Hope!?

K, now talking about hope!

As usual, I never let anyone to control my destiny. For me, only I myself can choose my path. So, the word “hope” hardly comes across to my world. And I don’t really believe in hope, because this word always brings me disappointment at the end of the day.

Recently, again I have been given a hope by the Reader’s Digest, a monetary hope, a hope that can fulfill my wishes. These letters come just in time, I the time where I need financial aid for my final year degree in Germany as well some others things.

I actually don’t really believe it, but the way the written they letter, the contents make me have a “hope” that I never expect. I have been told that I have been selected to join a contest which make up only 2% in Selangor and get a very high chance to win it. It’s say that the letter for the contest will reach in few days, and it’s been a week since the last letter. The hope is fading. I do wish for a fulfilled hope, but for an empty hope, I rather don’t want to have any of it. I don’t know how true the letter is, just wait and see. I don’t want to place high expectation on it, coz I might ended up with another disappointment.