to talk to AhMgeh( a calling)
Aunt Bee: Just talk out, they can hear you.(What!!! she is turning on the loud speaker)
Me: Ah Mgeh
Aunt: Mervin, how?
Me: My mum said that she is not sure what time she will reach TI(Teluk Intan) on the 12th.
Aunt: On the 12th will be too late. How about you come to 4-Check's house (my 4th uncle) for dinner, i TREAT you
Me: (i straight a way) No. I cannot, i am doing my assignment. I not free to go.
(Deep in my heart, no matter what you treat me, i not intended to go.)
Aunt: How long your place to here?
Me: About an hour plus.
Aunt: If that, then just pass it on the 12th. What to do.
Me: OK. Bye.
Lesson to be Learn:
1) Try not to be a pleaser.
2) Understand a person character before you give a hand.
3) Becareful when you offer help.
4) The only genuine people to offer you help will be only your mum,dad, and siblings.
5) Some friend or relative meant nothing,they just using you as their tool.
Life full of experiences, you will know when you experience it yourself.
If you never experience it, you will never know.
From experiences, i grown, i learned, and i took my path.
Friday, March 6, 2009
Lesson to be Learn 1(JAPANESE)!
I had been a hectic week. Rushing for project. Sleepless night. Unsettle down feeling. Well as a red hat thinker(refer Edward de Bono's theory), that the way how i think. Though i don't really like it, but that's me.What to do!
Last Wednesday, i went to Look Up Point with a group of Japanese( i skipped my German class, a bit guilty). This was the first time i actually communicate with Japanese people. Though they are a bunch of youngsters(19-21), yet we still able to converse well. It was kinda hard to really understand what they are talking, and they can't either really understand us. haha... as if dog talking to cat. When i talked to them, i need to use the simplest word to describe a thing and need to think when they talked to you something. After all, we need a lot of patient to communicate. Interestingly was they actually brought a note book whenever they go, a jotted down whatever incidents they experienced. I remember that when i told them my name, they immediately wrote it down on their note books. It's kinda funny when i saw their writing, as if a standard 1 student writing abc.... or you can say how horrible my words when i write in Chinese.LOL!
They a surprisingly the friendly type. Very lovely,polite and full of expressions. Once we reached the restaurant, they started to run with their cameras up.Going to take photos with the KL view.
They seem like so happy and really enjoy the night scene of KL. Thing got more interesting when i fetched 3 of the Japanese girls back to Uni. Whatever we talked, they surely showed us their expression. Unless the don't understand, and showed us the look that they were blur. Once they get what you meant they will al, together" ah......haik" showing that they understood us. As if every single word you speak you been appreciated. Once we reached their hostel, they got down from the car and then 3 of them bow together and say " aligatogosaimasta".
That night was an eye-opening night for me. And lesson to be learn:
1) Try to note down what everthing that you experience as a memory.
2) The outside world is so different and there are many things to be learn.
3) Being optimistic
4) Life is full of experiences.
Here some pics:
Last Wednesday, i went to Look Up Point with a group of Japanese( i skipped my German class, a bit guilty). This was the first time i actually communicate with Japanese people. Though they are a bunch of youngsters(19-21), yet we still able to converse well. It was kinda hard to really understand what they are talking, and they can't either really understand us. haha... as if dog talking to cat. When i talked to them, i need to use the simplest word to describe a thing and need to think when they talked to you something. After all, we need a lot of patient to communicate. Interestingly was they actually brought a note book whenever they go, a jotted down whatever incidents they experienced. I remember that when i told them my name, they immediately wrote it down on their note books. It's kinda funny when i saw their writing, as if a standard 1 student writing abc.... or you can say how horrible my words when i write in Chinese.LOL!
They a surprisingly the friendly type. Very lovely,polite and full of expressions. Once we reached the restaurant, they started to run with their cameras up.Going to take photos with the KL view.
