Thing That Never Change!

As promised, i went to watch movie "AVATAR" with my fellow friends. The movie was superb. I guess it will be awesome if i watch it in 3D.

This was the second time i watched movie in Germany. Previously was 2012. Both were great. But, when i watched these movies, i turned moody. Flashing back the happy moment i had when i watched "Final Destination" and "Orphan". Well, although those movies were nice, but the most memorable moments were the moments when i watched its with someone i fell to.

That was the moment i cherish! Remembering the warm hand i am holding, with the smile on the face and eyes contacts we had . It was the sweetest moment. Though it was just momentary, i appreciate each of every moment.

Time passed, it has been 3 months plus. Many thing changed, people changed, environment changed, everything changed. But something remain the same.......

I guess, i had another emo blog again! I hate emo blog. Make me loose my cool. Letting people see how weak i am. But no help, this is the nature of red hat!

Moving on, but cherish the moment of happiness.

I remembered when H had conflict with J couple of years ago and H said "You won't understand until you really fell with someone"
Now i really understand it!

My latest picture!

Guess photoholic like me can't resist to camwhore!
hehe...
Just taken on 2130, Dec 27, 2009 (Germany time)
in my room

Changes!

Time moving fast! Just a few days, and it will be year end and we will be stepping into 2010. Another year of aging.
Time passed, and thing changed!

I remember last week was snowing and now all the snow gone! Christmas passed and waiting for new year. Well, i suppose that Christmas and New Year will be a celebration for everyone. Or worst come to worst, you will stay back in home with family members.

During the Christmas eve, i was complaining to myself that i felt a bit lonely. Coz i can't celebrate it. But, thing changed when i found out that my housemate was still in and wanted to go home. Someone who stay so near to his family stayed back in hostel during Christmas eve. Alone!
At that moment, i felt that i staying alone is not a big deal.

But, what M said was right. No matter how, i am still the red hat thinker as defined by Edward de Bono. My emotion changed according to time. I lost my inspiration. Started to feel down.
Well, though Mervin is an emotional being, but he has the capability hiding it. After all, Mervin still a secretive being just like J.hehe!


Moving on! Examination is coming soon! Fun time over!

What make me sad when i realized that Chinese New Year will be during my examination period. Plus, my birthday will be the day before my birthday. Sigh.... Though some of the time i celebrated it alone, but i don't feel like studying on the day where i got a year older! hehe...

Xcite (part 2)

i personally love this picture where take while we were waiting for train at Dortmund!

Day 3 (Dec 20)

we were suppose heading to Cologne, but due to heavy snow, and delayed of S and K friend, we postponed out plan and have fun in Duisburg and Dusseldorf!

Workshop of the day, making snowman and explore both cities!

Firstly in Duisburg!



producing medium size snow in Duisburg! LOL!

isn't that cute!

Then Dusseldorf!

Still snowing!

MISSION 4 AND 5 COMPLETED!

Day 4 & 5 (Dec 21 and 22)

2 days trip to Winterberg for skiing!
Wow! Skiing was fun! xcite and xperience!

MISSION 6 ACCOMPLISHED!

Day 6 (Dec 23)

Supposedly going to Bonn and Cologne but due to appointment with lecturer, i missed out the trip to Bonn and had short trip to Cologne!

MISSION 7 FAILED!

well, nothing perfect! In the end, we had a lot of excitement and fun together. Though it was exhausting we had experienced something you can't have in Malaysia!

See ya! till the next Xcite!

Xciment under winter!

contributed by Daniel Ngan!

look familiar right? but unfortunately my photoshop skill too bad!

I remembered that B and few of my Germany friends asked me " what is your plan for this Christmas and New Year holiday?"
And i answer " I don't know!"

Well, up till today, i still don't know what i can do for those days. I was heart broken, worried, upset and tired for last few days. I almost lost my direction, but as i promised K and S who are coming to Germany with their friends. i have to be their tour guide, put aside my sorrow moment and enjoy the days of xciment!. Initially, i thought everything will be up side down since i not really know about the places in Germany. BUT..... i remember a song lyrics "we can always make a start".......... and........

Our first handmade poster!

Guess, my idea of creating a Germany version of Xcite isn't bad either! It make me happier!


Day 1 (Dec 18, 2009)
Guess what! our first mission was making a snowman under -4 degree Celsius. Took 15 minutes walk from my hostel to the park at 12.30am under snow!

