Determination!

Determination! Determination! Determination!

I always fail to keep myself with the books when in come to examination! It's always excuses and distractions when i am suppose to concentrate

and study. The word DETERMINATION seem easy to be uttered out, but i far to be reach! hard to keep myself on track! In in the pace what i have planned.

Examination is coming in no time, yet i wasn't ready. Everyday filled myself with worrisome but lack of enthusiasm to perform my task. :(

I have build up my revision plan, but the execution will be another story. Starting this Monday, i've tried to check myself with sticky note. Yeah, i noticed that it do help, but the progression was just 60%.. 40% of the work will be postponed to the next day. In the end, more and more thing piled up together and i got even more stress or feel like giving up.

Every morning, when i woke up, just before i get out of my bed, i will tell myself "today will be a fine day, i will be happy, and i will finish all my task" But it seem like doesn't work. I recalled that i always convinced my friends never ever give up! But i just realized that not giving up is not sufficient to make my day, i still need D-E-T-E-R-M-I-N-A-T-I-O-N!!!

2 habits that i need to cultivate for my whole examination period will be:

No. 1: Clearly identify my missions and proceed to my goals!

No.2: Prioritizing my goals!

We will see how it work! When the exam is over! I will check if those 2 habits are with me or not!

Some how, i feel like praying and ask for favor to the Almighty God in helping me go through this crucial moment. BUT i know, no one can help you, if you can't help yourself.

Just

7 days(23/7) before my German Language examination

18 days(3/8) for my Verfahren examination

39 days(24/8) for my Werkstoff II examination

41 days(26/8) for my Werkzeugmaschine examination

After the examination, i will check this post again, seeing how good i am in keeping my word!

Begin of the War!

Just came back from home after watching the last match of the World Cup, where Spain won over Netherlands by 1-0 during the additional time(110+ minutes). Everything ended! This was the first time in my life watching football matches since the beginning of the World Cup until the very final match. Maybe because of the atmosphere watching football was so different compared to Malaysia. It's really entertaining watching you favorite team winning the game with the supporters shouting, cheering. Especially on public viewing!

It's in the middle of July now. Will be having my first paper next week, German language, followed by Verfahren(process engineering), Werkstoff II and Werkzeugmaschine (machine tool) on 3rd,24th and 26th of August respectively. Which mean, i am starting a war on myself. Taming my mind. Killing my laziness, eliminating my unmotivated thought. Cultivating myself with the virtues i have learnt for the past 20 years. Is my final semester. I don't wish to pick up another semester. I have enough prolonging my degree courses.

Well, it was the 10th month in Germany. Time flies. Struggling to dettach myself from clinging the past. But right now, i must move forward. not to erase all the past, but to carry it with new goal, new inspiration. Overcoming my weakness by utilizing it in beneficial way. hmm.... i would not like to explain what i meant by the "past", because it already the past. xDDD

Summer in Germany isn't as nice as i thought. The hot and dry weather is really killing me. Sweat everyday, even in the room! making me so sticky and unmotivated to do anything. Perhaps, it was just an excuse for myself being lazy. xDBut, it is for sure i will be having lesser time on blogging (though i didn't update my blog about a month).

Hmm... my wish was granted! My thought, my hope has been answered. Mum and Dad finally bought their ticket to Germany this coming September. I can't wait to see them. It has been nearly a year. Though i am not a home boy, but..... i still love them as i always do. :)

Need to stop here now! World cup ended, my laziness end here. Time to fight for myself. Bye bye lazy Mervin!

Here are couple of pictures for June and July.

Taken during the match Germany vs Ghana(June 23,2010)

A day picnic in Essen, Grugapark, and "botaking" Adrian(June 26,2010)

Swimming and riding boat at Wedau,Duisburg (June 27,2010)

Germany vs Argentina(July 3,2010)!

Germany vs Spain (July 8,2010)!