They seem like so happy and really enjoy the night scene of KL. Thing got more interesting when i fetched 3 of the Japanese girls back to Uni. Whatever we talked, they surely showed us their expression. Unless the don't understand, and showed us the look that they were blur. Once they get what you meant they will al, together" ah......haik" showing that they understood us. As if every single word you speak you been appreciated. Once we reached their hostel, they got down from the car and then 3 of them bow together and say " aligatogosaimasta".
That night was an eye-opening night for me. And lesson to be learn:
1) Try to note down what everthing that you experience as a memory.
2) The outside world is so different and there are many things to be learn.
3) Being optimistic
4) Life is full of experiences.
Here some pics:
Sunday, March 1, 2009
StReSs!
Out of stress, out of tension, out of boredom!Thanks to the integrated project.
Tada! the 999th Visitor!
Self-post during CNY!
But now fully bald. Wonder when my hair will be like usual again. Oh hair, please grow faster!
Tada! the 999th Visitor!
Self-post during CNY!But now fully bald. Wonder when my hair will be like usual again. Oh hair, please grow faster!
K. Continue the project!
Friday, February 20, 2009
I am scared, worried, nervous!
I am worried since dinner time, when i was told by Chee Seong that next week is the due date for the submission of the internship letter. But until now, i get nothing, what i can do is just a blind wait. Hopelessly wait.I know right now is already 1.45am, yet i won't be sleeping soon as there are a lot of stuff awaited for me to do. Too much tasks, lab reports, homework,revision for next week Fluid Mechanics exam, the Integrated Project tasks, FEBLAB software to be learn for the project, my German classes, the application stuff, and last but not least, the INTERNSHIP
I remembered last year, July 24, 2008 where i received an e-mail from my scholarship's company,YSD.
The content stated that i was compulsory to do my practical training under SD. Thus, i replied them on August 14.
September, where we had our first meeting for the internship organised by my faculty. Everyone started looking for the a position even the application only will start during September. That time i was not in worried as i know i will be given a place for my intership by my sholarship's company.
On the middle of October, my university organised a career fair. There i met Ms Shuhada, the one that in-charge of the SD's booth during the fair. I asked her about about the details regarding internship as a YSD's scholar and she told me to e-mail the person in-charge of my scholarship and cc to her the e-mail. Well, i did e-mailed again my resume and my internship details to YSD and i was replied that my application will be process and my status of application will be advise once i received a placement for it.
On the middle of November, just a day before my final paper, i applied for a internship post using Jobstreet, and i was called for the interview in Petaling Jaya. I went all the way to PJ for the interview and i was successful for the application. Then, i was requested to get the confirmation letter for the post. I consulted with my friend who work at HR department. He suggested me not to take up the letter as it required me to sign the confirmation letter as i been told by YSD that i need to do my practical training under SD. Therefore, i didn't take up the letter.The company was Tien Wah Group Bhd.
I waited patiently for the reply from YSD. From time to time, i actually wanted to call the YSD for clarification, yet i scared if i will bothered them as i already sent the second e-mail, as well several calls.
On January 10,2009, i sent my 3rd e-mail to YSD as i been told that my resume has been misplaced and i was required to send again my resume. No choice, i just did what i has been told to do. That's the only thing i can do. There is no place for me to fuss out, there is no place for me to complain. And i don't really want to confront anyone. I don't want to blame anyone, I just wanna to get a position for my internship. YET.......
For the following week, i made another call to YSD to get myself updated for my internship status. And i got the same reply, your application is still in process....... I am helpless. There is nothing i can do.
After the Scholar Development Programme, i knew that Ms Intan will be in-charging on the internship programme. Therefore, on February 9, again i sent my internship detail to her.
I did call her, twice within a week regarding my internship, yet i still didn't get any positive answer from her. Still pending......
Today, after been told that by next week will be the closing date for my internship application. Those who failed for the application will have to extend. Crush!!!!! I was so shock, so worried, my head was swinging. Luckily i still manage to cover up my feeling. Today was the birthday celebration for 4 of my friends. I didn't want to spoil the atmosphere. All i can do was just acting, and showed them the everything is normal.
