When The Semester Near to The End, and Examination Approaches!

Since starting of this month, everyone start to isolate themselves and start studying. That was the time i hate most.

In this period, you will hardly see anyone:

1)online in MSN
2)playing Facebook
3)updating blog
4)chit chatting
5)outing
6)partying

They will say "NO" to everyone you asked! Refusing everything!

And of course me myself is all stress. Stress of exam, stress for being ignored, stress for everything! LOL!

Time running particularly fast. In 9 days, i will be having my 2nd Paper and 3rd paper a day after.

Well, no time for me to blog until these 2 papers is done.

I am now pushing myself to run as fast as i can! Cheer for me!

Proud or Ashamed?

Hmm... i actually didn't update my blog for weeks. Why? well, i don't want to explain in detail. As what IS post on his blog before, " the time spend on the internet/blog proportional to your degree of boredom"
That is not the key point of this blog.xDD

Lately, i have more and more German friends. And the question they surely ask is "where are you from?" at i will just said "Malaysia". From time to time they will ask about the Malaysia's culture, life......

Well, as Malaysian (i take myself as pure Malaysian, though some might disagree) i tried to promote my home country. Letting them know the beauty of "my homeland" (some don't think so). The beached, the cities,.....these and that.... blablabla.....

BUT, i guess what i did is useless.

The perspective of the world toward Malaysia is so bad when it come to HUMAN RIGHT! Cases like human trafficking, child abuse, discrimination, and corruption were known for years! Lately, the case Mongolian girl, the ISA case of Hindraf, Anwar's case.........
AND now, the "name of GOD" issue. I would not like to make any comment of these cases in this blog. Because many people think that voicing out your voice is wrong. And you might ended up in somewhere else!

Last week, again! another strike by our dearly ex-leader, Dr. M who said that "the Holocaust failed as a final solution" by Malaysia Insider. More,read here

I was shock with his statement! Where he think that extermination a race is one of the solution! Malaysia is already in bad situation due the the case of religious building attack, and yet he create another tension!

If more and more of this issue pertaining HUMAN RIGHT happened in Malaysia, i guess, we should just forget about promoting Malaysia to the world! Because when people think of Malaysia, what will people think?

Just stop pointing finger! keep blaming each other when problem occurs! Why don't keep people start solving the problem who remained there unsolved!

*ps: this is not any political view or so whatever related! I am just a Malaysian who feel so sad and helpless to see what happened in my country!

Random!

Here the last week House Party. Feel like blogging, but don't feel like typing.^^

Just let the pictures tell the stories.

A1 explaining the game rule, A looking!

blablabla... no time to go into detail!

Path of Life!

Recently i read Chua's blog " vor dem Raffelberg". Well, most of the post were in Chinese and of course i ain't know what he is writing about. But, i do know that he is penning down his bits of memories in Germany, where Raffelberg is the place he is staying right now.

We came from the same Uni, taking the same flight with the same goal to Germany. Time flew and thing changed. Everyone move to their own path with different mind set and lifestyle. Thus, i guess what Chua's blog about reflecting just a small portion on the living style. Living in the world of my own, i guess i lead my world very different from other Malaysian. Not special or unique or whatever pleasant word to be utter. It is just different!

In the beginning, we tend to group together. Hanging out together, had dinner together, traveled together, shopped together. Everything together!

But now, i had my own meal, own friends, own life.... Everything on my own! Just a certain occasion, we will hang out together.

I remembered, i use to be a pathetic jerk who ain't want to go out alone. Scare of getting lost!
Always feel depressed........ and those are the past!

Deep inside me, i had something where people don't like, where the world displeased of it and i so called it as my "weakness". I guess everyone wanted to be different, but when you are too different, you will think another way round!

Knowing the "weakness" and accepting it are 2 different thing. And from accepting to benefiting it. I know, it was ain't easy to gone through these phases. But, i did it! And it really make a difference to me. I guess CO's words did enlighten me! And that made today Mervin!

I am having a new life with new goal!
What goes around, and come around!
I am enjoying me life!^^( though still struggling for incoming examination)

ps:I not going to say about "weakness" LOL!

Vanilla Twilight (Owl City)

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you, dear
Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist deep in thought because when
I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
(Tonight, tonight, tonight...)

I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh if my voice could reach
back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear:
"Oh darling I wish you were here"

Random!

click the picture for maximum scale!