It started with the journey of coldness!





and.... tada! mission successful.

the process of making a snowman is ain't easy! you need to Xperience it under Xtreme temperature. As the result, you well get the Xciment of your self-made Snowman!

MISSION 1 ACCOMPLISHED!

Day 2 (Dec 19, 2009) part 1

The mission of the day for this morning was to prepare a cake for brunch! well, this time only me doing the work as S and K still sleeping like pig!

K just finish brushing teeth and post on unbaked cake! hehe...

And..... here then cake! though, it is a little bit out of shape.

My work of art!

see! S only woke up after the cake was baked( 1 hours duration)!

MISSION 2 ACCOMPLISHED!

Next will be the trip to Dortmund for the biggest Christmas tree in Germany! Traveled 37 minutes from Duisburg main train station to Dortmund main train station. Journey to the tree under -11 degree Celsius!

Posting with the biggest Christmas tree!

MISSION 3 ACCOMPLISHED!

I was rather full of stress and unhappiness these few days. But INCOVAR inspired me to move on and enjoy the very moment of life!

ps:More pictures and xperience of xciment coming soon! Stay tune!

Impermanence!

Time changes everything! Impermanence!

From the 1st day i stepped my leg on Germany until today many thing changed.
From autumn with 17 degree Celsius to winter with -4 degree Celsius. And now with a little snow.

Back then i was a pathetic jerk who keep looking back. Living the the world of past. Thinking how wonderful the 'world' back in the home country. Keep complaining! Refuse to move on.

But as time passed. I grew up. I know that I must move on. Keep looking forward. Take those sweet as memories and bitter as lessons to learn.

It has been 2 and half months. But my progression is rather slow. Everything is behind the schedule. I need to start running now. Else, i will miss out even more.

As the same time, i start to open myself to this new life, new world. Opening myself to people i not even meet before. Let myself know more about the life here. Get to know people here. I was once told that, "It's hard to have German friends." Well, until now the fact is still true to me. But, it does not imply to each and every German here.

Last night i had an outing with A and B. Someone i just know. Somehow thing turn to be smooth and we had a great chat and conversation. Though those 2 are a bit far away from my place, but at least i make my first move by meeting them. Really looking forward for another outing. I don't really mind going to karaoke here in Germany though i can't sing. LOL! Coz A is just like me, can't sing either. We just sang out loud without caring that we were out of tune. Surprisingly B sang so well.

The Persistence of Memory by Dali

Guess this was the drawing A and B talking about. When they are trying to interpret the message behind this drawing! I got no idea about this picture when they were talking about that. They told me that i was a picture with melting clock and the cemetery. And i even made a joke that the picture is telling us that "when the time come, everyone have to die" LOL!

Hmm.... guess this picture has some relation about my title!

My First Winter!

I was suppose to blog out a lot of stuff, but somehow i failed to do so.

It's winter now. I remembered that, when i was in my childhood time, i craved for snow, for winter. I guess you all have that thought also. In my mind, winter should be a nice thing, when the whole place full of snows.

But, i guess i was wrong, term and condition applied.

I was my first time in oversea, and it will the first winter for me. Back in Malaysia, you either experiencing hot sunny day or raining day. No such thing as winter,spring,summer and autumn. These thing only exist in my geography book or in the movie.

Well, no snow yet. But the temperature here is about 4-7 degree Celsius. I remembered someone told me you will feel depressed during winter. I guess, they were right, it's really depressing. Especially when you hardly see the sun, it's either cloudy or raining. Moreover, you see no sun before 10am and get dark by 4pm. With the cold temperature, you won't feel like going out. That's why people have mood swing during winter. No me, myself alone, but also people around me.

Worst thing is when you sick. Gone case! you will eventually feel homesick. Crave for care and love!

Depression! Make me moody, lazy and less productive. No mood to study or either do anything. Just feel like sleeping and sleeping. Just like animal hibernating! LOL!

Opss! Break time over, i need to get back study after many unproductive day due to sickness.

Running away!

Why where these days people only looking for relationship! Can't we just be friend?
I don't know, why people can out of random and tell you something weird!
Sweat! Sometime i feel awful when people say "dear, or miss you, kiss.....bla....bla....."
You ain't know me and i don't know why they will fell on me! Sigh....

