Light in the Darkness!

Imagine when you lost your way. You lost your sight. And you facing obstacles that stopped to continue you journey. You are living in the dark. You lost everything! But please bear in mind, that when the world is turned upside down, the moment the you lost everything, please do not give up. Because at that moment, you will see a light that will guide you to your path. And this is very true, and this was the thing i experienced.

Last thursday i applied for an internship in a company through jobstreet. i applied it in the late morning, and i got a call on the evening that requested me to attend an interview 10 o'clock tomorrow morning. That time, i was totally unprepared, but somehow i agreed to attend the interview. On that day, i actually went to jusco with my friend for dinner and bought some gloserries, so by the time i reached home were almost 10pm. I got to search for the details of the company as well the location. The location was the thing that make me headache, i called few of my friends for direction as well search the google earth, and at last..... I took LRT to the place. What the ****

Ok. On the interview day, i do actually woke up by 5.45am. Get more information about the company, as well get ready my resume and cert. Supposely the company contact person said that she will mail me the map to her company, but somehow she didn't. She told me that she forgotten(what?) and she not even inform me what to be bring for the interview, so i have to prepare everything of in-case situation. I parked my can near the KTM in UKM area around 7.30am. Took the train to KL central, holy shit, the train was full, so i ended up stand for about 45minutes in the train. Reached KL central about 8.20, went to McD, had a hot coffee and breakfast. By 8.35am, i took train to Asia Jaya, the nearest station to the company and the train just took 15 minutes to reach. It's just 8.55am. I still have an hour plus before the interview, so i bought a news paper and read it at the bus stop till 9.15am. And somehow, the company is so near that it took less than 5 minutes for the taxi driver to get me there. Shit, it still too early. No choice, i ended up spent my remaining time in an mamak stall opposite the company. LOL!
The 9.50am, i reached the company.
I had my interview for about 30minutes plus. The content, i would not elaborate. Overall, my performance is ok, yet still got the room for improvement. At the end of the interview, i was requested to summit a letter from my university to verify that i am taking internship as well my referee contact numbers and email to them latest by Wednesday.

The only problem i am facing is the letter from UKM, immediately after my interview, i went to meet my internship coodinator, i went to his room twice, but failed to meet him. So, ended up, i email him for an appointment.
On Monday morning, i recieved his reply and requested me to meet a clerk in Denn's office. So went to the denn office, but they inform me that the clerk in-charge was not there. The thing that make me frustrated is the service in the denn's office, whenever i went there, i have to wait at least 5 to 10 minutes to get myself attended. The people there just take you as something transparent. They just pretend as you are not there until you wait such a long period... Haigh... that the progress made by Malaysian, a modern country, with latest technology, but sad to say uncivilized and irresponsible citizen.Esspecially the government servant.

Ok, we go to next day, again i went the denn office during the short break of german class, yet half of the break time spent just waited to be attend, sigh..., this time, she was around, but she told me that the Coordinatior in-charge were not in.(what the....) then she gave an option, either to wait till tommorow, when the coordinator is back, or look for a lecturer to sign on behalf. So, i choosed the second option, she wasted my time, where she just want to start typing the letter, by that time, my break ended, and the lecturer continued his lesson. When she done the letter she asked to look for a particular lecturer from chemical department, that time, i was arealdy late for the class, so i rush to the chemical department but i failed to find the lecturer room. So ended up i have to look for each and every of the lecturer room, and finally i found it, he is not from chemical department, but actually the electrical department. (what... really gonna to curse her!!!) By the time i reach there, i handed up the letter for signature, he refused to sign, because there was an typo error in the letter for the date of my internship(shit men). I i ran down back to the denn, told her about the mistake and said that i will be back for the letter tomorrow before noon, coz i am really late for my german class.I told the incident to my friend, and he told me just forget about the application coz i just need to wait for my scholarship company to give me a place for internship program. I didn't stop what i am doing, just because of that.