Last night i went to DM and printed out a bundle of pictures from 2006-2009, memories during my Uni life, and a compilation of childhood pic and stick it on my white plain wall of my room.

Each picture has it own story!

I missed out few pictures especially those in Amsterdam and some pictures where i think is nice for framing!

I wanted to print more pictures, but at the moment, that's all. Too expensive for me! ^^

Story!?

"I had the story, bit by bit, from various people, and, as generally happens in such cases, each time it was a different story." Edith Wharton

Just within a week, many thing happened. Guess what Edith quote was right, every moment, and time i experienced different thing. Everything was just the up and down of the life. Well let summarized it.

1) The pot of unknown plant i bought, finally bloomed . With nature fragrant of the flower, if helps me cover up those unwanted smell in my room!

2) I gone mad and insane when my room internet connection was out of service for the whole night.

3) C just found out something about me. We have something in common.

4) Chatted and saw pics of J. Glad that everything if fine. Flashing back the Sunway Pyramid incident!

5) Unintentionally stepped into C private matter. But manage to move out of it!

6) Trying hard to study, though most of the time fail.

7) Always had a great chat with A. Crapping around released my stress.

8) Forgotten today i had 3 appointments at the same time.
-dinner with JH
-met up with A
-gym with M
and i can just pick 1!

the flower blossomed pics with my back view of my room as background!

as you can see, each and every event is not related to each other. I was thinking how to post out my whole week stuff and..... ^^

Back Off!

today, when i was checking my own blog, i found out someone searched my blog through google by searching "mervin chew s*** k*****"
i was really pissed off. Because today was sunday, and there is a jerk trying to dig up some stupid thing from the past.

Well, i don't denial, i am a bit harsh this time. I still holding the grudge where i was " career assassinated" due to company politic, where i has been the black sheep for someone to get promotion. I was sentence to death without any judgment but a feedback. I almost have to repeat my 5 months training, where i had gone 4 months of it. I almost lost my only chance to be in Germany as the training was one of the requirement. And i lost RM30000 scholarship because of this matter. All thank to the GM.

I was suppose to go all out against it, but due to YSD's AM closed conversation and she helped me a lot in relocating me back to another company. I really thanks her for her help.

Today, and again, someone trying to dig back the past. Looking for problems! I really hate it. I hate the moment when i was requested to sweep the floor of the workshop, throwing chemical disposal, get cuts and bruises all over my body, doing those stuff which is not related with my mechanical engineering degree. Being toyed by someone who do not work but pointing out finger.

Though, i already tried hard NOT to be involve in any political stuff in the company. But it seem like, being neutral, you will also be in trouble. And as you in trouble, no one will help you.

Sigh! I don't like to blog about this out. But, i really can't stand silence when someone trying to harm me again and again.

I was told to be more mature, think in the wider view, and blog in a more positive way. And, here go. I did it. But... how about J who cause me fired, the management who put all the blame on me. Can't you all think a little more mature! be more open to criticism! For me criticism is a way to improve a company. Terminating someone who criticise the wrong doing, won't solve any problem. The problem will remain there.

I am really tired of all these think. It really affect me a lot. Mentally, emotionally.
So, those who search for "mervin chew s*** k*****" via google.

PLEASE BACK OFF! I AM DONE WITH THAT. I WANT MY LIFE BACK!

New Year 2010

Another 1 year has passed. Which mean i had been in Germany for 3 months and exam will be coming soon. Sigh... whenever i think about the examination, it got into my nerve.

Hmm.... after numerous of persuasion, i did join my friends for the New Year countdown in Cologne. Cologne definitely a nice place for new year celebration. The superb view of river with colorful ships moving along with the train bridge and classical buildings. As the firework was fired, the sky snowed. It was a perfect combination. While enjoying the beautiful scene with firework, you can see the white snows fall from the sky. Wow!

Firework! On the way to Cologne!

The Cathedral's View

from AL's fb

Initially i planned to stay back in my room and enjoy the Chivas i had just bought 2 days ago, but... guess i will only try it when A and B come.

I has been * months since the last time i had Chivas. Back then, S and me were clubbing freak. Love clubbing, enjoy night night. And we only order Chivas Regal every time we club. I still remembered what she told me " Don't simply 'chao sui',you are only allow to 'chao sui' me." That time was really funny.

Just took some pics of the chivas i took and again the bracelet on the table still my main attraction!

Unspoken!

Happy New Year everyone!