Last week, Chee Onn given me some assessment for a personality test which divided to four groups of profile, the popular sanguine, the powerful choleric, the perfect melancholy, and the peaceful phlegmatic. Each people have 2 of its as their domain. But surprisingly i do not dominate any of it, because i possesses all the four profiles, you can define me as a person with multi personalities or without any personality.
From the beginning of my life till now, what i experienced seem like everything hanging on the middle. Possess no specialty. Never being excellence nor too weak in my studies, never be good in sports not being a weakling. From a not too poor or extremely rich family. I wish me myself at least perfect i a field not in between, hanging and going nowhere. Being an intermediate causing me a lot of doubt, undecided choice, as struggling to be one of these group coz no one is in common with me. People might think this kind of personality is the can adapt with everyone but someone it isn't easy, you are not yourself and you not belong to the group.
Friday, July 11, 2008
The Beginning!!!
New sem started with the new Mervin, staying at newly rent house,with new bed,new wardrobe drive 'new car''kelisa, new housemates, new lecturers for this semester, with new coursemate from German(student exchange), new lifestyle and most importantly new effort and new aspiration.
For the first week of the semester, and for the first time i am being so attentive in the class. Maybe the way of those lecturers delivered their lectures effectively or my personal aspiration changed my personality. I want to have a good results for this semester. If possible i hope that i can gain a four flat. But is that possible? Some might think that i just dreaming, but who care, this my aspiration for this coming 2 years. For the sake of my self-improvement, i will work harder to achieve my goal. Having quiz for the first week of the semester is kinda surprising, but i did my revision. There will be 2 more quizzes coming next week. Preparation is the for my to achieve my goal.
What i meant by new lifestyle? New aspiration is one of the factors that changes my living style. Being single again is also one of it. Somehow when you were not single turned single, you might feel some kind of loneliness, but i don't have the mood to change my status. Just need some friends who really can understand me and talk to me, and lean his/her ears to me. I wish i could find someone in my uni. At the moment none can do so, all are just friends who looking for your help or seeking benefits from you. Some even worst, trying to pull you down, uninspired you. It's kind of tough for me, especially when you tried to be truly yourself and helping sincerely. They are humans, even your pal next to you try to fail your effort. Seem like being myself isn't easy for me, coz no matter what you are doing, they will look for your mistake. Waking up early and sleep early seem to be a healthy lifestyle, but the worst thing is a sleep most of the time, i old bad habit, i tried to eliminate it, but it staying at the home doing nothing, with no friend, what else you can do. of course sleep la.
Aspiration is there, but to achieve it, i need to pass through all those hindrance in front me. I wish i could do so. Perharp someone can stay beside me when i pass through my life. I wish...
For the first week of the semester, and for the first time i am being so attentive in the class. Maybe the way of those lecturers delivered their lectures effectively or my personal aspiration changed my personality. I want to have a good results for this semester. If possible i hope that i can gain a four flat. But is that possible? Some might think that i just dreaming, but who care, this my aspiration for this coming 2 years. For the sake of my self-improvement, i will work harder to achieve my goal. Having quiz for the first week of the semester is kinda surprising, but i did my revision. There will be 2 more quizzes coming next week. Preparation is the for my to achieve my goal.
What i meant by new lifestyle? New aspiration is one of the factors that changes my living style. Being single again is also one of it. Somehow when you were not single turned single, you might feel some kind of loneliness, but i don't have the mood to change my status. Just need some friends who really can understand me and talk to me, and lean his/her ears to me. I wish i could find someone in my uni. At the moment none can do so, all are just friends who looking for your help or seeking benefits from you. Some even worst, trying to pull you down, uninspired you. It's kind of tough for me, especially when you tried to be truly yourself and helping sincerely. They are humans, even your pal next to you try to fail your effort. Seem like being myself isn't easy for me, coz no matter what you are doing, they will look for your mistake. Waking up early and sleep early seem to be a healthy lifestyle, but the worst thing is a sleep most of the time, i old bad habit, i tried to eliminate it, but it staying at the home doing nothing, with no friend, what else you can do. of course sleep la.
Aspiration is there, but to achieve it, i need to pass through all those hindrance in front me. I wish i could do so. Perharp someone can stay beside me when i pass through my life. I wish...
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