Right now, i was so nervous, so scared, so ........ I do really need someone beside me right now to comfort me, to share my worries.
But, when i looked around, there is no one there........
I remembered last year, July 24, 2008 where i received an e-mail from my scholarship's company,YSD.
The content stated that i was compulsory to do my practical training under SD. Thus, i replied them on August 14.
September, where we had our first meeting for the internship organised by my faculty. Everyone started looking for the a position even the application only will start during September. That time i was not in worried as i know i will be given a place for my intership by my sholarship's company.
On the middle of October, my university organised a career fair. There i met Ms Shuhada, the one that in-charge of the SD's booth during the fair. I asked her about about the details regarding internship as a YSD's scholar and she told me to e-mail the person in-charge of my scholarship and cc to her the e-mail. Well, i did e-mailed again my resume and my internship details to YSD and i was replied that my application will be process and my status of application will be advise once i received a placement for it.
On the middle of November, just a day before my final paper, i applied for a internship post using Jobstreet, and i was called for the interview in Petaling Jaya. I went all the way to PJ for the interview and i was successful for the application. Then, i was requested to get the confirmation letter for the post. I consulted with my friend who work at HR department. He suggested me not to take up the letter as it required me to sign the confirmation letter as i been told by YSD that i need to do my practical training under SD. Therefore, i didn't take up the letter.The company was Tien Wah Group Bhd.
I waited patiently for the reply from YSD. From time to time, i actually wanted to call the YSD for clarification, yet i scared if i will bothered them as i already sent the second e-mail, as well several calls.
On January 10,2009, i sent my 3rd e-mail to YSD as i been told that my resume has been misplaced and i was required to send again my resume. No choice, i just did what i has been told to do. That's the only thing i can do. There is no place for me to fuss out, there is no place for me to complain. And i don't really want to confront anyone. I don't want to blame anyone, I just wanna to get a position for my internship. YET.......
For the following week, i made another call to YSD to get myself updated for my internship status. And i got the same reply, your application is still in process....... I am helpless. There is nothing i can do.
After the Scholar Development Programme, i knew that Ms Intan will be in-charging on the internship programme. Therefore, on February 9, again i sent my internship detail to her.
I did call her, twice within a week regarding my internship, yet i still didn't get any positive answer from her. Still pending......
Today, after been told that by next week will be the closing date for my internship application. Those who failed for the application will have to extend. Crush!!!!! I was so shock, so worried, my head was swinging. Luckily i still manage to cover up my feeling. Today was the birthday celebration for 4 of my friends. I didn't want to spoil the atmosphere. All i can do was just acting, and showed them the everything is normal.
Right now, i was so nervous, so scared, so ........ I do really need someone beside me right now to comfort me, to share my worries.
But, when i looked around, there is no one there........
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
When the flower bloomed....
The Valentine's Day just passed. Just couple days before that, i saw one of my housemate make origami, a rose type. Today, i read one of my friend blog, and it showed his moments of love, moments of happiness. Really wish them have an eternity love!
But... somehow, it just reminded my the past which i don't really wanna to remember. It reminded how obsessed i was for that special day. My obsession not just on the day itself, but the preparation, the surprises and sacrifices i made. Well! I can say what i did really better than what my friends did for such a day. But in the end, i realised that what i did just to please. No denial, some of the things i did out of my own will, but the result given me another answer. As Li Yi said in her blog, " as time passes, everything changes" " Sometime, just like when you tidy up your room, throw what you suppose to throw, as they are already spoilt and rotten.So do your bad memories"
What she said was right, but just time you just can't stop flashing back the past.
When we say Valentine's Day, we imagine of flowers,roses, couples, dinner, and $$. LOL!
I was so fortunate that i was able to spent the day with my friends. I really willing to spend for the sake of passing through the very moment rather that doing nothing in the room.