Worst still when then kept nagging on you even if you tried to avoid them.
First on msn, the i block them!
Then to facebook chat box, again i block!
Then to fb mail box, again i delete it.
Worst part is they even sms you!
Gosh.... these people really freak me out!

Can i make it clear....
I am happy with now as single.
No complicated relationship please!
Just a simple friend will do.

Please,please only friend!

I not even do such thing on the 1 i love.
I just let it be, since she ignored me....

56 days in Germany

Time passed really fast. 56 days just a glimpse of eye. And here now i studying in Germany. Many thing happened, here and there.

Here 10 things i would like to share with you guys. It based on my observation, and my own opinion.

1) Germans are punctual. If the Office hour is 8am-5am, than, you must not come earlier or later. You will not be entertain other than the specified time.


2) Germans greet. It come in standard phrase:
when meeting: "Halo/Guten Tag!"
when leaving: "Danke/ Ciao/Tschuss/schone Tag!"


3) Generation gap. There is a huge gap between X generation and Y generation. The way of
thinking, the openness and......


4) Public transportation is punctual. (most of the time, though sometime it was late)


5) It's hard to find a German friend (provided you speak good German)


6) German sausage and pork are nice. Bratwurst is the most popular.


7) Only Main city with a lot of tourist attraction, have bilingual signboard or announcement. I mean German and English.


8) Dusseldorf, second most important city in Germany. There is a Japanese street there.


9) Human right(mostly) are more respected. There are various style and type or people. You name it, and you can find it here.


10) There are more meat(pork,beef, chicken) that seafood. The fishes are imported, not fresh and expensive.

Inspiration!

I don't know since when i started blogging and who inspired me to do so. But that was few years back story. Perhaps four years ago when i start blogging through my friendster and then shifted to blospot until now.

For these 4 years, most or my highlight moments were updated through the blog. And those to gone through it will know bitz of my life (partially) LOL!

Initially, i thought that my blog just been read by my circle of friends. As time passed, i realized that there were so many people was actually following it. Last few days, i saw my visitor was from Turkey, Malaysia, Germany, UK, US, Brazil, and Singapore, Australia. I wonder who were them. LOL!

Another most surprise thing was, my blog did inspired other to start blogging. Though some of the give up halfway. LOL! But most of them had an impressive blog. LOL! Guess i am happy to see more and more blogger among my pals.

the only problem was, some of these blogs are in Chinese. And i can't read it. LOL!

I remembered some of my friends from electrical and mechanical told me that they actually followed my blog especially during my internship. LOL! And somehow, i did stop blogging for 2-3months and they said" Mervin, why you didn't update your blog for ages? I am you fan" LOL!

Conflict!

I heard that when there is an interaction, there is the conflict! We communicate, we talk, we voice out our thought regardless of verbally or non verbally. The there is different opinion or miscommunication, the conflict rises.

Well, living together with various type of people from different background, different lifestyle isn't a easy thing. Moreover, when there is a gap in term of mindset.

Ok, guess i should stop beating around the bush and straight to the point. Lately, there were more and more conflicts rise between us. Including me myself. Being the frustrated one and the one who been frustrated. A disagreed with B, B dissatisfied with C, C frustrated with E and F, D angry with A, and...... Some of them voiced up and some of kept quite and kept it in themselves.

Everyone kept pointing out their fingers here and there, including me myself. Everyone keen to think they are right. And yet we forget to reflect ourselves. Quick conclusion and sarcasm was the main reason of conflict!

I don't say that i am very good. I admit myself is one of them. Yet, sometime people just think they are always right. Trying to correct others.


Compromising isn't a good think to practice. How long can a people endure the own dissatisfaction? I am sorry to say, as a Buddhist, i failed to practice Buddhism. Guess i have wasted all the effort of fellow incovarians,the committees, and the speakers who tried to enlighten me about delusion.

Relationship between human kind is something too complex for me. Especially when we were expecting something from someone and turn out to be vice-versa.

Just take my relationships as an example. I was so into a person who barely care much about me. While there was someone who so keen to be with me. Plus there were so many confessions toward me and yet, i rejected them. I know the feeling of being ignored by someone who wanted so much. I know it, it just that i am helpless. And when such complication appeared, so do the conflict. (*this is the past. please don't ask)

But, survey from Reader Digest shows that the second most pleasurable thing is companion/friends beside sex. Hmm.... We prefer hanging out with friend rather than being alone. But hanging out with friends created conflict!