Kosong

Pilu!!!
Bagaikan botol kosong tidak berisi.
Botol kosong di tengah laut.
Terapung-apung tanpa hala tuju.
Tanpa disokong, tanpa ditemani,
Terus berada di tengah lautan,
Dibuai perasaan kekosongan,
Menunggu air laut memenuhinya.
Masa sampai, botol kini penuh,
Sampai masanya untuk tenggelam,
Ke dalam dasar laut,
Yang dipenuhi kegelapan, kesamaran.
Dibawanya perasaan rindu, kasih
Tenggelam bersamanya.
Dikuburnya dalam dasar laut selamanya.
Tanpa diketahui,tanpa dikesani.........

Frustrated!!!!

very angry till wanna scold b****. "you really a b****!
Fed up!

Durjana Hidup!

Apakah hidup ini dipenuhi oleh orang-orang durjana?
Apakah hidup seorang budak naif akan didurjanai oleh syaitan-syaitan disekelilingnya?
Minda budak naif ini bagailah sehelai kertas putih.
Apakah kertas ini akan kekal putih selamanya?
Apakah kertas ini akan diwarnai dengan warna pelangi atau dicemari dengan contengan?
Apakah masa depan budak naif ini.

Bila, seorang budak naif, dicemar dengan hidup yang durjana, diselubungi kegelapan hidup. Hilang arah tuju, hilang penglihatan, hilang segala-galanya.....
Namun, janganlah budak naif lupa, satu-satunya yang masih berada disisi budak naif, DIRI SENDIRI. seseorang diri, budak naif kehilangan segalanya, dan dengan seorang dirilah budak naif memperoleh segalanya. Asalkan budak naif tidak kehilangan diri sendiri, maka segala yang hilang dapat dikembalikan. Dari kegelapan yang teramat, budak naif bangun dan terus mara kehadapan, Berkat kegigihan, dan kecekalan budak naif akan diterangi oleh suatu cahaya,suatu harapan membimbing budak naif bebas dari kegelapan hidup.Cahaya itu, sentiasa berada disisi budak naif, namun, syaitan-syaitan durjana cuma mengaburi mata si budak naif. Asalkan budak naif mahu cahaya, maka cahaya itulah yang akan menerangi hidup budak naif ini.
Persoalannya, mahukan budak naif hidup dalam cahaya ataupun kembali dalam hidup kegelapan?
Tiada siapa, tiada seorang pun dalam hidup ini menentukan hidup budak naif ini.
Cuma budak naif dan hanya budak naif sendiri sahaja mampu menentukan arah tujunya.
Cuma budak naif dan hanya budak naif sendiri sahaja yang dapat menuntukan hidupnya dalam cahaya atau kegelapan.
Renungkan.....

bitch slap

suddenly i remember a weird word from weird people. the bitch slap. well, i just know what it actually meant.

"Bitch slap

The term "bitch slap" is derived from American slang. In the original sense, a "bitch slap" is a powerful, full-swing slap in the face with the front of the hand, evoking the way an angry pimp might slap a defiant prostitute (not to be confused with a "pimp slap" which uses the back of the hand). However, the term is now frequently used figuratively to describe a humiliating defeat or punishment.

The term biatch, beyatch or beotch is a slang word for bitch. The term has become widely used in mainstream media to avoid censorship. It was also well defined in the once popular tune "Let Me Ride" by music performer Dr. Dre. Since the original term is no longer as derogatory as it once was, these derivatives are often used with emphasis to try to achieve the expression of irritation the term itself once expressed about the female character."

from wikipedia

eveyln, eveyln, you dah lah blur, some more simply say things. haigh... apa nak jadi. takkan nak jadi seperti apa yang anda cakap. dunia ini dah cukup banyak orang-orang itu. tolong la kurang kan. nanti overpopulated. haha.. what am i saying.....

The root of GREED!!!

Greed!!!
What does the word mean?
Desire to want something more and more. Guess everyone carrying it within ourselves. But what matter is how you control it. You can want this and that but make sure there is a limit. Some people wishing this and that everyday. When the open their eye they start thinking i wish i can...These people started themselves with small wishes and turned it to greed. i wish god will fulfill 3 wishes each day. that such a annoying statement. Because all those wishes are for his/her own self, that why it been called as greed. I remember what my dad thought us when we went to temple. He asked us, "why are you going to temple, and what are you going to say in front of the Buddha statue?" The question stunt us. Later he told us " when you go for prayers, never ever wish for something, never ask for favor, instead go with gratitude. Thanks for our well being, thanks for our healthy body, thank for our happiness, thanks for our happiness."
on that moment, i learned the meaning Gratitude from a person who never been any Dhamma lesson before. That's why, Dhamma is universal. everywhere, everyone,everytime there is the Dhamma.

So people who have such a good life, please be gratitude on what you are having now. Stop asking this and that. if there God exist, He will never grant wishes for such a person. Share your happiness, do more charity, this world, there is cause and effect. One day we will ripe what we seed. Whether it will be fruitful or rotten is depended on you! You make you own choice. HE can't make the choice for you. Plus if HE exist, HE would not like HIS creation giving HIM so much problem. HE has play HIS role, how about you? have you? Think about it.