So, the nextday, Wednesday, again i went to the denn's office during my lunch break. This time everyone is there. But another problem occur, the Head of Coordinator refused to sign.Sigh.... The clerk told me that i cannot applied for any internship myself, any application my go through university. (oh, i almost at my limit) Somehow, my coordinator for my department who emailed me still yet in UKM. She told me that till they get clarification from my department coordinator,i will not get the letter. So, i ask her when? She just told me to be at denn's office around 3pm. And i was there at that time. And finally, it's done. It was the clerk mistake, instead a verification letter, she made a application letter which cause the Head coordinator refused to sign it. Haigh...
I immediately rush back home for email her the letter. For the first time, the mail was bounced back due to her inbox was full, i called her, and emailed her for the 2nd time, less than 15minutes after i mail it, she called me and requested me to pick my appointment letter by next day morning.

Such a long journey, such a mess. But at last it paid off with an offer. Which mean what i have done is not wasted. Though at last i rejected the offer, but i realized that determination is the key. Do whatever you can, and you will get a deserving result at the end.

The First Week of German Class

Suppose to blog about the 2nd,3rd... day of German class , but somehow failed to make it. Guess i should summarize the whole week stuff.

Classes taught by Herr Brian. Wow, this class was totally different from Frau Maria. This was due to the personality difference in both lecturers. Herr Brian, Is kinda relax type, easy going, and the way he teaches us sometime quite messy. But overall is ok. He used the slow motion way to teach us. So called slow and steady. LOL! Oh ya, few breaks were given by him. On the other hand, Frau Maria, a strict and systematic person. Everything she teaches is in order. Well structured. No much break time..LOL! one more thing, she is not at patient as Herr Brian, sometime she will bang the table as shout. LOL! that kinda funny to us, and we us to imitate what she did. LOL! Overall, the first week class was successful and beneficial for us. Oh ya, supposedly there were 13 of us, but now remained 12 students. One just stopped. Maybe he found the German class too hard to be learn. But no matter how, i will make my effort paid off. I guess!

German Class, Day 1

Supposedly wanna blog it last night, but i was too tired to do everything, so i ended up on be before 10.30pm. Our German class has 2 lecturer with is Herr Brian and Frau Maria where both are husband and wife. Basically, the 1st class was attended by Frau Maria with just 13 students. Since the numbers are small, the class was easy to be handle and she really a good lecturer. They way she taught us quite systematic and interesting, though she was kinda strict sometime. For the first class, i actually didn't learn much coz everything in the first day was just an introduction to me. Maybe because i just finished the level 3 class in UKM. But, i just take it as a revision class for me. The time is very pack, i am doubt that i have time for early revision. It was so exhausted when you have a whole day class. Guess it can't be help. I wish my effort taking this class is not wasted.

I do actually wanna to blog about the interview i had last friday as well the day of photoshop workshop plus the sjba dinner. Maybe i will just leave up that stuff and do my revision.

Lone Ranger!

Exam over and i just have 2 days of break. By next week i will start my german class.Saturday i am going to bgf and Sunday will be visiting my brother in RMC.
These remaining 2 days are the only precious days i had to go out as my holiday.

I suppose wanna to go out, have a movie, shopping, and perhaps clubbing or whatsoever, BUT i realized that none willing or free to be with me, at my critical moment,moment of desire.
I do realized that i do have a lots of friends, here and there, BUT they not really my sei tong or lame word best friend. Friends here just come and go. Different friends have different groups or so called geng. I do actually joined all the friends regardless of geng, and somehow i realized i am not a member in any of it. No membership,i am just a supporter or maybe visitor. LOL!
Being neutral, do give you the benefit or being mobile and flexi, but when it come to the critical moment, somehow, you will realized that you really need sei tong.
Up till now, i don't really have such person in my life. Sometime i am envy to those with such friends. Helping each others, regardless of time, reasons. Hanging out together, sharing the same interest. Having fun togather, Sharing the problem faced.