Guess that i suppose able to spend a more meaningful day, but becoz i am a pleaser( refer Wai Si's blog), i didn't make it. Pleaser! She was right, i am one of the pleaser. Always please others. Wish i can be more selfish, wish i can care less on others people views.
If i can do so, guess that day might be a special day for me too. Unfortunately, a pleaser always a pleaser. Friends come first.
Nevertheless, i really glad that i have that bunch of friends i can hang out with. Thank you!
Well, love is something so possessive which i really have to avoid. It has been almost a year. People popped up with the questions "Are you sure you are single?" "why don't you look for a girlfriend?" "When are you getting a girlfriend?".....blah...blah....how annoying. But the most annoying when people simply match me up with others. Though most of the time i ignore it, but sometime it really get me irritated
For me, looking for a girl, flirt with her, then date, and do what couple do, but at the end everything turned into ashes. The moment, you feel you doubt about your relationship, then gone case. It's done.
Maybe i am tired of such unsuccessful relationships. Or maybe that not what i really need. But, sometime out of loneliness, you really few like hugging someone, and what i did was hugging my booster. LOL!
for time being, i will hug my booster!
Maybe one day.....
just before you sleep...
a good night kiss.....
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Soft-Hearted
I was suppose not to post any blog for my "self-reinvent" period. But......
I am always failed to get things i suppose to get or things that i suppose to do. I am so easy to be persuade for things that i don't want to do and didn't do things that i wanted to do.
Today, i was suppose to summit up a lab report, somehow one of the coursemate requested it for reference and promise to summit up for me later. Deep in my heart, i really don't want to borrow him my report. Firstly, i don't really close to that guy, secondly, i really wanna to personally summit up my own report. I really scare if my report didn't reach the demonstrator and i get penalized for my kindness. But, i really don't know how to say "NO"
At the same time, i encountered a group's member who always push all his problems to me. People who ask him somethings always ended up on my side. Everything seem related to me. Sometimes, i am really frustrated, but at least i know what kind of person they are. Dealing these kind of people really need a lot patient. Sigh.... It really alerted me to be more careful when i choose friends or i might ended been use again and again.
Life!
Again, this evening i introduced my housemate tuition students to him. Everything ran smooth, until the time when we discuss about the charges.i suppose to charge him at least half of the monthly income. But somehow, due to my stupid soft-hearted character, i just ended up charging him only one fifth of it. I really wanna to ask more, but.... sigh..
Sometime, i wish myself be more cold-hearted and more selfish. But a lot of time, because of the small connection, the small bond between these beings, i fail to do what i really wanted to do.
I am always failed to get things i suppose to get or things that i suppose to do. I am so easy to be persuade for things that i don't want to do and didn't do things that i wanted to do.
Today, i was suppose to summit up a lab report, somehow one of the coursemate requested it for reference and promise to summit up for me later. Deep in my heart, i really don't want to borrow him my report. Firstly, i don't really close to that guy, secondly, i really wanna to personally summit up my own report. I really scare if my report didn't reach the demonstrator and i get penalized for my kindness. But, i really don't know how to say "NO"
At the same time, i encountered a group's member who always push all his problems to me. People who ask him somethings always ended up on my side. Everything seem related to me. Sometimes, i am really frustrated, but at least i know what kind of person they are. Dealing these kind of people really need a lot patient. Sigh.... It really alerted me to be more careful when i choose friends or i might ended been use again and again.
Life!
Again, this evening i introduced my housemate tuition students to him. Everything ran smooth, until the time when we discuss about the charges.i suppose to charge him at least half of the monthly income. But somehow, due to my stupid soft-hearted character, i just ended up charging him only one fifth of it. I really wanna to ask more, but.... sigh..
Sometime, i wish myself be more cold-hearted and more selfish. But a lot of time, because of the small connection, the small bond between these beings, i fail to do what i really wanted to do.
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