The Fac Nite photos

Basically all these photos from Chun Ta's camera. Just a few of it. Just look at the photos! Kinda lazy to type.

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Should I blog about the last weekend stuff or something else? Maybe both…..

Basically last weekend nothing much interesting, just that we went to pavilion for a movie so call The Mummy 2. Reached the about 11.40pm but only left ticket at 12.50am. What to do? Bought the tickets and going nowhere and ended up in Coffee Bean. Each of us ordered a drink and a piece of cake. Compared to the Starbuck, I prefer Starbuck. 5 of us, hanging together but there were just tables with maximum 4 seats per table. No choice, just add a chair to fit all of us together. Tasted all the cakes they bought as well their drinks. Btw, when we were enjoying our cakes, one of my friends told me that something strange about 4 guys next to us. Basically I also feel so, but can really sure. Maybe their appearance or their outlook kinda different. Lol. Anyway, none of my business.

K back to the present. Exam coming, quizzes coming, test coming, haigh… with the lab reports, proposal for thermo lab and the integrated project stuff. Really making me headache.That’s the reality. So, Mervin, time for you to start working. Stop lying around doing nothing. The time is running out. You can stop, but the time will never do so.

An interesting clip!!!

check it out!
This may help you to cultivate loving kindness

Tiring Weekend(part A)

Let me continue the part 2….

Saturday, supposedly to be a light and easy day for me, but… I had my self registered a mathlab course. Which cost me RM60 !!!.auch…. Due to my intergrated project as well my weekness in programming, so I got no choice, and joined the course which took place in my course department’s computer lab.For the sake of that, I sacrificed my weekend. Haigh…. Guess what time is the course?It’s 8am early in the morning. Gosh, imagine you have to wake up as early as that for Saturday and Sunday. LOL…. Overall the course was just ok to me; I didn’t manage to learn much in this course. And only around 15 people participated this course. Facing the computer for the whole day, was kinda tiring, imagine you faced the computer from 8.30am till 5pm,around 8hours. Haigh…. Night time no event

Quit the crap, move to the next day, Sunday, same thing happened, just on that night i attended the fac nite. Been the around 6 plus, and when we reached there, all of them already eating left just a little food for use. No more refill. What la, I have paid rm 50 for the dinner la. How come no refill, plus the food was suck. The performance overall was just ok. Just a few of the candidate performance were satisfactory, there others suck. After all the performance ended, was the dancing time. This was the worst part of the event for me. I hate this part, which reminded me when I was first year. This is the part when I started to feel lonely, where you felt so empty.haigh…. Wanna to dance, but the problem is with whom? Although I the middle of the event, I tried to make myself enjoy the moment, but somehow, I just can’t. I don’t have the mood. Just pretending that I am a part of the crowd. For the fac king and queen, some how won by JKMB(my course department) wow…..

I am kinda sleepy now. That all for the last weekend stuff. This weekend stuff will be post up tomorrow.

Tiring Week(part A)

Starting1^st-3^rd August, I have been busy for the whole weekend, or basically can say I am kinda busy for the whole week. Anyway, the most happening days was the weekend starting from Friday till Sunday.

Let me start with Friday morning, where I suppose don’t have any class on that day, but due to assignment, I had myself woke up earlier in the morning, rushing for my machine components design assignment to done. Having meeting with my supervisor of the integrated project at 10am to summit our proposal. Any surprisingly out of 3 groups, we was the only group which our proposal been accepted, while the other 2 been rejected. I was so surprise because there were some minor mistakes on our proposal, where I asked the supervisor whether we should redo our proposal, but he said ‘never mind, you don’t have the time to do it.” But he rejected the other 2 groups’ proposals and asked them to redo all over again. Basically the other group member told me that they made some major mistake on their literature review part. Luckily I went to the faculty to see the sample thesis way to write that part, we even went to Uni library to search details on the theme given, the power train system. I am glad that my effort pay off coz I am the kind that hardly been seen in any library in the Uni except for news paper reading. Lol. Being selected to be group leader for the project given me a bigger responsibility as I need to plan for the flow for the project progression, the time for meet up, task distribution, have to know what my group members progression, and ect… basically have to know everything. Haigh…. Again I am cling to the word ‘responsibility’, because during the meeting, the supervisor will ask me this and that, and if I fail to answer him,…… you know la. Haigh….

Let stop here. My Friday journey still going on!! After meeting, continued doing my assignment, and only able to reached home by 12pm. Had a short rest, take a nap, cook for lunch, and 3pm when for tuition till 5 something. Take a short break and the get ready myself for the “Comp Night”, college dinner. I had been invited, and it was free for me since I was the previous college’s committee member.

Reached the function around 7.20pm due to traffic congestion (we were expected to reach by 7pm), but luckily still a lot f them yet to reach. Overall the performance of the juniors for groups and candidates were awesome. And the newly selected Queen is very pretty. I wish I knew her. Lol! And the dinner ended around 12am and on bed around 1 plus. That’s the story of my whole Friday.

Oh ya no photos taken la, coz i still don't have the camera with me. Sorry, if not, i can take photo with the queen.Lol