I wish i have one. But i know, i don't have any.
A am the Lone Ranger, not like what the MCA president said.
My defination of Lone Ranger means going through my path of myself alone.

Exam Over!

Finally the exam over.
I should be feeling at ease or freed,but not this time, instead of it, i feel more tension. As if, today is not the ending, but the beginning.
Exam over, everything sucks.
Maybe because eveything sucks, i have forced to put up a self-determination.
Or maybe, i don't have holiday this semester. I will be starting my class as early as next Monday.

Being good isn't enough for me, being average also not my type. Bcoz, all a while i am too "ordinary", but deep in my heart, i am different.
"Doing thing as you like" is not an option for me.
In this very world where people never stop talking...I am really sick of it.
Time for me to keep on moving, stop hiding, taking my mask off, and do exactly what i wanna to do. But i know, it not going to easy.

Perhaps what my friend Choon said is correct. " You shouldn't keep responsibility, burden, and stress to yourself. This because you always feel like you the eldest, you must bear the responsibility yourself, you think you must outshine yourself......bla..bla..." And i just gave her an answer " You are not in my shoe, you won't understand me. It's complicated", then she just replied me, "then just make it simple", " sigh! told ya, you don't understand it"
Flashing back the conversation which took place 6 month ago.

Maybe she was right, i make thing too complicated.
Life is simple, so just make it plain and simple.
But, not now, i still yet to achieve what i want,
the simple life thing, still not the time yet.
Conclusion,
It's complicated, hard to be explain.LOL!
Here some pictures of moody boy( assume that i am)!

Last Paper!

Tomorrow will be the last paper of this semester.
Finally, at last reaching the peak of the sem.
Unfortunately no break for me.
My German class start as early as next Monday (24th Nov)
Sigh...so uninspired, yet next week is my new journey, a new start, a new determination.
Somehow i always have all sort of new effort every sem, but all the time it ended up like shit. Everything gone hanging nowhere in the middle of it.
I hope that this won't happen to me this time. Bcoz i cannot afford to loss some more. I already lagging behind. Time to chase back. Time to be the front. Covering all the past.
Hope that the past too shall pass!
Continue to strive till the end!

Here so preview on the night before the final exam!


My room!



Stress on unsolved problem!



Ultimate stress for the final day!


ps:Just for tonight, the last time for this year.LOL!
Tomorrow will the another mervin! LOL!!

My Last Paper!

This is going to end soon!

Comment?

Haha...
Life is weird
but there are more weirdos than me.
Lol.
Recently i found out that some weirdo keep on commenting myself.
Haha....
And.........
after that, that person felt that what he/she is doing was something wrong.
That person finally run away!Lol!
These days i am learning to "cooled down". It doesn't matter if i am frustrated or not, i keep making myself ignored thee incident.
It was kinda hard to be optimistic and it's hard to be patient at the beginning.
But, guess i able to control it now though sometime things just get u frustrated.
Haigh...
Life go on.
till the very end of the day.
Peace!

MIddle of Exam Weeks!

3 papers down, left another 3 to go.
But, this time exam, really pulled me down.
I lost my effort.
I lost my determination.
I lost my willpower.
I lost my track.
and.....
I had myself lost!
Somehow i am too different compared to last time.
Though i am the lazy type, but at least i did my best for every last minute i had.
but not this time.
I lost the feeling of trying
Days passed, as if i am wasting my time doing unnecessary things.

I really wish i am NOT the red hat thinker.
It's so unstable
It's so uncertain
It's so hard to be control
I am running out of time,
wonder if it will stop or pause for a moment.
Though it might show the immaturity side of me.
Living in fantasy.
I wish i am.......
Time up!
Continue thermo!

Exam Slip!

Here my exam timetable!
will no be available for that duration.